Ivo Bär & Birds, Cats, Dogs & other Animals

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-‘The Current War between People’s Dark/Light spirits’ (+/- 5 minutes) (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/h4bKEOeaPTE):

-‘Dark Spirits (Human Deceased), Talking to Animals, Higher Chakras & ‘Telepathy” (+/- 25 minutes) (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/Qw6lh0fy6W4):

Things accumulating to create a weigh-less, transparent sensation, spirit or signal (a sensation so smooth it has a ‘feelingless feeling’) (because it is completely aligned, permeating to the most subtle) (not having portions of imbalance, amounting to heaviness) (untouched by dark spirit: not all deceased are dark spirits and not all dark spirits are deceased.

Animals create this signal.

What this weigh-less, transparent signal does, is it takes away the external distractions away that distract from just being with yourself, which is when your real self emerges.

What’s the most important is: not react. Everything tries to get you to take a side, adopt a certain opinion, find or want something, take on an identity. It’s still having to do or want something. If something gives you tension, like something from the past, or tries to cause a reaction, if you respond, you hang. If you don’t respond, you’ll swerve in between everything. Not be focussed on the many things, but the one thing. To be above the waters of the emotions. To have a clear horizon.

Synchronicity: right timing = alignment.

Everything has a breath in it and every breath has spirits (via this mechanism deceased are a part of our reality).

Animals, with their noises (or birds all flying together in amazing shapes or making certain maneuvers, they do this to ‘collect’ or ‘fix’ their breath) de-posses/make signal younger or contains frequency of young(er) signal/propagate (light) spirits (meaning they think of something, and then making the noise spreads the thought-form in the air)/(good: e.g. soft/pristine, calming, meditated, healing) breath: meaning it is de-possessed, which changes in response to a thought, statement, or acting.

If something causes an tension in you, and a bird makes sounds, focussing on it increases the effect, the sound that bird makes ‘eats’ that tension.

When you say something de-possessed, the air gets fresher and wind starts blowing. The air around you responds to what you say. It might start to rain – or even thunder, or more extreme yet a tornado might occur – as the pressure under the water droplets disappearing allows the water to fall down. A shooting star may even occur.

On speed I had seen that as I pitched an idea, which wasn’t so good, as I said it – I saw the whole air which was filled with light for that short moment – the light dispersed, so disappeared, at which exact moment the wind stopped – so: causing the wind to stop – so as to say they did not like that idea). It is this light being there that causes the wind to blow, for example, and the other phenomena, and causes the pressure to change. In a crisis situation, you may not always be able to talk to birds, I always pose my ideas, saying “should I do this..? Or this..?” and see which makes the wind blow most as I say it. Guaranteed this leads you to making the best decisions.

It is also the ‘shape’ or ‘content’ their noise has that takes distortion (dark spirits) our of the air: de-possesses.

Because, if you’re connected with the birds, the aura of of the birds influences and so their good energy is provides you, when they’re all flying around together, this can de-possess you. As will listening to bird sounds.

Animal noises also mean something, a chirping bird might be happy and a crow barks to signal something is wrong.

Animals can hear all your thoughts.

As their noises propagate spirits, when you ask them a question, they literally have the answer embedded in them

Animals respond to you being de-possessed/de-possessing.

Animals feel your aura.

Animals and insects, and even little fluffs floating in the air, come to spread (their) (meditated, calming, having been used tenderly) breath and spirits around you when they’re flying/moving around you

Animals are incorruptible pertaining to the response they give you if you ask them what to do to de-posses

Having the intention, or asking them, you can breathe with animals.

Animals will want to be around you if you have clean breath.

Light spirits, or spirits propagated via animals, plants, (the earth, space and all the stars, planets and asteroids and all else that’s in it) (anything non-human, which are touched on by dark spirits) ultimate goal: to keep you as de-possessed as possible, agree the more de-possessed the better. The very definition of their presence is that they heal you. With the animal consciousness you’re in between light-spirits. They’re untouched by dark spirits.

Animals know everything, even things they can’t know.

A way to de-possess yourself is to burp up any excess gas you have in your body. This releases pressure and thus tension from the body. Not being bloated can make the difference between a busy mind and being calm. The same goes for passing gas, breathing out any excess air and vomiting if you feel the need to. As does sneezing (when someone says bless you and you immediately have to respond, this can hurt the process by immediately prompting the tension of you shooting back into the attitude of having to respond with saying thank you) and yawning. Shivering, goosebumps, chills and chattering teeth is also your body being alchemized.

Able to be seen as black dot, black spot, black shadow, black shockwave like shape and black humanoid aura. Will become visible when you use speed. Everyone who has experience with speed, has seem these shapes and knows they exist.

Not every human deceased is a dark spirit and not every dark spirit is a human deceased

Overaged signal (more dark spirits):

-Heaviness (having portions of imbalance in the ‘signal’ that is your awareness/consciousness)

-Feeling of catching up to solution

-(Always) a little off

-Feeling bad

-Feel like you’re lacking something

-Dependency on something (emphasis on word ‘thing’) to feel good

-Thought (currents) with contents of that don’t have your best interest in mind, do not want to settle down/are draining

-By making water or spit bubble in the back of the nose and in the back of and above the throat (like you’re waterboarding yourself) you can eradicate the astral ghost/dark spirit from the body at once. This is where it resides.

Dark spirits: Aliens – Evil spirits (that possess (possess (almost) all humans (incl. young children).

-Evil, don’t know love, want to live on through you.

-The dark spirits are used by the humans that have been inhabited by them: we are our ancestors.

Dark spirit ultimate goal: These spirits don’t want to be alchemized/de-possessed because they want to keep on existing – want to keep you busy or want to keep you dependent on substances/astral needs.

-In short:

-Sabotage chakras

-Don’t want you to talk to talk to animals (have made the world think you can’t talk to animals)

-Want to block higher chakras

-Want humans not to reach weigh-less transparent signal

-Want humans not to shed dark spirits or be with light spirits.

-Want to keep humans preoccupied with astral consumption

-Dark spirits try to give you the thing that would get them ‘the most likes’, the most response, wether positive or negative. Wether it’s for them or against them. As long as you pay attention to it.

Note: neither animals nor I are anti-astral as it’s a natural part of life. But only with humans astral activity attracts these dark spirits.

Not reacting pays off the most (especially in time). Having an attitude, especially a very obscene one – ridiculing them, making bad jokes – helps. Being timid, peaceful, careful, conceding or surrender does not yield any difference.

Written by: Ivo Bär

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– Yourself

– The Overall Template

– Weigh-less, Transparent Signal or Feelingless Feeling

– Higher Chakras

– Workings of Spirits

– Workings of Spirits • Stories

– Animal- and Light Spirits (Talking to

Animals)

– Animal-, Plant-, Light Spirits • Stories

– Anti-Dark Spirits (Human Deceased) Guide

– Dark Spirits (Human Deceased) • Stories

(These are very aggressive, want to separate you from light and do not wish to be altered)

– The Past

– The Future

– Positive-, Negative-, and Transparent Shape

– De-possessing

– The Purple Light

– (Extra: )How the Physical Universe Works

It is best to read this document chronologically.

This document is built up sequentially, meaning you have to start at the beginning and have to read one thing to understand the next thing (and then maybe read it again).

Bold text is text included in short version (which can be found in the zip-file in which this document was included).

(Everything in this document did really happen and is based on actual findings.

– Yourself

God is deep inside of you, it is seeing things from their most deeply true truth, the way of being most deeply true. Most intimately and (so) completely feeling how it is. And that there is just you (what else is there supposed to be??). It’s literally just you. You are completely one with the other. (Imagine when your energy is able to move into the other without resistance.) And you going into yourself into all kinds of dreams in yourself, just as fun, instead of just being you, why not? So life is in a dream within yourself.

On LSD with a friend, way back in 2016, we listened to music from Snarky Puppy. And this music was SO beautiful, I felt it so deep in my heart, that I was crying the entire time. Later, it came to me that I had already forgotten that it is this live that is the most important thing, always wanting to be cool and tough. Later that day, when we were sitting by the water and a saw a duck swim by, I literally saw that that duck was me, being me in a duck body. When looking at the duck I could feel the feeling that myself has, in that duck. And thought baffled: “hey, but that’s me!” (“hey, maar dat ben ik!”). That’s how I know that everyone is yourself.

If there is just you, there is no reason you would not want to be good.

– The Overall Template

‘Try to explain humor logically’. Explain intimacy logically. We cracked the code:

Same principle you keep recognizing in every part, from that generate projection of whole, start working back to more and more, less being a sub-part, a more overall, fundamental manifestation

(overall: all-encompassing, overall: approximately, overall: omni-present)

The Overall Template:

One more, an other less.

None more, all equally.

From the most central, basic thing, down to in all of its branching, or fragmentation.

Central, basic: it’s just you. You’re it. What else is it supposed to be? Something you’re in relation to, so you’re not, gets created outside of, or within you. (Hence, as will be mentioned in the section about Weigh-less, Transparent Signal or Feelingless Feeling, by the piece about synchronicities, two sevens, two wholes being the whole half, or twice, being the same thing.)

(There is a feelingless feeling: no distraction from yourself.)

You get born into your inner world, where things become a certain way based on how you feel, so are less defined (things being more influenced by your subjectivity instead of being objective, so less being in relation to something that is not you).

Then, you get born into the physical, by which you get formed, and makes you harder (without something outside of you, there is so reason for not wanting to be good).

Entropy (which word means if you mix hot and cold water they end up the same temperature): if someone does something to you, you want to do something back. Every action as an equal and opposite reaction. Everything is trying to even things out.

White is a combination of all colors, which contains all colors as much as the other. A color is: more one side, or part, of the spectrum. Something can only be defined as something, in relation to something else it is defined in relation to. In this example, you can see that even for colors, this principle still stands (”The Color Documentary’ Excerp’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/d4Rc5LFBVEw):

You have empty space, which, like white (which is all colors combined), is all things combined: according to physics, the energy of the vacuum would formally be infinite, if it would not be renormalized (which is physics saying the size of a light particle is the smallest size, and the energy the fluctuations on that scale produce, being the energy assigned to the vacuum – those fluctuations all moving as much in each direction as the other, so amounting to balance/equilibrium, which we see as (what this state of no relative distinction or fragmentation is in therms of the tangible form you experience it as): empty space), and not leaning more to one part of the spectrum: (like color, which is more one part of the spectrum) the things. In which you are something too.

Someone wanting to do something back, when someone does something to them being an example of this principle pertruding in a fragmented part(: in the external things, trying to make what one does to another, equal).

– Weigh-less, Transparent Signal

Animals create this signal.

This signal, because it is untouched by distortion, can create an incredibly, up until very fine detail, a very subtle level, even and unchanging, even in the time dimension, picture.

I first received this transparent signal, being on speed, listening to the noises the birds were making to reach a higher and higher, more de-possessed state, or higher chakra. I was very much trying to stay balanced. The transparent signal occurred when the one transparent shape, which you will start seeing in higher chakras as the balance created has the picture permeate to a more subtle level so you see shapes transcend the physical shapes from this level as will be explained below, slid into the other transparent shape. It was two transparent ‘bubbles’, or circular shapes above one another. As the top one began to move towards the lower one, this created a ‘point of contact’ in between them as if they had a cone in between them where one part slid into or overlaid with the other, which created a third circular shape where they connected, which emitted the transparent signal.

When I was on speed, and in a very high chakra, of course in tune with the animals, I looked outside and thought I saw a huge white light emitting glider in the sky. When I looked closer, I saw it was a group of geese very high in the sky. They emitted this untouched transparent signal. It showed me what it really is they do when flying up there.

On a beautiful starry night, on speed, and together with the birds in my backyard I was looking at a star not too far above the horizon. As I was looking at it with focus it began to twinkle, and show some green and red color. The star began to move upwards. However, although it wanted to move further upwards, it kept getting stopped in its tracks. After trying it for a while, a shooting star happened suddenly it would move upwards. What’s more is that this shooting star emitted this untouched signal.

(Later that night, as I was intensely focused on moving the star to where the picture became kind of blurry outside of the star. In the meantime, the star had moved across the sky because of the time that had elapsed. I could clearly physically see the star. Then, when I felt I was done and unfocused, I saw the star disappear behind the bushes where it had moved behind all along.)

When an airplane flew over, at which I accidentally looked, I could see the picture enlarge and the vibe of the picture degenerate for the short second I looked, even at that distance.

What this weigh-less, transparent signal does, is it takes away the external distractions away that distract from just being with yourself, which is when your real self emerges.

Non-activity is a rarity, as rest can be (especially in spirit realm, outside of the physical realm, where you no longer have a physical body that requires sleep – think: on LSD. More on this in the section about he workings of spirits). Getting away from the spark of activity (a dark spirit, signal, bad breath, not being able to be unimpeded) and everything that comes along with it, can become a much needed commodity but difficult challenge.

When connecting with the birds, you can feel your energy going very far, unimpededly. When a dark spirit enters your aura, this obstructs it. This creates a ‘center of activity’ as it were. When anxiety, or activity becomes too much, allowing the energy to stray from this ‘center of activity becomes the challenge, and will try to cause excitations in you, which excitations bring you back the the middle of the center of activity. An analogy for this is ‘The Game’, where you lose the game by thinking of the game.

If something causes an excitation in you, focussing on the sound a birds makes, as it were ‘eats’ that excitation, and saves you from the tension it would otherwise cause in you. And allow your energy to move unimpededly, rather than be intercepted by a center of tension (a dark spirit: not all deceased are dark spirits and not all dark spirits are deceased).

And when you’re very close to them, they will make a noise exactly when this happens to you to keep your aura healthy and calm.

This signal, because it is untouched by distortion, can create an incredibly, up until very fine detail, a very subtle level, even and unchanging, even in the time dimension, picture.

When my dad turned out to be in my room, as described in the Dark Spirits (Human Deceased) • Stories section, white light started coming from my vision, and top of my vision/forehead/third eye. This white light felt especially clean, like the whistle of a bird does, whilst feeling feelingless, having reached a certain plateau the amounting to which results in this feelingless feeling. I got a very very balanced feeling, also with help from the bird noises, with whom my dad is friends, in which I would barely feel my legs, like they were not even mine.

An open third eye (situated in the middle of the forehead) allows the signal to be unimpeded (in therms of speed or anyhow) (when at high speed: come to rest, not having tendencies and energy with which you have to do something all the time (the energy being able to move straight ahead, being analogous with in balance, being analogous with transparency/tranquility – instead of sideways, being analogous for imbalance being analogous for distinction/activity. How do you not perish if you can’t? Not reacting pays off the most (especially in time), and otherwise only answer with birdsong) and not incur aura-obstruction by involvement with dark spirits, leading to being swept by local (parallel with ‘sideways’) movements (be reduced in speed by involvement in ‘local’/’small distance’ tides, instead of ‘going over those’/not encountering them).

Synchronicity: right timing = alignment.

A synchronicity is the interrelation of spirits manifesting alignment.

(Seven (and especially a seven accompanied by a nine) the magical number(s) (a popular example is there are seven colors). Numerology means you add the numbers of which the number consists until they’re below ten, or one digit max., which makes up the numerological number. This means that forty-three (43; 4+3=7) would also be a seven).

Examples of synchronicities are being at exactly the right place at the right time at exactly 16:52, or your phone telling you your screen time went up 37%. An example of another synchronicity is when I got my plant, and when I walked home I saw a couple shooting stars initiating me being with the plant. Or booting your Pokémon Blue game up for the first time in years and your Pokémon in level 27 has an HP of 52 when you go to save it you have played it for your playtime (hours and minutes you’ve played the game) is 03:43. Or for instance, the first time the purple light (described in the section about The Purple Light) appeared, it appearing once in a night. The second time, it appearing twice. And the third time, it appearing three times (but it appeared, I’ve lost count of how many times, but this is just an example).

I had gotten a bag of apples. Input them on the weighing machine, and without thinking about it, I had set the machines to bananas. The price came out as €2,27 (7, of course, 7+2=9, so a seven accompanied by a 9, and a 9+2 more being 11, 1+1 being 2, and 2+7 being 9, so a seven accompanied by a nine. There is also a 9 and a 2, being the same as 9 and 11 (1+1=2) which we all know from 9-11, (numbers, too, being thought-forms or something, are spirits which have a meaning. This is called the numerological meaning of a number. The meaning of a number can correspond to the chakra which has that number (say, fifth-, which is the blue chakra, which represents the mental, the thoughts, the mind – or sixth, which is the third eye, or seventh, which is the crown chakra, which is associated with your connection to the cosmos (both outer and inner’, representing ‘the whole’ (you being in the God-state where you realize that all is self, you are the whole, there is nothing but you, and you’re it) and has an according meaning, or the third chakra, which represents the ego (the house, and car, nice hairdo, nice collection of clothes you have accumulated; your empire – the first one being primal physical survival, the second one being things feeling nicely, like a soft warm blanket (urinating is associated with this chakra), and the fourth chakra is the heart (also being in the middle)) which is disaster, or something going wrong.

While writing this, I had scanned only the bananas and pressed pay, while forgetting I only had cash, and by the self-checkout you can only pay with card, and the girl working for the store came to check. (Which could have gone wrong.) But, as I had not noticed I had done so, and simply explained I only had brought cash and so was the wrong register, she paid it no mind. I finished writing this piece of text when my clock said 23:20: 2+3+2=7. As well as 11, 1+1=2, and two twos is the number of the illuminati, or the fake-matrix (human made matrix, a therm coined by Sevan Bomar), as opposed to the real-matrix, being the natural world – me writing this very focussedly while still standing in the store by self-checkout, while in the mean-time, an attendant had come to check if I wouldn’t be trying to steal anything (this is typical Dark Spirit stuff, having to stay involved, interacting, moving, busy – not even being able to or allowed to stay still somewhere. Outside, it’s this way as well.

If you stay standing still at a random place for an extended period of time, like in a neighborhood somewhere, you will stand out and people will look at you like you’re weird of there is something going on with you (at least in the vast majority of places, except maybe the centers of big, major, cities, where there are so many people, people don’t really mind each other. But I’m not certain of that). In most of, at least the first would, things are this way. One exception, the only one I know would be Italy). I finished writing this at 23:25 (11, 1+1=2, 2+5=7, 7+2=9), another seven and a nine. When walking to the regular register, I quickly had to weigh the apples again and set the machine to apples, and the price came out as €3,22 (3+2+2=7). This is important because it teaches you how to stay in touch, and recognize when you are in touch with your ‘de-possession channel’: chain of synchronistic events leading you down the path your higher self set out for you.

Fourteen consists of two sevens, and means a communication you have with someone else that makes you both reach a state of wholeness, the whole twice, or the whole divided in two halves (each forming a whole), being the same thing, as mentioned in the section about The Overall Template.

In addition to not being allowed to stand still, it is considered weird if you talk to yourself. It is only considered normal to talk to somebody else. Really, this means that you’re not allowed to speak to the deceased in the room, only to physical humans beings. This creates kind of an atmosphere of ‘don’t speak unless spoken to’.

– Higher chakras

Unaffected by dark spirits, forms (in the picture that is your vision, your consciousness – so from your perspective) become closing. When on speed, walking around outside, I heard a noise from a seagull, focussed on it in my head and all the shapes became beautifully closing. Shortly after I felt a black dot ‘digging a little tunnel’, straight down, in the middle of the top of my head, dismantling my crown chakra, destroying these shapes being closing. As how what you see feels in you, is no longer from an aura with a super closing shape, but one without one, so what it feels when it sees something is also influenced by these dark spirits, producing no longer closing shapes. Then it caught my eye that it came from a black humanoid silhouette standing in a nearby flat building (a dark spirit).

Animals let you (also by means of help from their sounds) reach high chakras (they themselves have access to higher chakras): for example letting thing appear to move that are standing still, sometimes to-, the letting be there of a certain light, the vision splits (like going cross-eyed) (different pictures is different spirits, different spirits in the aura make the vision change, what’ll literally happen is when for instance a black dot enters you, your vision will change), have interaction among each-other, move, one can appear or disappear, and -align, which are a reflection of the fine-tuning of auric (choice of/composition of/interrelation among them or otherwise configuration of (for example, the adjusting of the brain) spirits) configuration that facilitates (reinforcement of) alignment; reinforcement of alignment is (white, purple, blue, red) light coming alive (resonating), moving away from you – and soaking into away from you (this is what ‘opening the third eye’ is) (a lack of alignment is a dark spirit, removes light, turns white light yellow and makes white appear yellowish/brownish or makes dark spot, and misaligns (replaces alignment/transparency/light being unimpeded/glow of light with misaligns=hard transitions, physical: sting). The vision this opens to door to is the entering of a higher chakra, that is inclusive of more subtle layers of reality.

When connecting to this balance (as described in the transparent, untouched signal), because what’s in your signal does not have ‘portions of imbalance’ manifesting as distortion in it, and so is aligned up until the finest detail, which allows the signal to be so balanced, you will get (hallucinatory) shapes that don’t disturb or interfere with, but are aligned with or harmonized with, this balance. Therefore you will be able to see shapes (hallucinatory shapes in your mind) that live on the level of much much finer/subtle definition than the physical one (of higher frequency, so smaller wavelength), and so transcend, move independently of, the physical forms.

In an aligned signal you are able to permeate to more subtle spheres of reality. The fineness of the definition of your signal increases as the alignment increases, as the balance increases – as the ‘portions of imbalance’ which manifest as distortion in your consciousness, decrease. This is why in higher chakras you will start to see hallucinatory shapes (see shapes of much finer definition, made of light) (being a reflection of spirits)/be able to summon or be able to interact with light-spirits(: in tune with balance, non-astral, much more fine/subtle definition, light: with high level of alignment).

Higher chakras allow interaction between you and other spirits across spacetime, for instance when watching (even pre-recorded instead of live) YouTube videos (and have the people in the video do something when you do something), as if it’s a synchronicity, through the principle of alignment. You’re able to see the spirits and interact with the spirits, they had in the room with them at that time – as they also respond to what is happening in the video, which responds to you – and have them come out of the phone you’re watching the video on into your room and the other way around.

– Workings of Spirits

Everything has a breath in it and every breath has spirits (via this mechanism deceased are a part of our reality). In every breath (heaviness of the breath, smell of the breath, or a taste in your mouth for example). Every breath consists of hundreds of little breaths (the heavier/more smell/less meditated the breath indicates in what way the breath has been made use of, for example with sexual arousal, hunger, exuberant talking or with calming, tenderness – and how many breaths are contained in it, or origin of a spirit (like a text) with certain information.

This is what makes the difference between a breath that is very soft, calming and you can barely feel, something that resembles laughing gas, or the smell that comes from a truck for example. As with the weight of the feeling in your fingers or your body for example – or you can get a certain feeling when looking at a star or the moon). As such, breaths with a smell consist of of these many little breaths.

In the case of humans: dark spirits, as this is what our mind will summon. What will happen on speed is that you will start smelling smells that did not come about from physical causes. When someone starts talking very vigorously in among company, for example, you might start to smell stew. This happened to me when I was hanging out on speed with my upstairs neighbor and another neighbor. The other neighbor started talking to me vigorously, I started smelling mash pot, and after a while my upstairs neighbor remarked: “it starts to smell like mash pot in here” (“het begint naar stamppot te ruiken hier”). These smells are higher chakras being blocked. Hence these smells are filled with dark spirits, no matter how nice, sweet, or (seemingly) good or ‘clean’ (such as say, washing detergent or a nice perfume), the smell is. Air breathed with an open third eye yields fresh air. With this working in this way, you will smell less like sweat if you’ve got less dark spirits on your breath too.

Once, on speed, in the late at night, I smelled a strong weed smell (an astral smell, that turned out to be not physically there) saw someone, a dark silhouette (that consists of these dark spirits) as it was late it night, smoking a joint. When I looked away and back, it was gone. It had been a hallucination.

The feeling you have in your legs, or chest for example, consists of many little imbalances caused by the presence of deceased (elsewhere in this document coined as ‘dark spirits in the signal causing portions of imbalance to be in the signal). Without those, you literally don’t feel, for instance, your legs so clearly as such. Where you feel them right where you see them. You will see them, but you will have a very soft, smooth feeling, not, in therms of you feeling your body, defining your legs. Making them seem transparent (in therms of feeling). When you have a really smooth feeling, and you for instance press your nail without thinking about it, putting all this ‘pressedness’ (described in the section about the positive-, negative-, and transparent shape).

On LSD, I had seen this is true too, as I for instance felt the feeling of (having) a mouth (you’re not in your normal feeling in that state where you feel your body like you usually would. You feel a lot of things, but your body is not necessarily one of them. So the feeling of a mouth, independent of your actual mouth, stands out. The higher up you go, the less breaths, so dirt, are in there, such as when you feel your eyes (like when I discussed feeling ‘food for the eyes’) and could envision, saw, how it consisted of many little breaths with certain intent, or desires (of that caliber or chakra), amounting to that mouth.

When a truck drove by, I could smell it in my room and saw it consisting of like hundreds of little breaths. Those breaths sitting in front, I saw a circle sitting in front of a (black background with white line) horizon, in the middle, which is the point where you breathe, my breath.

You always have the center of activity where you feel your body. Being in a high chakra is that center being in your head, or like your eyes (imagine if you saw the grain in your sight bounce up and down and you felt that). These colors or light-shapes you hallucinate, are also the center of activity where you feel your body in your eyes, as you’re primarily occupied with, and so feel them. Also, these light-shapes consist no deceased or their breaths in them, which makes them clean (sterile) and safe (for say a child, as opposed to a very intimate being being confronted with dirty feelings of all kinds of partiality (lower desires being fulfilled that have come about by something you’re not, the external). Think of: a young child watching porn.

Looking at a text written with certain spirits also incites those and contains the breath that these carry within. Imagine you copy this text to a presentation – birds are working on the spirit of the text to keep it alchemized and want to carry it over to the Keynote presentation, and when being half-way done with copying the text to the presentation you decide you want to add something to the original text in the Notes app.

Then, because the birds are trying to connect the breath of the text you were originally copying and the one you just added something in, a glitch could appear that, without pressing anything, automatically highlights the last slide that still had the original text in it as selected when selecting the next slide you want to copy the new text into, leaving both highlighted as selected at the same time. When you then point at the last slide that had the unedited text in it and happen to think to yourself “this is the last one with the same breath”, a glitch might appear where the top- and bottom edge of the selection highlight disappear. During the moment you’re copying the new text into Keynote – the birds keep repeating the one high note during the song they were singing – until the moment you let the font match with earlier slides, uniformizing them – as means of connecting/unifying the breath/spirit; an example of how bird song is related to the workings of spirits. Thusly, also the spirit/breath of the phone you’ve been working on the text on can change. A phone with a wrong spirit might encounter certain errors or defects (like it not wanting to charge anymore).

In higher chakras spirits will cause associative hallucinations. Example: letters might appear to be a gothic font or flow with light depending on the spirit you wrote them with (or the birds put in them afterwards). When working on the very early stages of this document (and on speed), and later on having gotten new ideas and adding those, I asked the birds what they thought. I asked them if and what I should remove. As I listened to their noises and followed my intuition I did scroll to the things I had just added and in all the text that I had previously written with the birds the while silhouettes of flying geese, and the text I had written did not, so I removed it. Things may appear to wiggle when conducting a focus of some sort (an example of reflection of auric configuration), a certain spirit, for example a text with certain contents, might make a light appear to shine in your house.

When you fart during the process of working on the previously mentioned text, you may hallucinate that one word gets a yellow selection highlight for one brief moment: the state of the spirit gets reflected in your vision with an associative hallucination. When you’re in a higher chakra and busy, with help from the birds, balancing your vision (you see different glows wobbling all over the place – and you happen to be looking at the home-screen of your iPhone in the background at that time, it may happen that at the moment these spirits snap into balance from this previously wobbly situation, the discrepancy shoots into your iPhone and gets makes the apps on your home-screen wiggle like they do when you’re trying to remove an app (not a hallucination, but actually/physically) (this happened on speed) (true story).

You can locate your breath (or blowing of nose which destroys breath) anywhere (also a remote location, even if you see it via your phone, e.g. via YouTube) and even inhale other peoples astral bodies. (Examples of doing this: when looking at a YouTube video of an animal, you can receive the energy from this animal (I got a weigh-less signal from Enzo the tiger from Michael Jamison channel. I felt the/a human astral body, by which I mean alien, as alchemized by those animals (the weigh-less bliss combined with the weight from the alien combining into a really rather pleasant feeling). It follows the principle: ‘when you think of me I am with you’ (‘als je aan me denkt ben ik bij je’) – these both on speed; and on another occasion, in a less high chakra and when sober, (partly) felt Michaels astral body (settings), i.e. with more light, grey, where otherwise black would be, resulting in a soft, smooth ride without disturbances). A bird might take a spot where you just aimed your breath in a YouTube video (be it live or pre-recorded), something might make an sudden unexplainable movement, or the shade of the video the camera filming might change, might dim the light real quick, make the shade more yellowish/orange if a lower chakra is powered or bluish/whiteish if a higher one is, based upon the effect your breath has. And when looking at old footage from 1900 for example, and you breathe into it with the wrong breath you will see a black spot from broken film appear right at that spot.

In the previously mentioned text of the phone, the blue highlight of selection can submerge the spirit into a higher chakra. Or can, when adding some spaces in the Keynotes app during which you have some thoughts, a black spot possibly appear on the spacebar, and a white flash quickly after when the birds alchemized ‘these spaces’.

At a certain moment, when I kept tapping the screen to select something, whole sentences were formed based of the words the app highlighted by itself (this was when working on the original partly untranslated version – in it all the words out of which sentences were formed actually were found in the text): ‘spirits’ ‘others’ ‘also’ ‘support’ ‘you’ (‘spirits’ ‘anderen’ ‘ook’ ‘voor’ ‘jou’), ‘coming’ ‘black’ ‘ghost’ ‘very’ ‘gnarly’ ‘nasty’ ‘very’ ‘close’ ‘black’ ‘gnarly’ ‘nasty’ (‘komt’ ‘zwarte’ ‘geest’ ‘hele’ ‘nare’ ‘vervelende’ ‘zeer’ nader’ ‘zwarte’ ‘nare’ ‘vervelende’), ‘with’ ‘the’ ‘substances’ ‘you’ ‘use’ ‘you’ ‘attacking’ ‘them’ ‘you’ ‘attacking

‘them’ and it kept landing on the word ‘described’ (‘described’ ‘described’ ‘described’) when I kept pressing when the message was over (not once in between sentences did it land on random stuff).

The selection highlight when correcting spelling in the app is red and regular selection highlight is blue. At one point the selection highlight landed on the word ‘I’, with a red color. When I pressed ‘learn spelling’, which turns the selection highlight from red into blue, I heard a tick – of an actual spirit that was being alchemized (as red is a lower frequency color than blue) by it (so the color of the selection highlight ended up functioning like the associative hallucination of the color blue for example, as a reflection of the state of the spirits).

They also made it clear to me through this method, that (I don’t remember the exact words they used) I was ‘one of them’ too (a human having dark spirits going through his system), and I needed my thought-process to attack them, and that at that moment, I would just keep writing with their noises in the background (rather than listen to them focussedly like I usually would). As described later on in the section about spirits from the past: which past, deceased and dark spirits are what makes up the color yellow – yellow being the lower frequency color than for instance blue, so corresponding to a lower (third) chakra, and blue corresponding to higher (more based in for instance science or insights (alignment) of the mind and less in astral pleasures) and lighter (have accumulated more light, less negative (dark) shapes, as described in more detail later on in the section about positive, negative and neutral shapes, being damaging to and so hurting your chakral resonance)) (fifth) chakra, in respect to when you see this color in your mind, or ‘hallucinate’ this color – turning the color yellow into the color blue might really reflect on and make that happen on the spirit level.

When, also on speed, my phone didn’t quite do what I want and I tapped the screen really quite hard, I heard a voice by my phone saying ‘ow’. An example of how spirits and objects can be interwoven with each other.

The essence that underlies reality is spirits, not determination by a physical state of affairs (which is in which it is reiterated, as if a ‘lower level’ layer: It is spirits that determine how the physical will end up being positioned, this does not invalidate the order ‘lower-levels’ in their own right, as by means of layering: in every layer what happens makes sense in its own right, but ultimately has inner workings in such a way so it executes what the interrelation of spirits dictate.) It is the outside world being a part of our inner world that allows spirits to be so prevalent as determining factor.

In the following video, Nassim Haramein explains that according to the laws of physics we know today, the probability of a single cell organism emerging is virtually null. The way to get around this is to introduce feedback. When there is feedback, and the system is learning about itself, the probability increases dramatically.

‘Nassim Haramein – The Field of Boundless Information – Quantum University’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/3ZPVp0NGEYY) Nassim talking about feedback 02:12-05:31 (I would recommend to watch the whole video, as it explains how all matter in the universe is connected, especially in addition to the film by Nassim Haramein recommended at the end of this document):

In this article from Harvard, it says: “Placebos often work because people don’t know they are getting one. But what happens if you know you are getting a placebo?

A 2014 study led by Kaptchuk and published in Science Translational Medicine explored this by testing how people reacted to migraine pain medication. One group took a migraine drug labeled with the drug’s name, another took a placebo labeled “placebo,” and a third group took nothing. The researchers discovered that the placebo was 50% as effective as the real drug to reduce pain after a migraine attack.” Being an example of it not the physical thing, because the physical thing had nothing to do with it, but the spirit of taking in something to heal you, that makes the difference.

(Link: https://www.health.harvard.edu/mental-health/the-power-of-the-placebo-effect)

I was on speed. I had thought up (i.e. discovered) the idea that nature is a supercomputer, and that it can execute commands if you ask it to. So I had agreed on a gesture with myself which would signify executing or cancelling executing a command. Furthermore, it would be premised on the base that we both know what I mean and no one is trying to screw another over, so we don’t have to get lost in technicalities of say, when you’re doubting and execute, then cancel, then execute, then cancel something, then cancel the cancellation – wether you did the shape just right or clear enough so as to have ended on, and yield, the right result. You however, have to be able to verify if it worked. Otherwise, for instance when doing something over and over and eventually power drops and ‘bugs’ (it starts to no longer completely or completely properly execute, or it’s no longer beating any potential counter-forces such as dark spirits) start to emerge, you’ll have no way of knowing. Also, you don’t necessarily have to believe that it works, you just have to not sabotage it by, at the moment of executing, ‘knowing’ that it won’t work, as that feeling will override what ‘the supercomputer’ is trying to do.

When dark spirits are eating on your aura, what can happen is that you have to do an auric action just right, or you will lose energy/potency: light accumulation (explained later on, in the section about the positive, negative and transparent shape). You can however just say, when the idea of what you should do enters your mind, rather than beginning to do it, just say “I want to do that one” and execute it and it will work just the same, or better as you’ll have no errors.

One night, on speed, when dark spirits were eating at my aura, when I executed a command while looking at text on my phone, I would hallucinate a word turning blue on multiple occasions. The supercomputer thing also functions when sober (I just found out on speed).

One night on speed, I had decided that the air in my room would be free of astral smells or distortion: dark spirits. As I executed the ‘program’ (as if ‘programming’: “create a program”, I jokingly called it ‘air.exe’, “make air free of dark spirits and astral distortion. Execute.”) a deep rest fell over me and I sat still for one to two hours (like one and a half). Meanwhile I was looking at the text on my phone. Whenever a piece of text turned yellow, or a black dot shape (not the actual black dot dark spirits are made of but like a cartoonish one depicting one) would appear in an ‘o’ in the text, (it was in the evening but everyone was still awake) somewhere in a neighboring house, you would hear people start talking, as if the peace was truly disturbed. When I ‘re-executed’ the program, created and executed a program to decrease yellow or increase blue by so many percent (my preference was a 150% to 5000%) the shapes would disappear and peace would re-emerge. As I said, this went on for a good one to two hours (like one and a half) until power dropped to where executing the command was not as strong anymore.

In this way, things which you’d think couldn’t run parallel, do. People may knowingly take part in facilitating dark spirits trying to attack you, but they may also say something in a completely different context that you know pertains to something having to do with you. This is a dark spirit communicating with you through this person.

Another example is a car in the distance honking exactly as you de-possess, reach a place of deep tranquility or for example by means of bird noises, which ais the dark spirit trying to come back into existence – even if the person honking may or may not have that intention at all and in the actual physical circumstances the honking had an entirely different and regular reason. When you blow your nose, a fan might start blowing to replenish the breath.

You can, by acting as if you’re breathing with a gas tank filled with fresh air, by making a Darth Vader breathing-like sound every, say, six seconds or so, and walking very slowly as if you’re walking on the moon in a protective suit, clean your breath. When I was on speed, and had to walk through very dirty smelling air, I did this as a joke and when I stopped the crows made a noise that they really didn’t like it by means of saying I let clean breath fall prey to such dirty air.

One time, I was under an attack dark spirits where quite aggressive, I had a hunch I could feel them being nazi’s, as well as later that night dark and grey sparks in kind of a ball form the size of a soccer ball around my crotch area from which I heard the words “sucking dick” (“pijpen”) emanate.

I proceeded to listen to some music from an artist I like (Jayrich) and it very much helped. One song of his I listened to was called ‘Headcrack’ (the characterizing lyric being: “she sucked me four, five, six ways – that’s a headcrack” (more about what exactly this means in the section about dark spirits), lyric that stuck with me knowing (or fortunately and thanks to him (bless him and the other boy in the video): not knowing) what he must have been through). I realized that he had alchemized this energy for me, and in communication with me on a spirit level, had made a song about it. In the second verse another boy (RondoNumbaNine) rapped. As he was rapping in the video, he was looking at the camera with much pain (01:40-01:42), and I saw a big black blob coming out of my phone moving towards me. At this point I turned the video off, but realized that this had been very heavy on his spirit, and some of this pain or un-alchemized energy passed back to me. RondoNumbaNine is a nine, and the word Jayrich has seven (showing what they’re with).

‘JayRich – HeadCrack Ft. RondoNumbaNine & Hawaii’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/vfmdVE5bdlk) looking with much pain of guy at the camera 01:40-01:42:

When thinking to myself “this part about Headcrack really shows a bad demon” (“dit stukje over Headcrack is echt een erge demoon”), kind of happy about showing that what I did also involved toting in ‘less good neighborhoods’, a little bird came flying by.

A different way I had dealt with it after that music was by watching these videos (the following one and (many) more from him) (note: I do not speak his language at all) that appeared on my Youtube by pure ‘coincidence'(: coincidences do not exist, the arrangement of spirits underlies this – that I would be alchemized being channeled by spirits that are in favor of me, of course as well as those that had given me the idea to put on the song) (note him limping at 00:46-01:00, which is how I was hopping around after all the electro shocks earlier I had received earlier. This is something dark spirits do to you to abuse you, as described in the section about Anti-Dark Spirit Guide.) He showed me that this is something that happens more universally.).

When looking for the video with the guy limping, I saw this video being suggested below the one I was watching and thought to myself: this one has the one in it. And sure enough. It was the second video I tried(, haha). As you can see, there are many birds in the video – it stands out relative to his other videos – so you can see whom this is sanctioned by.

‘Ibbu bhai ka Tik Tik 👉❤!’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/qu4MLXbTWHw) limping: 00:46-01:00:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=qu4MLXbTWHw&feature=youtu.be

The day after, when under attack from dark spirits on speed, I was getting heavy electro shocks on my feet, I decided to cater to them. I (without thinking about it) went and watched speeches from Hitler and breathed towards some women performing oral you know what. Later I realized that the day before I had dealt with the demons/dark spirits I had incited at that moment.

– Workings of Spirits • Stories

On speed, when looking at a video of someone I used to follow many years ago and had gotten the idea to follow them again. He has videos where he talks about stuff for about an hour to two hours. When I started the video I heard a voice say “you.. You.. (“jij..! Jij..! Jou pak ik wel!”), which is a human astral ghost, i.e. dark spirit apparently knowing who I am on a spirit level (I did watch his videos a lot back in the day), not being happy about the fact that I breathe with animal spirits. When I went to take a snort later on I again heard the voice say “I’ll catch you” (“ik pak jou wel”).

After a while, during the video, he went on to say: “You’re getting ready to summon ‘Uriel'” (which is what he calls the spirit that he says he is). I saw a pink, flower-like shape that spun be created to the right of my phone. I heard a different voice (which would turn out to be on my side) say “we won’t be doing that” (“dat gaat we dus niet doen”), and I did something with my mouth as by movement you don’t do intentionally like swallowing (not while eating).

I had aimed my breath at him, inhaled and breathed in his astral body. At that moment he abruptly ended the video saying something like ‘I have to go’, as if somewhat distressed.

Something this guy would do is, when I felt ‘pressedness’ (described in the section about the positive-, negative-, and transparent shape), is take some deep tokes from his joint/blunt, and still being busy talking talking on, barely, only a very little bit, breathing out, inflating me right back up again. During his livestreams, he often gets donations. I would see little light dots come flying in the room, and then he would say “thank you for the donation, such and such”, or he would respond to a comment.

At the end of the video I asked the birds “what did you think of him?” (“wat vonden jullie van hem?”). I heard a goose in my head making noise. As I listened to him/her, still staring at the screen of my phone with a picture of his face on it, his face began to see a meaner and meaner, and laughing very viciously, expression in his face. I wasn’t sure this was the birds’s doing as, not even having thought about the voice I had heard, I was kind of surprised by the idea of not being able to trust him. I asked if this was their opinion, kept listening to their noises, and I saw his his face turning into a face with make-up like the Joker (from Batman). Only then, I noticed that on his jacket (he makes his own clothes) he had a picture of it with a face of the Joker on it. Showing that people do wear the clothes that are where their spirit is at.

When looking at video from another channel about spirituality after that, from the guy who coined the therm real-matrix and fake-matrix, I saw little white dots with like little wings flying in his room. After I had been watching for a while, one of these flies, came out of my phone, but being dark (as if having been drained by the journey, or, as I was with animal consciousness and he was with human consciousness (and so the spirits they yield)), them being darker in relation to – when in – my room.

At this point, I quickly turned the video off. I had quickly began to notice that the video itself, was a dark spirit attempt to dismantle me, starting to say stuff like “we always tend to see life as dualistic, so we tend to think demons are bad, but in the more ancient traditions they knew there is a deeper relationship between the two. Between the head and the tail) which is a distraction trying to lead you into a dead end, because, although it sounds nice theoretically, it simply is not the actual reality. As I typed that, a bird made a whistle, and it is 03:27 here as I type this (03:26 when he made the whistle) which is not a time birds normally whistle – to say: according to, on authority of the birds. (If you don’t believe me or are not able to use speed yourself.)

I was trying to write a YouTube comment to let people know about my new website. When I tried to add a couple of emoji’s depicting birds throwing fire and explosives at a black dot (resembling a dark spirit) (emoji’s I typed:

*black circle emoji*💥🔥🔥🕊🦅), I got an error message I had never gotten before saying it wouldn’t post the comment.

When, having just taken a snort of speed, the energy gets really balanced, and you get a good idea of something to put in this document, as I opened it up, suddenly, I would feel this really raggedy feeling and bad breath. These are all the ‘persons’, spirits, living in this text as by the text that has been written down, and the entity who’s words that are or whom they have been written it with and so who are embedded in that (as you would go on it would get better though, because you’d start connecting with the animals, getting a really smooth feeling as you’re, the energy is, being alchemized, and very fresh air around your face).

On LSD, you visit the spirit level. You will start hallucinating the kind of spirits you visit. You may see all kinds of vague resemblances of the town you live, such as the stones of the streets or signs, you may see gothic letters (hallucinations produced by spirits from lower chakras) or you may see geometrical patterns (produced by resonances from higher chakras). Once, I envisioned a cone shaped with a point fit into a second equally as big cone shaped hole in which it fit perfectly. Without thinking about it, I realized “that’s what I like” (“dat vind ik lekker”). I heard a noise as if pricking a balloon. I yawned, so taking this human entity away did de-possess me.

Then I heard a woman cry, as if I had killed someone. The astral smell of a Chinese restaurant would sometimes enter my home. On LSD, I visited this place. It was in a American like town with straight big streets and big buildings. It was a calm Chinese restaurant where children were eating, I was resting quietly and a man was cooking without saying anything. When I later told this to someone, I saw a little white light to the left of me (as if him hearing that caused him to give a positive response). I saw, two very fancy and refined gentlemen from like the 1890s, with suits and smoking pipes, sitting in big leather chairs, in a fancy, dimly lit room by the fireplace. Outside of the room surrounded by novelty-like hilly grass and forestry landscape, in which they would sometimes hunt (this did cause me to end contact though). When listening to the birds, I was in a forest, I heard frogs, and I saw a depth, among the ruins of like a temple made by an ancient civilization or Native Americans , you couldn’t see anything, it was simply of the color black, going deep infinitely far, in which I could feel the depth of their feeling or ‘divine feminine essence’ as it came to me at the time. At this same moment the washing machine in my kitchen started going at full speed. Fortunately, the birds made it so I did not even feel it, and made it sound like it was part of the forest I was seeing. On another occasion, I intensely felt thirst. I had taken six tabs op LSD and was in no shape to take a drink, snd felt nothing but an intense thirst.

Also, on LSD, when it first kicked in, I would hallucinate the color grey across my entire vision, and the picture would be so still or, the signal so untouched by imbalance, that the picture would be so even that is was like one moment did not turn into the other and time stood completely still. When, because I thought that setting my consciousness to the color grey with this level so strongly might be damaging, I tried to turn it into light. I heard my (which I could only interpret as the spirit of my) dealer (because, on a spirit level he may recall it, but the physical one won’t): “If we’re going to attack each other… [we won’t get anywhere]” (“Als we mekaar gaan aanvallen dan… [schiet het niet op]”.

Something that would also happen is that I felt, like circle of dirtiness was blocking my breath. These were all lower entities, where, especially being vulnerable like you are on LSD, everything was very dirty to the point is was scary. At one point, a disgusting entity, consisting of many very dirty things or breaths, that amounted to what I could only describe as a dirty sex-monster, came through the wall of my room, and as it scared my, I could hear my a mean little laugh coming from my neighbor. When, after this dirtiness going on quite a while, I found myself surprised to finally receive something I did like, which was as it were, ‘food for the eyes’, immediately the neighbor made a loud bang, trying to destroy it.

The smell the birds would channel, which was them healing the spirits, cane closest to what I would describe as a kind of incense. This air consisted of silence, and I felt a temple with many monks meditating in it. Also, I once came into complete balance. I saw a hand holding a computer mouse, moving left and right very slowly, which was the only thing moving creating complete balance. This same happened with two hands holding each other I saw folded over my shoulder and my body, moving as I breathed very softly (very few entities on my breath) and, when I breathed, the only thing that was breathing was (a spirit in) the curtain, moving very slowly, being the only thing moving creating complete balance around it (which is the birds alchemizing your energy so there’s your breath surrounded by balance). On numerous occasions, right before this balance initialized, my phone would quickly lose its 4G signal.

In this balance, at some point I was also playing with my hair. After the trip kind of came to an end, my hair was still how I had left it. When touching it, I felt how soft my hair had become there, and this entire feeling of balance came back. So that spirit had gotten in my hair. On speed, my hair would always start to look really good. When de-possessed, your hairdo will start to be better, and your hair will be softer. A bad hair day is simply you being a bit possessed.

On a different occasion, when trying to get to rest on LSD, I had realized that it is not about being tired, as on LSD/in the realm of spirits, you don’t really get sleepy like that, but the harmonics of your consciousness. So I said, “it’s all about your frequency” (but I said it in the voice of, and so thought about, the person (‘my guru’ if you will) that first thought me about being spiritual, things like Taoism and deceased being part of our reality).

As I said that, the frequency of my consciousness increased dramatically, and went higher and higher until I saw, as it were, three sun-shapes ‘burn’, not in a painful way as the suns gave off a soft and warm feeling, but as in a coming through into this reality kind of way, through my consciousness. This happened before the example about the forest, but if that was the divine feminine essence, this must have been the ‘divine masculine essence’.

Once, when on LSD, listening to music, the tone of the music produced hallucinatory shapes really briefly, like a rhomb that moved along with the tone of the music: listening to music with an open third eye where you hallucinate according to what you’re experiencing.

When we saw each other after that, each of our headphones had been broken in the same place, the right earbud being broken

On LSD, when you visit the spirit realm you see auras in front of you. I saw things from the town in front of me, I got a very soft feeling like from a woman laying under her pink blanket, when laying under my own, i saw gentlemen from the past sitting in a fancy room smoking pipes with their suits from like 1890s, when listening to the birds I entered I kind of jungle with very deep bottom representing the deepness of divine feminine feeling depth of feeling, seeing one forward pointy cone and in front of that the hole of a cone shape which it slid into. as i did that i heard a pats which made me yawn, then i heard a voice cry, as well as hand moving holding a mouse left snd right being the only thing that moved that created complete balance everywhere else. when this balance kicked in the 4G would just go off for a second on numerous occasions, and when i breathed a little the only place that breathed was the curtain moving slightly being the only thing they moved that created ultimate balance. the birds create a smell which resembles, thing closest to it, incense.

When I was on LSD, me being very vulnerable a very dirty sex entity came through the wall from my neighbor. Then i heard him laugh very viciously. For a long time, i could see in my own aura, I had like a circle in front of, obstructing my breath, and I was stuck with the gothic letters ‘beer drinking’ lower(-chakra) entities. Everything was dirty to me. when I finally got something i liked, as it were food for the eyes, immediately the neighbor made a loud noise to destroy it.

When trying to find rest, realizing it had to be your harmonic that was right, saying ‘eigenlijk draait het om frequentie’ my consciousness frequency started going up dramatically (started (‘flickering’ as in) resonating faster and faster) up until a very light sun shape that (soft from lightness of sun) ‘burned’ through reality, after a couple seconds it decreased again, suddenly dropped dramatically at once causing a painful collision for my aura as it collided with stationary-ness (I heard my neighbor from the house where the neighbors with the yellow colors say say ‘ow’) going from like 9000kmh to 250 km/h to like 90 km/h, i solved it by not laying attention to it.

Having taken a tab of LSD, having watched the Nassim Haramein documentary “the Black Whole” (you can find this in the (Extra: )How the Physical Universe Works

section) the evening before coming down from three days of speed and really fully understanding what he says this time for the first time, even though I had seen it before, as if it being ‘dubbed’ by the spirit he is trying to share (that came to him) himself, I was sleeping, at one point realizing at a point where I woke up a little bit, he was telling al kinds of stories in my head. I heard him talk about a ‘god’ from Orion, where I heard him say “….Hetram..”. Out of habit I said “no Hetram, no nothing.”. I heard all kinds of ticks in the room and the atmosphere got really scary for one moment, as if everyone was very pissed at me for having stopped his stories. Something I heard him say, as answering to me asking what I thought about him, “a little dark around the edges”. I saw before me the circle of light I would be as a spirit, and the edges being a little dark. Being a very good, and sweet, person inside, but in conflict with others the aggressive Drill music (I had not scratched up anyone’s car at the time) taking away from the light you would have otherwise had (if you had not reacted to everything as if it was not there, thus accumulating light, as you turn someone trying to possess something, in this case you, into not being possessed).

– Animal-, Plants-, and Light Spirits (Talking to Animals)

If something causes an tension in you, and a bird makes sounds, focussing on it increases the effect, the sound that bird makes ‘eats’ that tension.

When on speed, in my backyard, I looked up at the starry night sky. In the grain you see before your eyes, I saw kind of white and black. When asking some questions about something, hitting the right answer, the light increased, and a shooting star shot down the sky as sign of de-possession. In this same way, when I was asking things about what I should do, when I hit the wrong answer, I saw all the light dissipate, and the wind stopped blowing.

It is also the ‘shape’ or ‘content’ their noise has that takes distortion (dark spirits) our of the air: de-possesses.

The deeper spiritual essence of birds is that they take matter/mass/weight from ‘the earth’ and make it float as if it’s not there(: flying). For the inner world, they do this with the sounds they make(: create a weigh-less, transparent feeling/signal of consciousness).

Animal noises also mean something, a chirping bird might be happy and a crow barks to signal something is wrong.

Animals can hear all your thoughts. As Michael Jamison testifies in his video that he noticed that his tigers knew when something was going on and they knew at the point that he was thinking about it – so, he says, if you’re standing in front of a tiger, be careful what you think about when you’re standing in front of a tiger. ‘How a tiger reacts to a frog!’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/RFL71mH__C4) (at 05:53):

As their noises propagate spirits, when you ask them a question, they literally have the answer embedded in them (for an example, see section about The Future for an example).

Their noises that they make when they fly over you, keep you in ‘their cloud of consciousness’ or ‘on their frequency’. They will make noises to fix any leaks, disturbances such as reacting to annoyances, the wrong thoughts or voices outside you focus on – anything that attracts the wrong energy/spirits.

Animals respond to you being de-possessed/de-possessing.

Animals feel your aura. Because animals feel auras in the air, (this is how they all, when flying together, know where to go – they follow the aura with the least resistance) when you resonate with a good spirit they will come around you.

When I was on speed and, after being awake for a long time and having reached very high places, but ultimately having been visited by dark auras, being in contact with dark auras, I was standing by an intersection. As I saw cars coming by, one had a german number plate. The vibe german number plate had produced a positive feeling in me, more so than the other number plates. As this happened, immediately a couple crows came flying by.

A mosquito once flew in front of my forehead and as it did it blew up the reality I saw to one way lighter and more colorful.

I once had a bug in my room and I thought, maybe to make its load lighter I should toughen up my breath (against the dark spirits in the human breath I thought I was breathing with), and I put a lot of pressure on my lungs and as I did the bug fell out of the sky for that one second and proceeded to fly as I stopped. Turns out I was already on his breath). Both these stories were on speed).

Animals are incorruptible pertaining to the response they give you if you ask them what to do to de-posses (all people are infiltrated with these dark spirits, so stick to the rule: if people say it’s the one thing, it’s the other. Animal advice surpasses your own logic. As an example, let’s say you want to quickly finish something and then you’ll be done, but somehow a crow signals you should do something else that’s unrelated. You might think: ‘let me quickly finish this’, it doesn’t make sense to work on that other thing right now. But you’ll find that when you do, suddenly you get this good idea, and then you get this other good idea, and eventually you have gained completely new things which you wouldn’t have if you would’ve simply just finished the one thing.

Having the intention, or asking them, you can breathe with animals.

Animals will want to be around you if you have clean breath. On speed, something that will happen is you will start smelling things which aren’t don’t come about from physical cause, which are the dark spirits in the air that come about by human behavior and breathing with humans. These smells are top chakras being blocked (fresh air is air that is breathed with an open third eye). Animals are able to sense wether your breath is clean. They will want to be around you if you make your intention and seriousness in pursuing it clear in that you blow your nose every time dark spirits, which are what those smells consist of – no matter how nice the smell might be, enter your nose as they know these spirits are evil.

You will see birds appear or them flying right where you look at the moment you get the good idea (as ‘a sign’), perhaps your head turning to where they fly as you get the idea, right where you happen to be looking or where you can see them through the window you’re looking through.

Once, I asked “are those dark spirits really evil?”. I was looking through the window. A bird flew to right where I looked, and then back, so as to say, they really are that evil (and as I typed that sentence, geese in the background started making their noises, so it’s confirmed).

A different time, at a party at my upstairs neighbor that will be mentioned later by the Anti-Dark Spirit (Human Deceased) section, I got gaslighted in all kinds of mind games. The question became if I do something as by responding a certain way. I thought to myself “I could do that… But I won’t” (“dat zou ik natuurlijk kunnen doen… Maar dat doe ik niet”), at which point I the gesture with my finger (not very big, just very subtle, not anything anyone could see) of cancelling (in the supercomputer that is nature, as previously described) something (you can also do this to things outside of you, you didn’t do but something or someone else did), as I was looking out the window. At this exact moment, a dove flew right to where I was looking and back, to indicate to me this was the right thing to do.

When watching videos about animals (meaning: connecting to animal spirits), you will get more connected to and start breathing with the animals around you. Whereas, when you start watching something else, you may get more connected with human spirits and start breathing with humans – to where your head will function accordingly (so if you ever can’t seem to get to peace or get caught in mind games, connect to animals – just by having the intention – because in the realm of their spirits those things don’t exist as they don’t have those dark spirits, or even think of an animal or bird or duck or coot noise as that already helps – already has the ‘right DNA in it’, made with higher chakras and more intimacy so de-possesses and takes away dark spirits.

When listening to bird noises, the longer you listen, the better and more beautiful they begin to sound. First you will hear them kind of in your own voice. When they start sounding better, they will be at a specific: the right, place in your head. And if they throw a beautiful combination, tou will feel it moving in such a way that frees up space you had not noticed was previously occupied. The longer you listen, the better they sound. What had happened once was that, after a long night of listening to the birds (on speed), I had been paying attention to the wrong thing, and went outside for guidance. At once, the bird whistles were absolutely perfect and beautiful as they can be. I noticed four birds, sitting on all sides of me, one on the fence, one on the balcony, another one on the building across my yard, and then another one on the fence. As it were creating a stereo or configuration around me, which made me have the perfect sound immediately.

Late at night, I laid down on the bench we have in the yard, next to the tree with the birds in my neighbor’s backyard, and the birds began to whistle an appropriate tune for the ambiance. Bird whistle is birds making music for the feeling that’s there.

Animals know everything, even things they can’t know. For example, I was watching a video from Nassim Haramein (the same video as previously mentioned) in which he was talking about his opinion on the Copenhagen interpretation of quantum physics, and that he supports pilot-wave theory which explains quantum weirdness with fluid dynamics (which is all explained more clearly in the video). And the animals made it very clear that they thought that was correct.

‘Nassim Haramein – The Field of Boundless Information – Quantum University’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/3ZPVp0NGEYY) Nassim talking about Copenhagen interpretation and fluid dynamics 09:00-13:11 (again, I would recommend to watch the whole video if you’re interested):

I asked the birds “how do synchronicities work?”. As I asked this there came long pauses between each ‘frame’, making for an impression of time slowing down, with a kind of illusion of clouds speeding up to, creating the impression of transcending time. I saw a kind of shape moving clockwise. When it reached the bottom I heard a loud bang (the same described explosions as described in the section about the workings of spirits), like it, as it were had loaded the information.

The way animals can know these things is they can dial into what will be right by feeling, and as it were zooming in (so as to specify more specifically what they want to feel/channel) (such as when you’re trying to imagine something or find the right word) (for which our resolution is too low, as we have distortion in which we create large shapes which will be the words of our thoughts, which we cant distinguish beyond (smaller than)) into that to distinguish the right harmonic which equates to the idea or thing. They actually know what is what and what is right (to reference back to the video with Nassim Haramein ‘The Field of Boundless Information – Quantum University’ above) in case of quantum mechanics can see one is a demonic thought pattern where one gets lost in conceptuality of saying ‘a particle is both a particle and a wave’ while a bag of silicone fluid, where a silicone bead interacts with the silicone so as to produce wave-patterns creates the same result, and know the other one to be right).

This is also how, if something is to happen for which you need an insight, animals will be able to show you an insight before that happens (see that someone relates to your spirit in a certain way prompting an action for which they prepare you before that happens).

A different way of looking at it is, when I tell you that sneezing de-possesses, and when someone says bless you when sneezing, this can hurt the process, in a way that is kind of self-explanatory, as you could envision that someone immediately prompting the tension of you shooting back into the attitude of having to respond with saying thank you, it will ‘click’ by itself where you will see what I mean without me having to explain exactly why this would hurt the process. It is this way birds are able to feel into and know things.

When on working on this document on speed I, thanks to the birds, was in light spirit awareness. The room was much more spacious, I could see it being full or light, the light and the awareness itself was very ethereal, I felt like I was not even really there. The door, which had curtains front of it, appeared to be open. This happened three times, for a good minute each, before dark neighbors working through the neighbors started making enough noise to pull me out of it. I could see the light I was really channeling by writing all this down. They really live in an ethereal heaven.

Dark spirits in the human aura make the vision look more like it is filled with gas. In the animal consciousness, things will become more resembling of being watery. Water is so aligned, it’s super smooth. The reflective surface, is the edge of it ending in a very equilateral, so aligned, way, and on the level of very fine definition, causing it to be reflective.

It is naturally more balanced, not having dark spirits causing distortion. And symmetry is increased. When working on this document, I saw letters on my phone, the white being perfectly in the middle and the edges all on the same level of depth, a bit behind that, equally on all sides, behind that. As well as it makes the text glow with like a light blue shine sometimes as well as a kind of watery white paint which makes the text feel very weigh-less, as if flowing really smoothly so as to not have any resistance to it when moving.

When I first started out connecting with animals, at first, I was on speed, I noticed crows and other birds following me around.

Then, I got the idea of breathing into, even if it was pretend breath, as if I had an orb behind my back, which would be my way of breathing with the animals while circumventing breathing with humans, breathing into that, and noticed crows would appear every time I did that. What I also noticed was that, every time I saw a black dot (dark spirit) appeared next to me on the pavement and I dragged my foot across it to get it away, birds would come next to me as I made my intention and seriousness behind pursuing it very clear. It was only when I was well acquainted with the birds, while under attack from deceased, they flew away when I dragged my foot over the so manyeth deceased so as to say: ‘that wouldn’t be the most strategic means of staying de-possessed right now’ (as you remain preoccupied and interacting with them, causing them to stay appearing, rather than letting your mind drift off to the animal realm). Birds would appear and be around me in the same way when I would blow my nose every time a non-physical smell would enter my nose (on speed you will start smelling things which aren’t there, which are the dark spirits in the air that come about by breathing with humans) and kept my breath outward (and not inside of my noise) as much as possible.

– Animal-, Plant-, and Light Spirits • Stories

An example of animals providing spirits to heal your aura, in this case a ball made of semi-transparent light/white haze that removes harmful entities. Here they did use noises to reinforce.

I was in my room, and I have a tree with lots of little birds in my neighbors backyard, I came from outside, it was night, and I was listening to the birds. My vision went kind of cross-eyed (example of them changing your vision) and in this cross-eyed vision I saw sharply a kind of white ball, made of semi-transparent white light or haze, with a hose. I heard a (female) voice say “what is he doing (wat doet ‘ie?)” and a voice replying “he is taking us away” (“hij haalt ons weg”) and the hose went to work. My eyes were made to blink in an attempt to lose focus of the spirit, and when I did the hose found the black circle entities that made me blink and sucked it away. (The hose turned into kind of a tornado or whirlwind as time went on.)

With all the blinking though my vision became less cross-eyed but the spirit remained sharp in focus. When it was done sucking away entities it went to ‘paint’ my curtains in its white energy. After a while I had trouble focussing, so it went in a square motion: straight to the right, little bit straight down, straight to the left, little bit straight down; on which I could focus much more easily.

It had trouble removing my neighbors darker yellow energy coming through the edge of my room, until after the so manyeth attempt it had me say “this is my room” (“dit is mijn kamer”) in my mind – I didn’t even think about it, I just said it, then noticed I had said it – and then it worked.

But there still was a kind of smell in my room you get when there are a lot of entities (example: an entire street that smells like food. The less you engage with that smell and are used to it the more you’ll see it doesn’t smell good and the good smell is sort of an illusion) and I said ‘it stinks in here’ and I heard a voice say ‘are you ready? (english)’ and another hose came that filled my room with kind of a white fog or vapor that smelled super fresh, felt ice cold and had the (happened to be black, I think it was just a matter of providing a contrast with the white so I could actually see it, I don’t think the black had any meaning to it outside of the light it cost the geese to provide me with this) silhouette of many flying geese in it. All of this was sober.

On a different occasion, this same light spirit with a hose appeared and cleared dark spirits from my room. Suddenly, I was in a room, on a white couch, with a man vacuuming standing to the left of me. I had completely forgotten I was in my own room and asked “where am I?” and then I snapped out of it and was back in my own room. When I told this to my former friend described in the section about dark spirits he said “oh, so you ate that man?” (“oh, dus je hebt die man opgepeuzeld?” – from t he story he knew exactly that it meant this light spirit taking the dark spirit away.

When on speed, and connected to the light spirit (plant-, or animal) consciousness, when looking at a plant, you may see a little (white or colored) light right next to it when having a good idea, or a dark dot when manifesting dark spirit, having a less good thought. What can happen, is this dark spot starting at the base and moving upwards to the top, it reaching the top meaning it is executed. The top being above the other thing, so being prevalent. When you dismantle the idea, you may see it coming down again (losing prevalence in the interrelation of spirits as created your being). I have also seen this happen to the long standing lamp I have while looking at it, and the planks I have mounted to my wall, covering about none tenth of the wall. It could also happen when you’re looking at the Facebook logo on your phone, the dots or lights moving next do the Facebook logo.

When I breathed in air from space, where the balance is pure and the signal is untouched (so young), and then later breathed into a picture of Area 51 because I wanted to see if anything was there (which is foolish, you should not put such a young spirit in such a toxic spirit as a human one), a few minutes later, still being connected with that breath, heard a mother taking care of a baby (as if this ultimately young signal had literally been birthed into the human realm, taking on the form of a baby).

At first when on speed, and later sober, as opposed to human voices I started hearing bird noises. When a bird was whistling, his tune would continue in my head when the physical one stopped and he would fly towards me happy that I could hear him. When, distrusting of sounds in my human head, said “if you’re really with those birds you’ll let a physical one fly to my window right now” a single bird, from the tree in my neighbors backyard flew straight right up to my window and then back.

When under attack from dark spirits, when saying – because I thought – now they’re going to brainwash me, I heard a goose quacking in my head spreading a very soft feeling. I also hear faint bird noises coming from my nose or mouth (where I breathe) when they agree with something or try to keep me alchemized (like when there’s disturbances from the outside world like people and the dark spirits they bring along that may want something from me).

I, after hearing animals for a longtime, also start hearing animal sounds in other things, like for instance: when stepping out of the shower and standing on my pants, the little button scraping on the floor, sounding like a bird sound.

When walking home from having visited my mom on speed, which is on the other side of town (about five kilometers), while walking home, a cat began to repair my vision. Making me go crosseyed, me seeing two pictures, a blue one and a yellow one, and removing the yellow one. The cat then made me see a very special picture, which I could only describe as where the air (meaning astral ghost) had been taken away from in between us.

What happened too that night is that the grass began to look bluish green (so I got into a higher chakra, as the frequency of the colors was increasing), a bit later the picture became very smooth, for example, as if I had gone from 30 frames per second to 120. So, distortion, or portions of imbalance, that is to say dark spirits, were taken out of my signal.

A bit further on, a beautiful spinning, made of very bright light, kind of geometric flower shape, emerged from the pavement, and cleared entities around me.

I came from my parents, whose energy had been good for my signal because of which I had a good, with lots of balance, aligned picture and so I was able to very clearly see, as is they were really there and very defined up to very fine detail, these beautiful light-shapes.

Intuitively I knew where to go, but because it was the big road, my mind still kind of doubted if maybe I should take a different road (which was explained to me by the person who first taught me about spirituality: first you get the initial idea or insight from your intuition, and then the mind comes with a mental reasoning of why it should be something else (which is of course incorrect)).

When I asked where I should go, the only other person there, someone cycling in the distance, whistled like a bird, which was the direction I did intuitively know I had to go.

When I got to the city center, where I had been dragging my foot across the dark spirit. When there, three translucent purple shapes made of moving triangles emerged from the pavement and began moving around. Suddenly, I heard a voice say (in English): “surrender at once”, they stopped moving and I saw the purple being drained from them like fluid would go down if you drank from it with a straw, leaving them transparent.

On speed, listening to the birds, my neighbors were making noise to try to disturb me, and the birds and I became like a perfect team, trying to fight the tension that was being tried to be incited. Their sound in my head, was absolutely perfect, every whistle happened at exactly the right place in my head so I could perfectly battle these disturbances (they already always make the noise, exactly when I’m confronted with something that brings about my need for it, so, to help me). We were an oiled de-possession machine.

When I took another snort of speed, because so many new entities had entered my system, the whole sound was of again.

It’s the birds taking away opposing entities (human, so dark spirits, that want to occupy real estate in your head and the shape of their presence conflicting with how the bird noises want to take shape) to configure the sound in your head perfectly.

I was (on speed on my third day) being chased by dark spirits for listening to the birds, black dots in this case (trying to ‘burn’, a.k.a feeling a slight tension or tickle, feeling like ‘dust-particles’, looking like little grey spots, sometimes a crackling sound in your head, the top of my head for having ‘Corona’, meaning: crown, referring to the crown-chakra and third eye by which they mean being activated, so utilizing higher chakras/brain frequencies), I decided to go to my parent’s house. First I went by the graveyard where my dad is buried, I was greeted by a lot of singing birds – I kept my attention with the birds for as much as possible as I went to my parents house. Right outside there there was a cat, my entire vision changed into a sort of as if everything was a kind of painted with a watery paint. I heard the words “now you’re safe” (in English) and could go into my parents house without dark spirits chasing me.)

After the cat had given me the vision with the watery paint, having gone inside my moms house, when inside, still being in this very high chakra and talking to my mom, somehow got the idea to talk about a time when, when a friend of my mom got married, I found a wedding card, and I ended up not having done anything with it and send it, knowing very well that I did not find it a shame at all, but saying it anyway (my angle was that I felt that maybe I would fit in a bit more). When I said that, I heard someone, in the alley next to my mom’s house say “where is he?!” (“waar zit ‘ie?”), as if I was taunting them by flaunting what they would ordinarily get someone with (get people caught in regretting something so as to feed on that) while they were not able to find me.

Two times, I was on speed and of course everything is a spirit that lives, including like a rock or a mountain and also a plant, and everything that lives is really yourself, so I was talking to my plant and a flower I got from the store like a person, and at certain points each showed a flash of bright pink light (with a kind of circular shape, but with uneven edges). My big plant the one day and then the flower the next day. Many days, like more than a week, later, when I thought that this might be a trick from a dark spirit (I wouldn’t know how it would be able to produce such a light, but it felt almost too good to be true. I don’t know what I was thinking, haha), the (my) signal to where it got aligned with, so i was feeling, a deep (very much being in state of equilibrium) balance. The grain you see in your eyes as it were, moved without disturbing it, so you see in it as it were a shape that transcends the physical one.

When on speed, opening my third eye, I saw a rhomb in front of my third eye. As i saw this, bird flew by in front of it.

When on speed I was intensely listening to the bird noises. The harmonies which were the harmonics of their noises, became ever more beautiful. I began seeing shapes belonging to the whistles (kind of closed wing-like, from a sideways perspective, shapes). After having done this from very early in the morning until in the afternoon, I noticed the shape of my aura at the top of my head became very closing. I realized this is what the crown chakra is.

When thinking to myself, “what would be a good way to get fresh breath?” I came up with idea of looking at a livestream with jellyfish, because animals are the only ones that can breathe there. And sure enough, the air was fresh.

You have to be very careful what you breathe towards animals though. What you do to other beings. I had looked for fresh breath by the squids on a YouTube livestream, and later, still being connected to their breath, I connected this chain of breaths breathing into something porn related, into a bad dark spirit.

When looking at my face, I noticed my nose was straight, but as the face and anything organic has slight asymmetries, pointed a bit to the left. When someone had hit me on the nose, my nose would be bent a little bit a bit below the bridge, but looking at the overall face it would be lined up more in the middle.

Writing all these stories, some are about dark spirits, some light spirits, some showing how spirits work – but some are a combination. They have animal spirits in them, they have dark spirits in them, and they may involve revealing the workings of spirits. I would be able to just tell the whole story, or chop it up. In some cases I chopped it up. But which nose works better? A nose that is straight in the middle in the context of the entire face? Or a nose that itself is straight but points a bit to the side? A straight nose is better.

It was on speed that someone had hit me on the nose. Later that afternoon, my signal became dirtier and dirtier when I walked outside. I really didn’t like it, and it felt a bit like being raped, like a child seeing a porno. When I got home and looked in the mirror – I had a nose bleed from the punch – the only thing that looked beautiful was the drop of blood that ran from my nose. I saw the beautiful animal consciousness signal when looking at the reflection of the blood (the watery-ness of the animal consciousness). I understood why it had to happen, why I may have even wanted for it to happen.

When I was about to go to sleep, I thought about being punched (I otherwise really like the person who did it) and knowing it had a good thing, I could see a transparent blob in the top right of my vision, that was his spirit, turning into a white, translucent circle (as if his consciousness saying “then everything is okay” (“dan is het goed”), and disappeared. The person who had hit me was the person who sells me speed.

When morning came around, as I was uploading the document with the small update to Google Drive, and staring at my screen, I began to see the words ‘ivobar’ and ‘birds’ moving up and down in opposite directions. And realized this was the bird’s consciousness reaching me and telling me “you have to write with us!”.

When looking at the moon, on a very harmonious feeling overcame me. The moon also has a spirit, and it (which you allow yourself to be accessed by more by communicating more with animals and less with dark spirits that want to block you from it) reached and alchemized me.

When on speed, I was looking at a video of space. I tried to breathe in the air from there and as I did, it worked, suddenly did not have to breathe for a while (because there was less astral dark spirits in there that are seeking breath) and I began to see colorful geometric patterns in the background behind the stars, as well as saw colorful light shapes connecting the stars, such as the stars all forming into ‘hair-like’ shapes or sprits you might find in a coral reef. Showing what spirits, besides physical stars and such, space is really filled with. I then realized that still taking the occasional breath from my room, was disturbing the potency of the experience. So I tried breathing through my third eye, as breathing with an open third eye allows for breathing fresh, free of dark spirits, clean air, and (above the top of my head) through the crown chakra.

A way in which I would connect to the animals was by envisioning the same orb I breathed into to breathe with the animals I previously mentioned, being both above me, in my back, and below me. When I was on speed, and after a bus-ride to the other side of town, I wanted to connect with the animals. I did this, and a silence fell over me.

It was through the crown chakra, that I breathed in the universe. I envisioned breathing through the top of my head, higher and higher up, and then forwards and visualized the feeling breathing there has to lead into the screen of my phone. Breathing this air through the top of my head so high up created a short hallucinatory ‘dream-like’ shape, thereby discovering a new sense.

A little later on, a dark spirit must have managed to get into the mix because all I saw then was a black dot spiraling towards away from me: breathing into the universe as well as it being a reflection of my own state. We (I’m referring to me and the animals) did manage to continue and get rid of this quirk though.

When on speed, and I saw a cat, I had all kinds of busy thoughts in my head, I stood next to him for and a silence fell over me.

Another story, about the influence on playing out on course of events of light in practice and birds responding to your thoughts: As I walked outside I was shown an insight, but I did not know if it was a trick and if I should believe it. As I came around and finally said “okay, I believe it” birds in a tree in a yard nearby all started singing at the same time. The insight was – I was walking in the meadows – there were some ducks in a ditch next to the road I was on, and I saw a small circle of white light left behind me. But I didn’t trust it, so I dragged my foot over it and heard a bird chirp and when I did that the one duck attacked the other.

When watching the Chris and Pops compilation, completely in tune with, together with, the birds and the birds in the tree in my neighbors backyard in particular, while under pressure of attacks from dark spirits brought with by construction people working on something the balcony doors of the other neighbors house, the birds chirping faintly in the background (you could only hear them, not see them) of the video stopped for a quick second exactly when I swallowed unintentionally, which is a new portion of dark spirit entering my body, for which a new angle of alchemising it/de-possessing it/cancelling it out/neutralizing it/taking it away had to be found.

So I was watching the Chris and Pops compilation with the birds, who were in communication with the birds over there. This was on speed.

When starting the compilation, I felt bad as I was under attack by dark spirits. I started the video at a point in the compilation where Chris is dancing along his song with the lyric “I had to choke a lil’ nigga out”, being symbolic of trying to shed the dark spirit by not feeding it, which the speed does wonders for. As I started dancing to the song in a comedic way and kind of caught the spirit, as soon as I did that, the birds in the tree in my neighbors backyard started chirping, happy that I was pulling my happiness through.

(Somewhere in the compilation Chris talks about peeing gas, “having gas dick”, resembling the gas-like astral ghost of the dark spirit as discussed in the section about dark spirits, and the joke of their videos is that he – for reasons – is always bothering and annoying his father: “let me get a pork-chop daddy”, gets one, “no, I want your pork-chop”.

In their videos, Christian embodies the representation of the dark spirit, and pops of the human, always asking Chris “leave me the fuck alone” and “Christian, shut the fuck up”. (Don’t worry, later on when pops got ill, it has become apparent how much they love each other.))

‘CHRIS and POPS DVD_ ALL EPISODES(OVER 3 HRS LONG)’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/32I4EA6D90w):

‘First time seeing my father in two weeks because of the Coronavirus I can’t go in see him’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/pCZM3mqK-js):

‘Hey guys my daddy is doing great’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/vuOq7EOdHSo):

A leaf falling from a tree, or some leaves suddenly being blown near you by the wind, when you say something that catches your eye might be an indication of a sign to you, and probably is the manifestation of a shift on a spirit level, thus a spirit communicating with you.

When, on speed, I was in the backyard, the bird noises just began to work, I car in my street started honking loudly, and and dark humanoid aura appeared in my backyard. The mood being to good to get angry, I thought about it for a second, and said: “I feel so bad for them, that they have to make due with that” (“zielig he, dat zij het daarmee moeten doen”) and the birds made a heartfelt whistle, saying they agree.

When, sitting in my backyard, talking to a friend who wants to start a political party, the Balance Party (de Partij van de Balans), I told him that I would hate for to see him disappointed, thinking that because he has good ideas, he will gain traction. Because, I told him, ‘people don’t want good ideas. They just want the same dumb stuff, with politicians making cheap shots at each other, and would not care for, or care to take the effort to understand, instead of following the gut feeling of cheap shots the vast majority does, a genuine intellectual debate, where both parties would seek to both try to understand each other, and look at things as factually and objectively as possible. People just want more of the sensationalist dumb stuff, regurgitated nonsense, you see on tv.

We came to talk about family. Where everyone is always trying to get somewhere, a mom stressed out with her child in the store, taking her kid to school in a rush, back home the tv being on, working on the computer. There is always some matrix stuff (working on your job, having to go to bed early for school, taking your kid to day-care, having to do this, having to there, having go to the store to do groceries in a hurry before preparing dinner really quick) going on. And you’re, as a kid, waiting for the moment when you will really be together, but that moment, of when you’re all really together, never arriving.

Him not quite understanding what I meant, suddenly overcome by emotion, me trying to call on the sense of his heart, said: “but you’re family!” (“je bent toch familie!”). When I said that, the birds made a heartfelt whistle, feeling what I said. I used the music we listen to nowadays as an example: it all being the same repetitive, where you hear the same accords four times, then have a chorus that’s repeated three times, and have a couple verses that are all similar with small twists, all being paced four-quarter measures, no variation in speed or, as an example, possible small moments of silence at all, all with tones resembling primary colors, no subtlety.

My neighbor who my friend who had seen the face flying towards me had called a ‘pedophile’ (you can find this story in the section about dark spirit stories), came downstairs ad to join us, and said “well, but if it’s just a fun song with a fun melody and a fun rythm, I think it’s (“nou, maar als het gewoon een leuk liedje is, met leuk ritme is met een leuk melodietje, vind ik het prima”) to where I said, “ja, maar niet in de context van waar wij het net over hadden. En daar ben je niet bij geweest, dus dat kun jij niet weten”).

I love my family.

These birds care about me, and keep me safe, like family. We are all family. They are my family. They are myself (it is ONLY these dark spirit forces that pretend they’re not, and give you the illusion of someone else) not being yourself. My mom once said “you always have to listen to your mother” (“je moet altijd naar je moeder luisteren”), that is: Mother Nature.

On LSD with a friend, we were watching movies and I was absolutely laughing my butt off. Meanwhile, I had started to remember memories from before I was alive. Ones about roaming the dark void that is the non-physical plane, in my good mood as much as can be, and too about being in a hellistic state, having been tricked, by an acquaintance who is currently in my life as well, working on a boat from the 1600s from the Dutch Golden age, where I was exhausted to (beyond) the bone, and then when finally getting off in France, getting hopelessly lost in a forest. I remember having had a daughter, and after my death thing “oh, so THAT’S how that was for you” (“oh, dus ZO was dat voor jou”) which I, in a rather demonic way, tried to straighten out, and to force into the paradigm of the (masculine) external mind. Right now, me getting the ultra ultra super sweet and kind lite version, I have had the same archetype, but reversed, with my mother.

I remember being in high level of anxiety, thinking ‘so during life [with the aura you build up you now have to sit in], you’re so vulnerable here, you can absolutely not stray from the most intimate you can be. Why did I want to do that, just to be tough…?! I

I remember, in much anxiety, thinking: ‘now I’m in this much trouble, and now none of those people I compromised for for the sake of being harmonious are here to help me!” “Where are they now?!” “I did all that compromising for them, and now that it has gotten me into trouble, none of the people I have done it for are here to help me!!”; I remember resolutely thinking and deciding that, even though I had thought it before, under the pretense of being intimate and harmonious with others, still having been made to do otherwise, that “so you cannot compromise for anyone anymore!”, deciding it resolutely and this time, knowing the kind of trouble I was now in, doing it and sticking to it, and really not let anything let me not do it. “Because now that I am in trouble, nobody, none of them, is hear to help me!”

I asked the birds “what is god?”, they made a noise, I started to space out, and I saw as if it were multiple transparent sheets of paper being pulled away to different sides, as if opening something up, or, going inwards. This gave me the idea that ‘oh, God must be deep inside you’, which reminded me of the memory I had.

God is deep inside of you, it is seeing things from their most deeply true truth, the way of being most deeply true. Most intimately and (so) completely feeling how it is. And that there is just you (what else is there supposed to be??). It’s literally just you. And you going into yourself into all kinds of dreams in yourself, just as fun, instead of just being you, why not?

I remember this point, of pulling one string, the dream (all kinds of colors in a dark void, instead of, when it’s just you it being a dark void for when you do see it and are not unconscious) beginning, and not too long after that, already being dazed by all the spins and turns the interaction in those colors had taken. From which I went down deeper. I remember, in this world of colors, things at one point, being exactly how I liked, then them changing when I thought it was perfect, then being disappointed that they had changed so soon, too early, when I thought they were perfect. In the physical this is the beautiful European culture, having been changed right before we would finally have a whole world built of these beautiful harmonics, right before that would happen, into ugly functionalist, straight, square, forms and architecture we know today, up until like the 2000s (I’m not saying anything about this not being the right thing, or things having to happen that way or happening that way for a good reason. Just my subjective experience of it.).

The birds make it possible for you to access these things by making your aura soft (and eating away the tension by, every time that gets incited in you, listening to their voice (noise), which removes it) so you’re able to feel these subtle things.

I remember having been, like an insect, and a plant, remembering what it was like to grow and remembering me finding it such a shame when something had ripped my leaf off, but then eventually it having grown back into something nice. And remember having been a cat, birds, remembering enjoying then differences of every time being birthed into and enjoying the new personalities and character you develop by being birthed into different birds, having a different voice, with different function, a different culture, such as the difference between a magpie and a crow or dove. I remember thinking: we have to tell the humans that what they’re doing is wrong.

I remember not being proud of myself, not having remembered the essence of my heart of just wanting to be good, enough. I did not want to leave like that, having done so bad and it then being as if I really am like that and can’t do better. It is you not being able to leave because of, looking at yourself, you cannot accept the way you have acted, literally cannot accept going out like that, and so by your own hand, but unbend-ably. I remember wanting to do one round where I did everything perfectly.

I remember, having the feeling of having made the same mistake of forgotten I just wanted to be good, being intimate, so many times (lives), in a row and thinking “why do I keep forgetting?!” (“waarom blijf ik het vergeten?!”)? “I don’t want to forget!!!!! (“Ik wil het niet vergeten!!!!!”).

I remember seeing the person who taught me about spirituality when I first saw him in his house and thinking “that boat, I have to not miss” (“die boot moet ik niet missen”).

I remember, looking for a life where I could improve what I was not satisfied about what I had previously done before, seeing the life I’m in now, having ended lonely and bitter, and wanting to go into that one to do it right. I remember someone saying “this is a difficult one” (“dit is wel een moeilijke hoor.”). Of course, I had chosen it.

Having channeled this in the psychic ward, there was someone else there, who remarked “[something something] and then flashback” (“[something something] en dan flashbacken”), talking about this. On a different occasion he had remarked “everything is taken care of [monitored] here, centrally” (“alles is hier centraal geregeld”).

I remember just having died, the picture becoming whiter and whiter, the tone rising so as to indicate ultimate completion, both reaching a climax, the the picture going dark – and thinking “oh, I’m still here. Now what?”. I remember trying to be as silent as possible, meditating my way into non-existence, and getting caught when I was almost there, by not being able to shed the last bit of consciousness. trying to meditate my way into non-existence, and getting caught when I could not shed the last bit of consciousness. I remember ultimately having been in a deep sleep and thinking, “I don’t want to lose myself” (not understanding that, even though the content becomes transparent and feelingless, so nothing that signifies you – but I do remember being scared of not remembering I was there for a moment – you don’t go anywhere). I remember, subconsciously having come to the decision of wanting to wake up, waking up, a kind of caution giving voice saying “do you really want to go down there again? It’s difficult to come back here again.” I decided to proceed.

I remember, after my (this) life thinking about these phenomena the psychic ward had told me were impossible “so it was real!” (“het was dus wel zo!” [wat was voorgevallen was dus wel echt gebeurd]) in anger and frustration, always having thought and living my life thinking these attacks had not really happened and only now, when there was nothing I could do about it anymore, finding out it actually had really happened.

Having been in this hellistic daze for a long time, I remember myself finally having found a solution in had finally come to the point where I by going into things positively, and recall myself convincedly saying: “yes, I want to live! I want to live!” (“ja, ik wil leven! Ik wil leven!”) (that was about this life). I remember a voice or person saying “are you sure?” (“weet je het zeker?”), “are you sure? It can be difficult” (“weet je het zeker? Het kan moeilijk zijn”). Yes, I’m sure! I want to live!” (“ja, ik weet het zeker! Ik wil leven!”).

When achieving this amazing balance, this was because of multiple transparent shapes, and translucent colors (like purple and greenish) interrelating in such a way to create balance. After a day or two on speed (not having slept), when this took place, I realized that one of the colors was my neighbor, otherwise of the green color. I had reached a high chakra and had been creating balance with him. When a dark grayish little figure with like a little, what would otherwise have been a light functioning as headlight, made of dark gray, had entered the room as things were being dismantled, I heard a voice resembling his saying “don’t let it enter my room!” (“laat hem niet bij mij komen!”) as to say, don’t let him find out I was involved in this.

It is de-possessing that makes air fresh. When writing all these stories, bringing all these ideas to human consciousness, so de-possessing, the air around me becomes much fresher. Or when that’s where the emoji’s in the title (‘🎆🎆🎇’) came from.

When in the process of learning about all this, as I was walking home, I had gotten all kinds of arguments of why ‘aliens’ would be incorrect. When I, at home, however, did start did boldly start calling them ‘aliens’ again, them saying “are you kicking up dust again?!” (“ben je weer aan het keten?!”). I heard a laser noise and I saw a purple circle of light in the top center, a purple circle of light in the mid-left and a red circle of light in the mid-right of my vision (of the ‘soaking into away from me’ kind, as described in the text about the reinforcement of alignment) and suddenly I had incredibly fresh air around my forehead.

When on speed, just having gotten more, I got an idea while cycling. I was at the intersection by my house. It has a big, fluorescent red logo on it. When asking ‘can I trust this idea’, in a flash, I quickly saw the logo three times, one at the top, one to the left, those being purple, and the actual red one at the right, in the place where I had seen the two purple and red circle of light.

The day after I had the transparent signal, and everyone was awake again, me still being in a very high chakra, I would still (almost) reach it now and then. When the neighbors made noise, to try and destroy it, what would happen is the birds would show me a little light in my vision, and if I focussed on that it would replenish the smoothness and balance out the tension that had been passed to me to get back to the balanced signal.

When thinking about high ideas (which is that spirit), you might see a white light as well (if it’s a good idea, otherwise it it might be a dark dot). The best light is very ethereal light, not physical-looking light.

When I, not knowing better, also went for white spots (they were white dots, but not completely white or with a bluish tint and actually emitting light, like before, but slightly yellowish and simply that color and not so much emitting light) the birds (by listening to the birds, and then things take course in your mind by themselves) enlarged that dot and there was a drawing of a knife in there, showing me that these white dots had no good intentions for me.

The birds are happy for me to use speed. Not only do they all come around me, and when I once asked “should I take another snort?” (“moet ik nog een snuif nemen?”) geese high up in the sky started making noises.

When the light spirits of the birds took over in my consciousness, when looking at the screen of my iPhone 6s (I prefer Android, but I had no choice. Although I don’t think I I would have been able to make this document as well on Google Docs as in Pages), it literally looked as if the screen was as big as an iPhone 12 screen. A lot of space had been added in my picture.

Later in the night night where I had seen the untouched signal come from a shooting star, sitting in my backyard opposite to my house, I saw a star coming down to the roof. First, it tried to ‘paint the edge of the roof’, which, passing some rooms was not an easy thing to do, we got stopped in our tracks by the opposing energies, and took multiple attempts to do. When that was done, it moved to the emergency ladder, which goes straight down and ends on the balcony of the neighbor above me, the top of my orangery. Everyone was asleep. Getting the energy from the star past my upstairs neighbor’s room was difficult, and took a couple, something like two, attempts. It went past the neighbor right above me without any, apparent to me, but a crow I’m hearing in the background right now begs to differ, resistance, and then, into my orangery.

On different occasions, my next-door neighbors of the color yellow, had made a mockery of me. So, on speed, one early morning, I busted their window. I quickly went home and heard a police car arriving. I heard the police coming into my backyard. I stayed very much connected with, thinking of, the birds (and thinking of them when anxiety could peak, which was not necessary in this case because the birds made sure I was very calm). I heard them whistling resembled the Pink Panther theme, depicting a classic detective, reducing things to a good mood. I just laid in bed, pretending to sleep, with all the lights off. I could feel the aura of the police officer scanning for anyone there. But the birds had kept my aura so calm, any tension that would have come from my body was not a peak that was able to detect. Then they left.

Something I’ve noticed is that when in contact with a dark spirit, sometimes birds would start to put human-like harmonics (tone sequences) in their whistling. When I had listened to beautiful music, I could hear them whistling something resembling that later that night.

When on speed I was outside, sitting in a little park by a picnic table, and had put down some bread for the birds, when sitting there, heard a voice say “ooh, tasty!” (“oeh, lekker.”), and then a dove flew towards the bread to eat some.

When walking in the meadows, right before I had had the experience with the ducks and the little light (as described in the Animal- and Light Spirits (Talking to Animals) section), coming down from having used speed the previous day and not having eaten in a while (couple days), I started feeling animal’s astral bodies. When looking at a swan, vigorously eating some grass, I would envision, when walking, seeing grass in front of me, thinking “ooh, tasty, grass!” (“oeh, lekker, gras”). Then I looked over at the meadow, and saw a swan happily and vigorously eating grass. When he came to the ditch by the path I was walking on, I could envision the feeling of the water being drunk and quenching my thirst.

When under attack from dark spirits and on speed, I went walking with a dear acquaintance I knew from a child (who happens to be the head of a major broadcasting station in the Netherlands called the EO). The words “don’t let them have you not have a good time” (“laat ze nou niet zorgen dat je het niet naar je zin hebt”) went through my mind. I told him about not wanting to go to hell. And, there sitting a hobo I wanted to give some small change I had with me, he said “no, just let him sleep” (“nee joh, gewoon laten slapen”). Of course, he has nothing against homeless people, but understood what was trying to be communicated with me was that you should not give those dark spirits whatever they want.

This was surprising to me (in a good way). When we were done with the walk, I started to space out really nicely and saw all kinds of beautiful light and tranquility. When going back there later that night, right as I began to trip out I would see a dark spot on the ground come next to me and stop it. I asked “why do you do that?” (“waarom doe je dat?”) and I heard a voice say “because I find that funny” (“omdat ik dat grappig vind”).

So I proceeded to drag my foot across it on the pavement to get it away, and every time I did that the picture would become much lighter, more colorful and start to move clockwise or counterclockwise in really slow, meditated increments, making for an extremely calm meditated feeling. I kept doing that, going from street to street, until the sun came up. When it was morning, and I did that, as the picture would change a little bird would come and land in a tree in front of me. As someone left their house, and the picture changed back, he/she would leave again.

When walking by the kitchen of some place, which was closed, I smelled something like croissants or sweet baked goods. I asked “can it be fresh air?” (“mag het ook frisse lucht zijn?”), and it turned into super soft and smooth air without a smell.

When in a very high chakra, the third eye, of the animal consciousness, things have a kind of volume, and it has an kind of white haze-ish color, or, as if you deliberately defocus your eyes, and the vagueness has a volume. Animals, or when looking at videos of, so connecting with animals, or looking at live cams of animals, so, if you’re already connected with animals it being channeled by them, being connected with them and your aura being healed by them (they may look at the camera or start making a noise), your vision might turn vague or you might get the urge to have your vision go defocussed for a second.

This is them healing your sura, so keep it that way. But the animal third eye has things having such a volume. In the animal third eye, things appear to spin towards counter-clockwise, which is de-possessing (taking entities away). The human vision makes it spin clockwise, or possessing (adding entities). Having this animal third eye, and going outside, when looking at a bus, immediately my vision started spinning clockwise.

Also, what will happen is a point you’re looking at will appear to move upward in the animal consciousness, moving to a higher chakra, and downward in the human consciousness. The new year’s night I had come from the upstairs neighbor, going to the meadows where I would see the white light emitting explosions – and once when I had come from my parents and asked a cat to heal my aura (“I hear a voice in my head say: there is no way but up!”) when the animals began to heal my aura, this point I was looking at appeared to move upwards.

When I came back home, I noticed that my animal consciousness third eye had been exchanged for a human one. It has strong hallucinatory colors you’re hallucinating. In this third eye chakra, in human consciousness, connected to humans and not to animals, you have less balance and a weigh-less shape with a transparent feeling, and much more frivolous hallucinatory shapes flying around (in the animal consciousness virtually none, except for the occasional transparent shape for it to amount to balance by the way it interrelates with another for instance). The human third aura has a color more like yellow, reddish or green.

Also, it does not have this volume, but things are very sharp and flat, to the point where your third eye is kind of scraping against what it sees – things are too flat. It doesn’t have this volumes glow being light accumulation, or ‘inflation’, as opposed to the third eye scraping against the thing it sees, between it and what it sees.

Once, when walking home, on speed, the night where, when I saw the cat, a silence fell over me, it was late at night, I saw two people looking around saying “waar zit ‘ie?’. I quickly walked the other way.

When walking home, on speed, I saw a cat. I stood still, and saw him creating a spirit: a big circle made of this white haze I previously mentioned in the animal section. I would feel little droplets of rain starting to hit my face, exactly at the place where they needed to hit my face to keep me alchemized (i.e. calm, not upset and responding to things that upset me). When entering the city center there stood a guy about my age, yelling (according to other people, my neighbor, yet another than previously mentioned, had told, at a party by the upstairs neighbor where he would start elaborate conversations with me to make me feel guilty about stuff (say I treat my mother badly), but try to misdirect me by saying I should not do things that bother others (aiming at the fact that I should not bother the dark spirits by doing things they don’t like such as having too much light in the consciousness), or saying “we don’t want birds” (“wij willen geen vogels”) that, by speaking of ‘the woman with which I talked’ (my thought was, I’m not talking to a woman, I’m talking to animals. And he could see that I did not quite like what he said to which he responded “I called her woman, I called her lady, and it’s still not good. I don’t know what else to call her.” (“ik heb haar vrouw genoemd, ik heb haar dame genoemd, en het is nog steeds niet goed. Ik weet niet hoe ik haar ander moet noemen”))) “and then, he’s talking to that whore! Does he have to talk to that whore? And he isn’t even having a good time!” (“…dan praat ‘ie met die hoer! Moet die per se met die hoer praten?! Hij heeft het niet eens naar zijn zin!”) (me not having a good time was a lie, I was having the time of my life). As I walked on, he grabbed his phone, and I heard him say: “yes, hello, police? Yeah, there is something here that is demolishing the black front door.”

(“Ja, hallo, politie? Ja, er loopt hier iemand die de zwarte voordeur sloopt.”). He was a normal looking guy, there was no one else standing near him he could have been talking to or actual youngsters demolishing something he could have been talking about, just as a note.

First, when I did not know much about animals, after having used speed I would go outside and be surprised that the birds would no longer fly away when I got close to them.

On a different occasion, not knowing anything about dark spirits and thinking I should maybe be a bit tolerant to them and breathe them in, when I got home, I could see the woman living across the street sitting in front of her window, looking at me very and greeting me in what I now know to be, very deceivingly, a loving way. When I walked into the house, there was a (he was very nice and sweet) fly sitting on the wall. No matter how close I would get to him with my hand, he would not move. I now know he did that to spread good breath and safeguard me.

I saw a dog being walked by someone. He was super happy, but this person was keeping him on the least too tightly to where he was pulling on the cord, struggling not to lose his amazing mood. I said, she was walking too far away for her to hear it as being directed at her, in myself but out loud “why don’t you start treating your dog right, fucking slut. Huh, that wasn’t me? [who said that]” (“behandel je hond eens normaal, joh. Kanker slet. Huh, dat was ik niet? [that said that]”) (I did want to type that this was quite a while ago and my edges may have been a bit rougher back then.

But, I decided not to and thought to myself “you should be proud of that, that you [rightfully] stick up for an animal like that” (“daar moet je trots op zijn joh, dat je zo [terecht] voor een dier op komt”). As I said that, a bird started whistling until I started up until I started typing this very sentence.) As they walked closer to me the dog stopped and looked at me with intent for a long time to where he would not move as the woman pulled on the cord a couple times, which she did not understand.

As this went on, eventually mind games began to enter my mind, where you have to do things just right and really have no chance at winning. Something the birds would do it let there be the sound of a water droplet every so many seconds (there is no open water anywhere near my room), disrupting the mind game before it would begin. Eventually I got out of trouble by writing an email to my mom telling her about these spiritual things I had went through.

On speed I saw, above the circles created in the water, very faint, little translucent ducks and little ducklings swimming. When looking at them for quite a while, a dog would come sit next to me and look at them with me.

I, on speed, was walking in the meadows, I saw translucent animals walking around and as a translucent dog-like creature (he reminded me of a Zigzagoon from Pokémon) jumped in me I got a very nice soft feeling. On another occasion I saw a kitty, and then, from behind a bush, I saw a hallucinated kitty running towards me, which I kind of moved around as if it had been a real cat. As I did that the cat started meowing at me heartfeltly.

As i described in in trying not to breathe dark spirits, I had thought up that I could, as I described, breathe into an orb in my back. I took it to a further level and decided to breathe an imaginary breath (literally: literally breath from another dimension, breathe spirits), where these lades would slide in and out the orb providing breath, which I would indicate with my fingers. This was on speed. I also learned how to simulate breath by a seeing a classical Sega-like cassette sliding into a slot and coming out of it again. I noticed that by doing this I started to breathe into the spiritual atmosphere around me.

When I came home I could still see like the greenery and lampposts that were there before my eyes. When doing this and walking towards the end of the town, I thought of myself as ‘the little boy in the striped pajama as i walked on a mud-path among trees, almost at the edge of town. It gave a rather tragic impression, and as I did that instated to see a beautifully made and very nice garden with nice places to sit.

When I breathed in this same way, I was cycling next to the road, a hearse approached me stopped in the middle of its tracks many tens of meters away from me in the middle of the road. when I cycled by as fast as possible, still breathing like that, as I passed the hearse I saw a black aura in my vision in a way that indicated standing behind me.

When breathing like that in the back of my room near my neighbor and making a bird sound to alchemize that evening, I heard a sound saying ‘no..!’ (‘nee..!’) and saw three black silhouettes sitting in a room, one standing and two on the couch. being attacked by dark spirits, on numerous, like three, occasions I held my breath for more than two hours. once, i held my breath for two days. When walking around when holding my breath like that, I remember two guys standing at a distance from me “he is the devil” (“hij is de duivel”).

– Anti Dark Spirit (Hostile Deceased) Guide

Not every human deceased is a dark spirit and not every dark spirit is a human deceased

Overaged signal (more dark spirits):

-Heaviness (having portions of imbalance in the ‘signal’ that is your awareness/consciousness)

-Feeling of catching up to solution

-(Always) a little off

-Feeling bad

-Feel like you’re lacking something

-Dependency on something (emphasis on word ‘thing’) to feel good

-Thought (currents) with contents of that don’t have your best interest in mind, do not want to settle down/are draining

-Pain in joints and muscles in the body, for example: back pain, pain in your shoulder, not being able to shiver (which is the alchemising of the astral ghost in the body).

“Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.” -Steven King

Dark spirits: Aliens – Evil spirits (that possess (possess (almost) all humans (incl. young children).

-Evil, don’t know love, want to live on through you.

-The dark spirits are used by the humans that have been inhabited by them: we are our ancestors.

When under attack from dark spirits, I visited my dad’s grave and someone who walked by said ‘hi’, this was the first time since the attacking that I was able to say high normally without coming of all weird. This is why I’m sure deceased must have something to do with dark spirits.

You can also hear the voices of relatives who are alive, which aren’t those relatives (!!!).

The universe is big, before you know it – including the ones encountered on earth – you’re in between voices that have nothing to do with humans (a Mario voice that keeps repeating bye-bye or semi-English sounding but gibberish continuous voice are ones I encountered, or voices that keep saying the same thing over and over as if the sentence is a sound bite. And that’s right here on earth.

Once, on speed, a dark spirit came into my room making a monstrous pig-like (if the pig were to be a monster) noise, trying to scare me and as a display of power.

When under attack from dark spirits, as it entered my stomach, an evil victorious mocking laugh came from my stomach (don’t worry, I got it out).

Once, I was on speed, I had been visited by these dark spirits all day. A friend came by, and we had a great conversation. After he left, my whole room (and consciousness) was clean. However, after a while you start to think: what if it comes back? When I thought that, I saw a black smudge grow to the left of my back, and jump into the grain of my vision, and as it had jumped in, it started to produce a continuous gibberish English-like voice. I had to defocus as much as I could and go to sleep as soon as I could. That could have ended very badly: with a continuous voice-like noise in my head. That voice, however, wasn’t a deceased.

-Dark spirits only lie, they lie to the extend to where if they’re saying its the one way, its the other way (the only mistake you can make is thinking there is going to be a twist where they’ll speak the truth once so you’ll think it’s the other thing, I made that mistake once).

-Physical manifestation: human astral ghost, putting an aura of thick, and with smell, air/breath (consisting of heaviness and more worn (consisting of many (like) hundreds little and imbalanced breaths)), around you. Less visible manifestation, visible on speed but sober as well: black dots, looking like black electric shockwaves, shadows, black humanoid figures, black blobs, spots or stains).

-Dark spirit ultimate goal: These spirits don’t want to be alchemized/de-possessed because they want to keep on existing – want to keep you busy or want to keep you dependent on substances/astral needs. (Because they are part of our aura, humans will feel like you’re attacking them when you try to alchemize them/de-possess.)

-In short:

-Sabotage chakras

-Don’t want you to talk to talk to animals (have made the world think you can’t talk to animals)

-Want to block higher chakras

-Want humans not to reach weigh-less transparent signal

-Want humans not to shed dark spirits or be with light spirits.

-Want to keep humans preoccupied with astral consumption

-In dark spirit consciousness you’re (as it turns out: stuck) in thought current.

Dark spirits do not want you to (be able to) shed them:

-Try to scare people awake (for instance: make them hear the sound of a ringing phone)/give people stress (remind them of something that upset them) when they come to a peace and tranquility.

-Will (also via other people) deliberately ruin a light feeling (in which they’re absent).

-Sabotage contact of people with spirits of animals and light-spirits (including when these leave them untouched) – just not when they’re unfindable – because they could otherwise have had that real-estate(: and so claim control over autonomy of the human) (even though, in the case of a human connecting with a light-spirit, a dark spirit might have been removed from the aura – it has also once joined).

-Don’t want your aura to consist of too few dark or too light spirits in general, astral ghost to be absent: (fresh air, meditated breath, young/untouched signal), for you to come in touch with higher aspects of life at all (non-local interaction via bodily abilities, synchronicity: alignment, for you to talk to animals, have animals alchemize them or channel answers from animals, you to activate higher chakras (open the third eye (sixth chakra) or activate crown chakra (7th chakra), which they will (try to) sabotage if you do have them resonating properly (including through other people) – only be active in the lower (five of seven) chakras/chakras that have to do with the five senses), will sabotage auric configuration in general to prevent you from reaching higher chakras (for instance by making you keep blinking at the moment of (reinforcement of) alignment so it ends up not or barely happening) and feed on the defects (misalignments, resonating with too little light, including the third eye if you reach it for example – in contrast to when you reach it in contact with an animal) as well. In summary, they don’t want you to reach too much alignment (as this makes us too powerful and might signal the end of their dominance). Because of which deficiency you have to remain involved in distortion/imbalance (as previously defined: be involved in the distortion/portions of imbalance in your signal), in practice: with solely lower and astral aspects of existence.

-When you see such a black spirit, like a black dot next to you or on the floor, you can clap onto it, snap your fingers, flick your one nail with the other to produce a ‘tick’ sound, or drag your foot across it if it’s on a surface with enough resistance.

-Dark spirits lie to the extend to where if they’re saying its the one way, its the other way (the only mistake you can make is thinking there is going to be a twist where they’ll speak the truth once so you’ll think it’s the other thing, I made that mistake once). As all humans are infiltrated, this means that you can’t really trust any human. They, the dark spirits acting through a person without a person being knowing of this, might be trustworthy at one point so as to gain your trust so they can misdirect you by you trusting them later.

-They will lie (in general) and make a lot of (solely) fake arguments about how you’re bad, wrong or immoral if you go against them, and will plain talk down on you (including via other people. They also makes people give the wrong advice or give you the idea that what you’re doing needs changes, just know and be wary of this when you feel you’re on the right track and someones remark gives you the feeling you’re wrong.

-Are very good at making you not like something, making you choose to think something is a coincidence (whereas coincidences do not exists, these all have spirit interrelations/interactions as background). When something having happened where a dark spirit did something, as I thought of it when I walked home heard a voice say “coincidence”. Even if you can’t hear it, it still subconsciously influences you.

-Everyone might recognize a moment where you were really happy about something, and then someone said something which made you think your thing was wrong. This is an example of a dark spirit not wanting you to be too happy, in your power, fly too high, so giving someone a thought or an idea to say, which they may or may not know has anything to do with you. But this dark spirit knows that you interpret it that way.

-When dark spirits say they’re sorry this is ALWAYS (there are, unfortunately, no exceptions) fake, a trick as a means to open up interact with you so they can get you more.

-With dark spirit in aura a slower aura seems worse, older and less fresh – but at a certain point the dark spirit falls away and it becomes immeasurably much faster/younger. What smells good with dark spirit starts to smell very nasty and a nice soft feeling becomes very evil, gnarly(, described in more detail in the next piece of text,) energies (you start to see that the softness consists of distortion): evil voices that will do anything to yield as much negativity as possible, unstoppable and draining thought currents, psychosis (more detail in next piece of text) and (very) bad feeling in body (astral ghost that inhabits body).

-The dark/black from dark spirits, literally equals to imperfection, dis-harmonic, imbalance or misalignment (as illustrated by the story about the ducks in the Animal-, plant-, and light spirit section) (low, or null intimacy in the case of dark spirits themselves, being the primary example of that). As this consist of distortion, it’s, as it were, ‘automatic problem or error generators’. It is (literally) insane. It is not conscious, it’s just going automatically like by means of inertial movement. Thus it cannot be reasoned with, as it’s answers will just be simple automatic answer generations as by a computer choosing sound bites from a sound board. There is not a conscious being that says a Mario voice saying “bye-bye” over and over again and keeps using the exact same, as if automated, generic responses, as if sound bites, over and over and over again, never changing (which is what it does).

-Like Nassim Haramein describes in the same video as previously mentioned, the body uses more energy than it takes in in food. It extracts energy from the underlying field that connects us all (empty space or the quantum vacuum). So, as he explains, you can actually stop eating, and proceeds to tell that he actually did that, and was a breatharian, for three years. Dark spirits on our breath gain (not that it has the consciousness to experience it) from inciting emotions, desires such as wanting to eat: longing, desires, drifts romances fears (possession) arise.

Nassim Haramein – The Field of Boundless Information – Quantum University’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/3ZPVp0NGEYY) Nassim talking about having been a breatharian for three years 53:31-54:14 (once again, I would recommend to watch the whole video if you’re interested):

Things dark spirits may do:

-Something dark spirits may do is make you feel your dick in public to make you feel uncomfortable and pull down your chakral resonance. Once, when this happened at work, my colleague would shout out “my balls!” (“m’n ballen!”), and this was a woman. When attacked by dark spirits, indeed someone shouted “[something something] my dick!!!” (“[*something, something*] m’n lul!!!”) trying to instigate that reflex.

-Something dark spirits would do as well, is make other people smell very disgusting smells as I walked close by. When walking in the store at some point, people coming into the store, would wave me to go out (which I resolutely did at my own pace).

-Can abuse people physically, by giving people the feeling of electric shocks, in my case on my feet (because I was writing this guide, am talking to birds and utilizing bird noises, and had been severely blowing open higher chakras to where purple light spewed from my head to where, as the pressure in my head got turned so much outward, I thought I might faint) in the past few weeks, resulting in this guide). At the worst point it felt like they put a knife under my toenail.

On speed, at one point, a girl about my age (I’m 25), who is with the yellow color (the spirits therewith being described in the section about the past), voicing such dark spirit, proclaimed very proudly and sadistically “those electro shocks, that was me” (“die schokken, dat was ik”)(as if I didn’t know). I, however was too busy writing on this document about a giant purple light that had emanated from the sky (described in the section about The Purple Light) and was having too much fun writing this, so I couldn’t be bothered to pay any attention.

At a later time, when the shocks began to increase, I heard a kid from the primary school behind my house shout (they shouted regularly, stuff like “he has to go away!” (“hij moet weg!”)) “oh, now he has to go to the doctor!” (“oh, nu moet ‘ie naar de dokter!”) in a mocking tone. And I heard a voice saying “power socket” (“stopcontact”).

When the shocks first started out, I could not walk for three days. When, when I started recovering, I went to the store, barely able to walk again, as soon as I had an idea for this guide and went to type it on my phone, the shocks started and became really apparent again. As we speak a sharp pain in my left shoulder is developing (when I hit it not too hard with a flat hand a couple times to try to get out the entity, it stung increasingly worse a couple times), and as I mention this in my head in preparation to type, I hear a tick all the way in the back of my room and the pain as a whole is gone. (As I’m typing this sentence a couple weeks later than the previous sentence, the shoulder pain has not bothered me again.)

When in the confines of my orangery, in the spiritual bubble of animal consciousness and spirits the birds have created inside my home, on speed, I have been typing on this document all night. When I walked outside into the backyard to listen to the birds, the birds made a whistle which, I thought it just was my perception that was of, made a very grave sounding whistle. About thirty seconds later, heavy electro shocks would permeate my toes. I said: “I think I’ll go back inside” (“ik denk dat ik weer naar binnen ga”), and the birds started whistling.

Prior to the shocks commencing, I, on speed, at some point, I felt a sting in my neck, as if someone pushed put a thin metal stick in it. This was at home in my orangerie. I realized that came from spirits in the room of my neighbor of the color yellow. I later realized this is how they triggered my nervous system. When I would slap my neck, I would feel a shockwave go through my whole body, with a feeling of shock at the bottom of my feet.

Before the person had hit me on the nose that afternoon, I had been working on this document with music (the LTH mix mentioned in the section about The Purple Light) on repeat all night. I did have an idea that later turned out not to be true (must’ve been some manipulation by a dark spirit).

On speed, I had come to think the world was was a computer. This is something dark spirits do as well. The idea was that to get a separated, physical form, in something that is so innately intimate such as our higher self, you need an unprecedented amount of evil. The idea was that outside of this physical life, an evil psychopath (dark spirit) had placed his aura over my aura, rendering me to be filtered through what I would be with his aura, one of seven billion human beings instead of my higher self, where you see you’re it.

The idea was that I was the only living being with a picture in his field of view on which a physical external shape was projected, as he was so evil he had to be lifeless or otherwise didn’t need vision anyhow as he did things by feeling, and that animals were genderless, sexless beings who only came into physical shape as I saw them and didn’t see them as those beings channeled their energy through my physical shape. As I talked to the animals with the ‘knowledge’ they were not truly animals, the vibes decreased, me increasingly seeing them as humanoid characters. The dark spirit attacks would be maintained heavily so that I would see them as a computer being able to attack me like that. Also, when I first had come to the idea that the world was a computer, I got attacked very heavily by dark spirits as I began to let the idea go. It only got less, and I started to win, when I adopted the idea again. It said too, that the other ‘droids’, ‘robots’, ‘computers’, or ‘computer programs’, as I started to call humans could be recognized by not having an aura, instead their aura consisting of these dark spots, or dark spirits.

Also, the idea was that people would ignore you like the NPC in a video game would, when you said ‘hello, NPC’. My upstairs neighbor asked me, when looking out of his window: “are there other people there?”. I said to him: “[something something], NPC.”, and by himself he turned it into a different sentence. When I sat by the waterside, putting my feet in the water, to separate myself from ‘the robots’, who were still making one psychopathic reference after the other like they would in any other dark spirit attack, I thought about the dogs who would have to live with psychopathic robots, and suddenly started crying, because I felt so bad for them. This usually never happens. When I walked home, a guy came up to me and asked me: “do you have a cigarette?” (“heb jij sigaret?”). The day after, when visiting my dealer, because I was very tired, having been awake several days, felt he was bossing me around and began to act a little weird, he punched me. Slowly but surely, I began to let the idea go as well. Also because the animals told me it was not true.

At a later time, I had come to the idea again. The animals told me the hid it from me because they saw that it was too heavy on my heart. The morning after I got the idea that night, and I went to the store, I ran into the exact same guy asking me “do you have a cigarette?” (“heb jij sigaret?”). Later that afternoon, I could see with my own eyes, how birds flying by would appear behind a twig, or disappear, and a dove turn into a crow. I still know I saw this. But, I think these dark spirits must have been making use of tools or phenomena, that the good does not use yet, because it’s not meant for me to see those yet.

Anyway, thinking of everything you’ve ever known as a lifeless computer, with everyone in it you’ve ever known in reality ever being this same psychopath, is damaging for your chakra resonance. This is a manipulation dark spirits use. They make use of your open-mindedness and willingness to consider higher thought, put an idea like this in, the consequence being that no matter what you think, now you’re always going to have in the back of your mind, always be thinking, the very damaging idea “what if everything is a computer after all?”. I this way, dark spirits try to get back at you, for being a high level thinker and practicing open-mindedness. I had to consider the idea because it was that same open-mindedness but this could have given me a serious wound, had I not had a big heart, had I been, like, an outcast for example or had I been a junkie who was in worse condition in the first place. It was my neighbors and people around always behaving so awfully during dark spirit attacks, and the leverage it gave me on them by believing they were computer programs, in the first place, that lead me to believe it in the first place.

I considered that the harmonics and resonances of the idea seemed so bad because the computer did not want me know it. But the way to get out of it, or in my case, made it hard to believe in the first place, is that no matter what, you can’t help but feel intimacy when paying for food at the cash register, seeing your mom, or your dealer, which dealt the defining blow in my case. The harmonics and logic itself of the idea itself are way screwed in the head (the picture in my field of view being a tv, with a feeling overlay plugged into it, rather than the actual truth, that the 3d reality is something you’re really standing in and really are intimately connected to. This is something you see when you let your light go through the space. In the Workings of Spirits • Stories section, I talked about the curtain being the only thing breathing in the room creating balance around it. This already invalidates the your vision in your field of view is a sort of tv which overlays the inner world of your feelings. And I don’t know quite what it meant anymore, but the geese made a lot of noise when I told them “it isn’t correct on a soul level” (“het klopt niet op zielsniveau”).

When I still thought it was true, my mom showed me pictures of my dad, who passed away. When looking at them, I reacted rather cold. When I said ‘to myself’, having found out this wasn’t true, that I would make it right with my mom, my curtain, which had been moving in a way that had me paying mind to it, kind of reminding me of how it had been moving in those experiences on LSD I described in the Workings of Spirits • Stories section, suddenly really stood out, moving, in a really spacey vision. I knew it was my dad. I felt my dads love coming to me. The birds chirped, and as I listened I got a super balanced signal.

Note: neither animals nor I are anti-astral as it’s a natural part of life. But only with humans astral activity attracts these dark spirits. Astral activity and dark spirits are not synonymous. Astral activity without a dark spirits does not lead to heavy breath and an aura of thick smelly air.

This ‘prohibition’ and following carried out behavior are unjust:

-Problem in daily practice: sabotage absence with humans, including when they’re left untouched, because they could otherwise have had that real-estate: claim control over autonomy of humans.

-Damage chakras, damage and otherwise (severely) limit brain in both regular functioning (feeling of comfort coming from the brain feeling open and not occupied, freed up by bird noises), my suspicion is this increases the chance of brain-tumors, and higher (called supernatural) capabilities (higher chakras) and makes people doubt their existence, and obstructs healing.

-Traps people in and drains people with activity, can’t find the way to rest.

-Some people are born with the natural tendency to be present in a higher chakra. Their birthright as well as talent is being taken from them. They may end up being misunderstood or labeled as disadvantaged.

-Does not refrain from interfering with people’s life paths, the will of their souls (by blocking people from higher abilities, or alignment in general, with synchronicities as an example).

-Become, or make people become, very aggressive, let them exhibit bullying behavior, or wrongly say you’re in the wrong when discussing it.

-Separates people from (direct) communication (through thoughts), animal’s spirits (and makes people doubt the possibility of its existence), seeing and being able to approach (through enhanced communication) animals as their equal and less resulting qualification of animals being able to resonate with them as a result of habits and interests originating from more darkness (trouble to keep attention uwith slow, tranquil things – increased tendency to be hasty or listen to loud music, for example, whereas this may, regarding someones natural inclination, not or less be the case).

-Does not refrain from mistreatment of animal spirits in context of contact with human (several days after I reached a very high chakra and weigh-less signal in my room with the birds, my neighbor – who is of the category yellowish/brownish colored aura, entered my room with his spirits (creating figures of excavators for example) and I saw how the lights originating from the animals tried to escape my room, and my neighbor’s spirits were trying to intercept them. When I walked outside I saw a block-grid of eight squares, with the lights trying to escape the grid and fly back to the tree they came from – which was reflective of the confinement by my neighbor’s spirits.

-Lets people bully people who do communicate with lighter or animal spirits, or displease them in general. What dark spirits will do is, they will give people the signal as if you’re causing a disturbance that leaves them no longer alchemized – even if you’re doing nothing but calmly and quietly writing something informative – which people will interpret at you causing a disturbance they feel in their aura, so feel like they have to react. And so makes them mistreat them by bullying, the mentioned lies and misleading people despite it being in direct conflict with their interest, and mistreat people themselves by instigating unstoppable uncontrollable thought currents, (social) anxiety (including by instigating gaslighting thoughts (making you think something bad about someone else that is completely out of context of what you may have originally have thought, making you think ‘as if I would think something like that’, which thoughts others sometimes pick up on), including via phenomena that become apparent during psychosis (for instance: random people saying negative things about you (always wrongly and in-just – a lie or of misleading nature).

Psychosis is the manifestation of (these, in this case) spirits and is facilitated by their non-local communication and nature. People partake knowingly (!!!) – with behavior that is not characteristic of them of people’s nature in general – (people may feel aurically attacked because they have dark spirits in their aura, and feel their signal is being demolished – which doesn’t explain their uncharacteristic behavior.

Perhaps the dark spirits manipulate them: inform them untruthfully, plays on their feelings, tempts them with feeling of self esteem or they fear for their safety and wellbeing) or not consciously (spirit gives them idea to tell a story they do not know relates to you).

How do you not perish? Not reacting pays off the most (especially in time). Having an attitude, especially a very obscene one – ridiculing them, making bad jokes – helps. Being timid, peaceful, careful, conceding or surrender does not yield any difference.

Also, being conscious of the fact that every degree of non-physical violence is morally justified (everything is permissible to protect yourself from abuse of warring unscrupulous dangerous criminals) in favor of the recovery from auric obstruction this yields. Harmony with criminals and abusers is not necessary. In case of physical abuse, act as if you don’t know it’s them or they exist. Acknowledging them can only lead to them getting upset.

Dark Spirits (Human Deceased) • Stories

When taking away a dark spirit, birds can come around you as sign this is good.

You can clap onto dark spirits, like black dots or spark like shapes, or snap your fingers when they’re there (I have long enough nails to be able to flick one nail with the other to create a noise, this works without too noisy an impact so it won’t show so much or drain you by constantly creating all this fuss around you) to take them away, or drag your foot across them on the pavement (make sure it’s a hard surface so you have resistance) to make them go away. You don’t even have to touch them, you can make a gesture of shooting a gun (I had seen this in rap videos).

At one point, having reached a very high chakra, a dark spirit (a black dot), hovering above my other neighbors backyard (those with the yellow color, the spirits therewith described in the section about the past (they’re dark spirits)), about one story high, tried to hurt my head by trying to block my higher chakra. Naturally, I could not reach him. However, I made this shooting gesture at him and my chakra ran flawlessly again. The gestures only works a couple times, as long as they don’t expect it, though.

When I had recently, I had once before, had connected, on speed with the crows in a major way to where they all followed me around, and i was walking down the street a woman walking there with her daughter said “we’ll finish off that little Jew” (“dat Joodje krijgen we wel klein”). As I walked on a little bit i suddenly saw a crow perform like an eight looping to the right of my head (which I later on learned to be them trying to de-posses you at the moment you’re getting possessed). Then all the crows left. when I laid in my bed later that night I saw my own aura, my left eye being a light bluish shape (the shape of like a sideways rhomb with ninety degrees straight side lines) and the left side was green with like brownish color and it had a woman’s voice coming from it.

I have an acquaintance I know from high school, who, after speed use, had gotten severe voices in head. Me, always trying to get as much light into my consciousness (accumulating as much light) as possible, when using speed, must have gotten some dark spirits upset. Especially from the park, where I had done so (and also had created silence forcefully as described), where, when I later returned I saw black blobs hanging in the sky shoot under my nose and make my breath heavy, as i had described. When he visited me, I would start getting this horrendous feeling in my body. I asked him if he could stop and he said: “try to get this one away” (“probeer deze maar eens weg te krijgen”), he went on by saying “okay, oké, ik stop eventjes , maar met vijf minuten gaat ‘ie weer aan”). I saw multiple black humanoid silhouettes standing by the door of my orangery. I asked him “werk je voor hun?”), and he said no. I, again asked “je werkt voor hun, hè?”, and he said yes. I told him he had to leave my house.

Once, when on speed and looking at myself in the mirror, I was not in contact with animals at the time (so with the dark spirits), I saw auras in my own face. And the auras I saw scared me. They were all completely dazed auras. I remember an incredibly dazed drunkard aura coming through my face. It is these types of forces, on the human side of the dark spirits, you should count on dealing with.

When a former friend (Wouter Leeflang, the last name literally translated meaning Livelong) of mine with whom I used speed at the time, who is with the orange color (of course consisting of dark spirits), which would correspond to the second chakra, the color being of that frequency. When chilling with him I often had much trouble keeping my head calm, and this would often almost go out of control a lot of times. When, at some point, I put on a video from Michael Jamison where he talked about when you see the perfection of an animal, it does something special to you, and as suddenly, as I was watching the video, at the point where before that would have been a panicky thought, suddenly, I was surprised that ‘signal’ went on. Very bright white light started flickering from my head in my vision, my former friend said “a little less power please.” (“wat minder vermogen alsjeblieft.” and after I was done he said – we were playing a video game but what he said had nothing to do with it – “hey, there’s a rat, let’s rob him.” (“hey, daar is een rat, laten we hem beroven.”). I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt but then he said the exact same thing, “hey, there’s a rat, let’s rob him.” (“hey, daar is een rat, laten we hem beroven.”) and I knew I had to get out of there and I cycled all over town in the middle of the night and outside the town in the meadows to try to shed him in what I later at home learned to be like the highest chakra.

This Wouter, once told me he had to (he is an electrician) lay cables in an institute where young people can live under supervision. He told me that someone there had told him that his smoke detector was controlling his thoughts (a.k.a. dark spirits in the smoke detector). Once, this was after I had gotten the ‘green spot’ in my eye, my breath became kind of smelling like a boiled egg, I decided I needed to breathe with the birds. I used to try to create silence forcefully, which would mean a heavy aura. I felt the dark spirit I had been using to do so, coming into my back (somehow I was able to see it was a dark spirit, even though jt was behind me) and I could feel it going over my forehead (I could feel like little, as if there were dust-particles there, even though there was nothing there) my third eye creating pink light (I saw the pink light (pink being the color with the highest frequency so a color corresponding to a very high chakra) being created in my vision, moving towards my window, outside, and then I heard birds in the air making noises.

Later, I was indeed breathing with the birds, as if the top and bottom of my inner body were connected to theirs. But then, the pink light also proceeded to move into the lamp on my ceiling and my smoke detector. When, nights later, I was under attack from dark spirits and had foolishly taken an XTC-pill, this destroyed the field of spirits in my room and I could see it leaking from there, as if a hole had been made in them, like an oil spill.

On speed, what I used to try to get as much light (and space) into my consciousness as possible manually. It was when trying to get as much light into my consciousness, that I would first notice the presence from other people, which I later learned were the dark astral spirits they carry with them, caused disgusting smells.

After having tried to get as much light in my consciousness as possible for a good day, and well into the night, it ending at the point where I (I was kind of stopped in my tracks and stood still there for multiple hours, even though there was a bench a few meters from me, that was the level I was on. Watching the sheep and letting them steer my space) was looking at a field of grass, and I hallucinated them being meadows that stretched until the horizon. When the business in my head increased, I felt it going in my head and making everything very calming again.

When I went home in the middle of the night, as I was sitting, I heard a police helicopter for a couple of minutes. Already suspecting it, I went outside into the yard and looking up, it was hovering exactly above my house, and stayed there for a good two to three minutes. Later, when at Wouter’s, he had apparently, through ways dark spirits communicate heard about me trying to get as much light in my consciousness and said about it “just beating up as many as possible, huh” (“gewoon zo veel mogelijk in elkaar slaan”).

At Wouter’s, when the dark spirits there realized I was not simply going to roll over, they let Wouter try to manipulate me with such tactics as grabbing two packs of shag and asking me, what is the difference? I told him “one wants nothing but good and the other is through and through evil” (“de één is puur en alleen goed en de ander is door en door slecht”). He told me to “just eat sugar [like a normal person]” (“gewoon suiker eten”)). An argument he also made was that there “are no people like that at all [that pure or spiritual]” (“er bestaan helemaal geen mensen die [puur of spiritueel] zo zijn”). I knew one, the person who had taught me about spirituality. Wouter had said he did not like me breathe the entities away. Wouter said: ‘do you want something to drink?’. I said ‘sure’, and he passed me a face mask. I said “well, I don’t want to drink, he does”.

A bit later, we were playing a video game, I would feel a dark spirit digging a tunnel in the top of my head (trying to damage my crown chakra, which if you allow that for long periods of time could permanently break your chakra and make it so your aura can never get back to equilibrium or a restful state, and so you have to stay consuming, again).

When I swiped my hand over it and so took it away, the game (which was of course a put up job, it was just a spirit that had become intertwined with the game system making the game crash to manipulate me into thinking what I was being told was true by ‘authority of magic’), it was on a Nintendo Switch, got an error message and quit. And Wouter lyingly (as in: it was definitely not the truth, although he might have genuinely thought it was) said: “see? that was an innocent woman. (“zie je? Dat was een onschuldige vrouw.”).

Also, I suddenly felt like an invisible thorn going into my eye. I could not tell exactly what was being said (it was something about animals) but my mind came up with a very clear example I had seen of couple f days ago why it was incorrect what was said and possible after all, and the thorn disappeared. In this way, for instance, dry eyes or zits (things getting clogged) are being possessed, and incorrect things being said which no longer allows your aura to be unimpeded (interrelation of spirits).

I used to have dry eyes (after I first was released from the psychic ward, from which I did escape three times in the two months, of which I was not allowed to go outside for three weeks because of the first time I escaped, I was there, for the record) and then when I used speed, and my aura of course became stronger, they would water a lot and could finally walk on.uu

When I arrived at Wouter’s on a different occasion, not too long after I had tried to get as much light into my consciousness as possible, again the dark spirits had communicated and Wouter told me the woman I had with me was very unhappy. He said, portraying her in a whining, crying voice: “I have to work for him in the mines and I don’t get anything, I want to leave you” (“ik moet voor hem in de mijnen werken en ik krijg helemaal niks, ik wil van je af [ik wil het met je uitmaken]”). While I know for a fact that the spirits that are with me, care about me a lot and are very happy with me. I thought: “well, good. because I did that for the exact reason because I had wanted for you to leave me too” (“mooi zo, want dat is ook precies waarom ik dat deed”). As the person who taught me about spirituality told me “I can’t imagine that you stay somewhere for so long, where you don’t like it” (“ik kan me niet voorstellen dat je zo lang ergens blijft waar je het niet naar je zin hebt”)).

My mom asked me if I wanted to see a video on YouTube. She asked if I wanted to see a video about an old city. I said I really didn’t want to see that. Out of nowhere, when she gave me the phone, she showed me a video of, like a side-scroller 2d video game, an alien walking with a machine gun, shooting robots coming out of a building with a sign on it that said “Federal Bureau of Misinformation”. And this while I have the most normal mom you can imagine. She plays and listens classical music, doesn’t eat sweets, never drinks, has never used drugs or so much as smoked a joint, always does everything proper and has had a high education.

My dad died of a brain tumor when I turned five. My mom had told me that sometimes he would be up nights, thinking. He had had a pretty cold childhood, his mom died early, his dad was really rather cold and the catholic school he went to even colder.

As I said, when I visited my dad’s grave I was greeted with a ton of birds, and my dad was always certain he would go to paradise, which he reckon he has to have achieved then. Also, when I visited his grave and asked “can you give a sign if you’re still here” at that moment, my mom called. But what I wanted to say is that I do blame these demonic forces having created this what would end up as a tumor in his head, by these toxic spirits resulting in the physical in a tumor growing.

Because of being greeted and surrounded by all the birds when I visited him by the graveyard, I know that he actually went to paradise. And in a way, him not having those dark spirits, I really am the only one with a dad.

I have a brother with a severe mental (called a) disability: he is basically like a child having been born in 1994 (he chose to get is little dark spirits on his spirit as possibly by simply not straining from intimacy whatsoever). He is a very happy calm, exuberant and above all sweet guy.

But he is plagued by these compulsions where he has to reel of a certain ‘ritual’, go through things like how many days until he gets a reward for behaving well, when he’s going to visit this or this person, as well accompanied by simply compulsive nervous twitches where he has to say certain words that do not really make any real sense (“lucky guy, [the name of his school]”). A way he tries to establish order in his head and those ‘non-sense making words’ mantra’s of repeating stuff he likes(literally, on a spiritual level, ‘catch his breath’). Normally, he HAS to complete this ‘ritual’.

When laying in his bed, the dark spirit must’ve thought I was him because the thought-pattern/dark spirit came to me as me literally feeling like I had a band around my forehead (imagine what this could do to your third eye, especially over long periods of time). I knew to just wipe it off with my hand. When visiting on speed, we were sitting very calmly, enjoying the great signal, he got the urge to do the ritual. I could literally see a black spark sitting by his forehead. When I snapped my fingers, his urge immediately disappeared, and we could continue on enjoying. These compulsions are always dark spirits, feeding on someone’s aura.

When visiting on speed in a very high chakra, with beautifully closing shapes, when talking to my mom or my brother, they would have the same great signal. My step-dad on the other hand, when conversing with I saw the vision from the left eye being way behind and completely disconnected from the vision of the right eye, with a black shadowy figure in the middle. The colors were far grayer and rather than beautifully closing shapes all standing there in their own right (on the left), the perspective had this shape (from a side-angle) (on the right): Furthermore (this is nothing against him but an observation that needs to be made), he started sticking up for the dark spirits.

He started out jokingly remarking I lived in the expensive ‘Corona Park’ in New York. He talked about how I made (lyingly and deceivingly called) grandma lose weight. He tried to convince me I should just settle for a normal life in which I can get a nice job and some tips, alluding to I should forget these crazy high chakra dreams, and he lied his vision had a beautiful red glow when I could clearly see it was gray. It had to keep looking at my mom and brother during dinner for my head not to, thusly, ‘split in two’ (the ‘Headcrack’ Jayrich was talking about. A completely misaligned signal. When enjoying the great balanced signal, I made a slight error and a very bad distortion came in. I heard it say “hmmm. tasty.” (“lekker.”). Fortunately, I did manage to remove it upon which my mom said, “I’m glad he’s gone” (“ik ben blij dat ‘ie weg is”).

A different time I went by, I noticed having to mind my movements so as to not hurt my light accumulation and get drained, and he, remarked “and performing the right dance steps” (“…en de juiste danspasjes uitvoeren”). How would he have known I did that?

And he, on his end, also meant so as to talk about “something” I do. Like more than a year ago, when visiting my parents on speed, before they knew I used it sometimes, I saw a black blob sitting by the ceiling while he was playing his lute, and after he started talking to me and I noticed him deliberately trying to say things to upset me, saying stuff like “[something I wouldn’t agree with] (I don’t remember what), and that’s just the way it is.” (“[something I wouldn’t agree with] (I don’t remember what), en dat is nu eenmaal zo.”) (he must have noticed I hated it if he were so polarizing about his personal opinion, acting like it’s a fact)”. But I had already seen through it, so I just didn’t react to it and agreed with him with a smile, showing him it bothered me as little as possible.

One time on speed, after having been in a high chakra, but dark spirits emerging, I would still let the hallucinations increase from time to time. At one point, right before it went wrong (the chakra resonating in the wrong way) I stopped the hallucinations (by looking back at my phone). I, I didn’t notice it, heard something faint, and as I heard that, suddenly, like the sleeve of a sweater that was living there turned, and I thought, “wait, what did he say?”, I tried to think back to that moment and recalled “[something something..] we’ll get him next time” (“[something something..] we pakkken hem volgende keer wel”). And I realized what was going on and now dark spirits had taken root to where I probably shouldn’t enter hallucinations anymore.

I was on speed, in my room, and suddenly I saw I had accidentally recorded a voice message, which I had not yet sent to my mom, about thirty seconds long. (As I typed this, having the intention to type this story, I saw a bright white flash in the sky, and seconds later heard a noise as if something falling on the ground, like a delayed bang like in the case of thunder. It is night right now. There was no smoke, it wasn’t fireworks nor sounded like fireworks.) It was me slapping on my phone (in my head I heard crying children in the background as if I was hurting them) or slapping my phone on my leg (*slap slap slap slap slap*) and saying “I wonder if I’m being filmed right now….. Hm, I don’t think so.” (“ik vraag me af of ik gefilmd wordt….. H’m, ik denk het niet.”). I had no recollection of saying anything like that whatsoever.

It would happen that, under attack from dark spirits, this would happen, and black dots would chase me everywhere and attack my aura. One time, such a black dot spun real fast, some meters away, which hurt my eye. People were making remarks like a woman walking with her daughter: “he is a talker” (“hij is een prater”), when walking by a couple children playing (there was a ditch between the path I was walking and the playground) “where is he? He’s walking here, by the water!” (“waar loopt “ie? Hier bij de waterkant!”). A man would say “[something something] my dick!” (“[something something] m’n lul!”) to instigate the reflex of me feeling my dick in public, something dark spirits do to make you feel uncomfortable in public (and pull down your chakral resonance at the same time).

Dark spirits would also make me smell the unpleasant demonic, and a little bit scary, smell of a dumpster and wine (in which I could smell the absolute ‘bottom’ (of lostness, or being stuck)) (blow your nose!). It was that afternoon that, when on the other side of town, I heard a woman I didn’t know say “oh, that’s Ivo” (“oh, dat is Ivo”).

A great way to counter these dark spirits and the anxiety they cause is to keep ridiculing them, call them bad words, and make bad jokes. Such bad jokes as, when walking there were two people from whom I saw two black dots flying towards me. I snapped my fingers where they had ‘landed’, and they said “fucking mongol” (in Dutch meaning retard) (“kankermongool”), and I said: “would you not call me that? I’m not from Mongolia, I’m from China.” (“wil je me niet zo noemen? Ik kom niet uit Mongolië, ik kom uit China.”) (using the strategy of, rather than getting mad and dissipating energy and losing happiness, not respond. In this case at least to the viciousness of the tone).

Or, when someone says something to upset you, respond with (this one is from Wouter): “what was that, you’re a slut with aids?” (“wat zeg je, ben je een slet met aids?”). Another joke from him he used at my birthday is: “a turk with a frog on his head visits the doctor. The frog says: “doctor, can you help me? I have a tumor below my ass” (“komt een Turk met een kikker op z’n hoofd bij de dokter. Zegt de kikker: “dokter, kun je me helpen? Ik heb een gezwel onder m’n reet.”) (being a turk in this case the thing that’s being ridiculed as well as being used to be analogous with what’s bad, like Americans ridicule Canadians (Dutch ridicule people from Belgium as well, those are their Canadians)).

After listening to bird noises all night, when morning came around, I dark humanoid aura with the strong smell of a dumpster emerged (I called him ‘Dumpsterboy’) (what all of these things are will be made clear as you go further on). After it having been around for a moment, the birds made a beautiful whistle, and at once, it had disappeared. A moment later, through something happening in my mind, it returned through me. The birds tried the same whistle again, but this time, the aura stayed there. I went inside, and after having breathed very light smooth breath all night, began to fortify my breath, preparing for impending attack. I began to find ways to make my breath, as it were, a thin line that would pass through anything trying to step in front of my breath. The birds were still making noises. Laying down in my bed, I listened to them, and I turned out laying there for a long time, just looking, enjoying being able to be with myself for while.

When listening to birds, I got the sounds of birds in my head as well. Dark spirits did not like that, and people would say “I’m hearing birds everywhere” (“ik hoor overal vogeltjes”). At one point, in my backyard, I started smelling the strong smell of a dumpster and saw a dark humanoid aura. I tried to put bird noises in my head, but could not quite reach.

Something that might happen is that when you try to reach, say, up, you can’t quite get high enough and you keep on trying but you can’t quite reach. The way I got around that was agreeing that below below, would come up again (so by pointing down, I would visualize me being able to see the tip of my finger when looking up). What would happen to get around things further is that I would point upward, to point downward, which I would do to point upward (which you could do to point downward again). I placed the bird noise above me by placing it downward, and I heard the voice of that aura say angrily “where did he leave it?!” (“waar heeft ‘ie hem gelaten?!”).

Something that had happened on speed is, I, after not eating for a long time went to the store. The dark spirits that were still with me must have been hungry, because, when I got to the store, having grabbed some fruit juices, and wanting to pay, I found out I had left my card at home. I did say I would come back to the store, but back home kind of forgot and decided not to. Suddenly, my aunt called (she is very sweet). But I noticed my room being filled with some black blobs. Of course I was in heavy communication with the birds. By itself, the phone line disconnected. When she called a bit later, I talked to her, and she just said “hello? Hello?” (hallo? Hallo?), not being able to hear me, because of the connection. This had been achieved by the birds.

I had somehow, by listening to the birds, accumulated all kinds of blue light in my room, which gave a very good feeling. When under attack from a dark spirit, I looked at it, it got sucked into me and me feel very good for a brief moment, and then it was all gone.

A couple weeks after this blue energy had disappeared, on speed, I decided to try a ‘computer command’ (in the supercomputer that is nature), to get it back. I said ‘that blue energy from back then’ to refer to it, I said ‘fill my room with it, remove other entities that will take it away from my room, and make sure they can’t enter my room again’. I executed the command, and sure enough, it worked, and the whole room was filled with that energy again. Then, I proceeded to do the same for the backyard as well.

I used to try to create silence forcefully. This means that I was dependent on the strength in my aura to get the silence I wanted. As an attack, dark spirits had taken this strong aura of mine and made it much lighter, so I was not able to be as forceful and have a strong enough breath to breathe away all distortion. When walking in the park I had done all this forceful working the day after, suddenly I felt the back from my previous aura coming back into my back from behind, and all kinds of dark spirits, the ones I had been using the day before as forceful means, came shooting back into my back, and I heard bird noises coming out of them in my head. Then, to restore my breath, it had me bring down my breath to as low in my body as possible and made me feel all kinds of heaviness in my aura, which I had to keep bringing my breath lower than. When I failed to do so, I immediately took away the heaviness. The second time it worked.

Having brought my breath lower than it, it then had me circle it by taking my towards away from my face, circling it and coming back around through the too, to restore the strength of my breath. Then, after my aura did lose its strength after a while again, I heard people say on the street: “its over” (“het is voorbij”) and “you’re busted” (“je bent erbij”).

What would happen when under attack from dark spirits is I would feel they would make people drive their car to where I was to reinforce them. As such, I was being chased by cars coming by wherever in the town I went. At one point, after attack from dark spirits and trying to restore my breath, a shooting star had given me the idea that if I walked in that direction, it would work out.

And sure enough, it did. I met a cat on the way and I spaced out for a good time, seeing all kinds of light. Then as I moved further, eventually outside of town, I heads a voice say “hurry up” (“opschieten”). I have a principle they I do not run, when under attack from dark spirits. I decided to cross the road into the woods, where all would be well. At the very last moment, a car came from somewhere behind the bushes, and a dark spirit came to spread their dreadful feeling and attacking my higher chakras after all, and I spent the evening holding my breath for hours to get it away while listening to some good rap music.

I was at my job, on day four of having used speed (when looking at a car I heard a voice in my head saying “gang!”) (I also had my job interview there on the so-manyeth day of using speed, so they knew what to expect). I was a delivery driver for Domino’s. Looking back, as the idea came from a friend who is also with the dark spirits, on that dark spirit level they must have very well know what was going on and let me work there so they could assimilate me with them (the dark spirits). It was after I be rid the place of dark spirits there once, by letting one nail snap the other wherever I saw one or hit the surface

I saw the black spot on, that I would start feeling my dick there to make me feel uncomfortable. So me working there and them doing that must will have been their plan to strip me of my power and letting me come under them) I saw all kinds of dark humanoid silhouettes standing there. My supervisor, someone my age, let me have the pizza I would have in my break early. He told me that “you’ll have to learn to work with them” (“je zult toch met ze moeten leren samenwerken”).

He told the other person who was working there to go do the dishes, which I normally would. Not understanding fully what was going on at that time, I thought, “okay, I’ll work with them”. The second I decided “no, I won’t”, my supervisor came around and said, “okay Ivo, you go do the dishes” (“oké, Ivo, ga jij maar afwassen”). I did not, and when I said to myself (again, this was way earlier and at the time I did not understand fully what was going on) “all right, I’ll work with them” and my supervisor, again was fine with me just sitting there. Still sitting there, suddenly my head began to be filled with light, and after it was over, my supervisor came to me to tell me that a boy had walked into the establishment and asked “do you also sell pizzas here?” (“verkopen jullie hier ook pizzas?”) (so as to say, you’re ‘selling’ something else here more primarily, a.k.a. dark spirits).

In the middle of the day, I decided I would only stay working if I had more speed. The order that came in after that was from the street next to where my dealer lived (my dealer, I went to his house, wisely was not home however). Then, I kind of was done, told my supervisor I didn’t feel so good and thought about quitting. He said “well, you have to make money. How will you live? You have to think this through well.” (“je zult toch geld moeten verdienen. Waar ga je dan van leven? Je moet er goed over nadenken.”) (which, the person who initially taught me about spirituality taught me, “you have to NOT think” (“je moet juist niet nadenken”), but follow your intuition). He said, “maybe you can work somewhere else?”. I told him “I had a New York pizza behind me, and those had the same” (“Ik had een New York pizza achter me, en die hadden dezelfde”) and he did not look up once, and knew what I meant. I told him I was going to go home. He asked me if I could deliver two more orders. Intuitively feeling this was the devil calling, I reluctantly agreed. The first order was at a flat building, where the name plate was and that I had seen before and I found very surprising at the time, because it did not say any name, it just said ‘”friends”‘ (in English) (you guess who those ‘friends’ are). I found this name especially creepy. And that, out of all places, I would go to this one that I had seen before, I knew was not a coincidence (while I knew coincidences do not exist at the time too).

While in the parking lot of the flat building, I saw a woman and suddenly heard her voice in my head (which was new to me at the time). The actual house was on the first floor of the flat building. I did not want to come close to that house, so I told the person who I delivered the pizzas to (which, I’m sure the order was a well coordinated action which wasn’t about rhe pizzas) “I just heard a voice in my head, so I’m not coming any closer” (“ik hoorde net een stem in mijn hoofd dus ik kom niet dichterbij”) (acting as if I was sober, in which case, I could justify my worried attitude more). Instead of completing the order, I went back to the establishment, and without saying anything put the scooter in the back with my working clothes in it, left, and never returned. Then I got some sushi. Later, because I had never officially filed my resignation, they wouldn’t pay out my subsidies. In court, it was decided that they had to pay up and now they’re paying me more than a good €7000,- in subsidies.

When having plans to get out of there and go to London, I, again on speed, went to the station. Even there was no one in the train carriage I was in, I couldn’t stop the anxiety. When I got out at Amsterdam Bijlmer Arena station, people simply started running away from me (because the vibes must have been that excruciating to them).

Then, next to the tracks there is a path with some water (it was pretty late at night so there were not many people), when I went there to wait for the bus, all of the sudden, everything was perfectly okay. I realized it was because now I was with the ducks and the coots living in that water. Making very clear how important contact with animals is.

When I took the train to Germany, because I had not wanted to step into the bus to London because of the anxiety and still wanted to go somewhere, I took the train to Berlin. When there, when I took a snort of speed late night, not having seen that I had done so, the conductor on the other long end of the platform stepped out of his train and started shouting “hey! hey!”, me being the only person there.

While there, also at some point, I heard a group of youngsters walking by saying my name (which is not a German name).

A couple days later, money having run out having slept in the train, phone empty with no place to charge and no idea how to get home, and certainly not having a train ticket, at 01:30 in the morning the conductor asked me to leave the train in the middle of nowhere with temperatures around freezing temperature. I felt like it was going to be a heavy night. All of the sudden there were two people in the parking lot, who asked me if I needed help. I told them that yes actually I did, I had no place to sleep. They lived in a squat with a group of people, and they told me I could sleep in their kitchen. So, I was saved.

They looked up for me how I could get back to the Netherlands, and a train turned out to leave from that station. The next morning, I woke up with a bag of chips I could eat next to me (not having eaten in quite a while). I told them they were angels.

There is someone who used to be my friend, who, after speed use now has voices in my head to where my dealer told me that he had come to him to buy a gun to shoot himself (showing just how relentless these dark spirits are, they have no compassion). He was visiting my house, and (I don’t blame him, he probably did no have much choice, he did let me know he regretted that he was doing this), put this huge dark spirit in my house that started to attack me heavily. I spent the afternoon holding my breath. When next to a place close to my house where they were building a new complex, the building guys would shout (sarcastic) “that’s very nice for us!” (“lekker aardig voor ons!”). When coming home I was still holding my breath, and doing that for more than an hour, that’s how I got it away.

At one point, under attack from such a dark spirit, the birds in my neighbors backyard made a noise. I, in my mind, took the bird noise, and ‘applied’ the bird noise, placed it on the bird noise, and in one instance, the dark spirit was gone. When I took another snort of speed and went outside, however, (it was very early in the morning, it was still dark) (this happened before the story about taking away the dark spirit from my home by holding my breath) walking by where they were building the building, they all started shouting at me angrily: “hey!” “hey!”. Cars driving by would stop in the middle of the road and as they did a disgusting smell would protrude from there and come around me (so as to possess me, let me breathe in the dark spirit and let the come around me, block my higher chakras).

What happened was that when I was chased by dark spirits, I was on my bike, a kid from about I would say fourteen was standing (especially among the dark spirits themselves) with his bike on the intersection and when I was about to cycle by he said “come, Ivo” (“kom, Ivo”), while I didn’t know him, as if offering an escape. I didn’t trust him (he was dressed in black as well, and both in the case of the color of someone’s car, or clothes, it shows what side of the spectrum they resonate with), feeling it was a trap, and went the other way. When in Germany I had heads a group of youngsters say my name (which is not a German name), and, when under attack from dark spirits, on the other side of town, I heard a woman I didn’t know say “oh, dat is Ivo” (“oh, that’s Ivo”).

Something dark spirits would do as well, is make other people smell very disgusting smells as I walked close by. When walking in the store at some point, people coming into the store, would wave me to go out (which I resolutely did only at my own pace) and would come outside of their stores, stand in front of the door, looking at me like ‘you should leave’. Fortunately, when looking up at the sky I saw shooting star after shooting star after shooting star, like a comet shower, coming to lift up my mood.

When dark spirits attack you, they attack your crown chakra, third eye and head in general. This is what makes your form (including aura) closing and makes it come to equilibrium. What will happen is, you feel kind of as if they were dust particles (which is a dark spirit trying to substantialize or have physical impact) and you see them as kind of both lighter and darker grayish tiny spots. What they will do on a more casual basis, like I explained, is, when you reach a high chakra, as it were, dig a tunnel in the top of your head to dismantle your crown chakra.

When, when I was still ‘young and naive’, a joking way of saying, because it was not too long ago, had a shred of not being certain that dark spirits were unilaterally evil, I would one last time try to make my case with the dark spirits and try to explain what I did in an as reasonable and kind way as possible. After a while a humanoid, very angry feeling aura, made of these dust particles, stood to the right of me (and had no intention of leaving).

You will have these around your head, moving about as if they’re a ravishing fire. It doesn’t really hurt, except for knowing they want you dead and so just how bad it has to be for you. You will hear ticks and crackling noises from inside of your head, not as much, just one or two at a time, but of the kind of crackling noise the crackling noise candies make.

A way I got around this was not going outside amongst the humans on speed as much anymore, and rather staying connected with the consciousness of the birds, who protect me from the dark spirits (like I said, I have a tree with birds in my neighbors backyard, and have a orangery, which sticks out of the house, so I don’t have to sit in the aura of others as much).

After having reached very high states of balance on speed, eventually my ‘protective shield’ as made by the birds, got dismantled, and, coming from the next-door neighbor with the yellow color, suddenly dark spirits, which shape I could now see as manifested in therms of the world of a very high chakra, hallucinations of digger began to enter my room. Also, spots would begin to open where the beautiful balance, would be turned into a horrendous blocked pattern. Showing just how strongly opposed, and viciously vandalize, destroy and abuse, balance.

I could see little lights, that I had been enjoying the great equilibrium in my room, passing and leaving through under the curtain, and creating the hallucination of the curtain moving down so as to cover the entire window (which is what I actually saw) so as to say ‘were fleeing, this is a secret escape, don’t let the evil spirits in the room know). As time went on, lights tried to escape by moving up the curtains to the window above that, the evil spirits began to try to stop and apprehend these lights. When they did, I heard some kids, whom often had shouted all kinds nastiness my way, as described, “diner is served!” (“aan tafel!”). When I loaded up Youtube and went to a channel I like about a cat ‘Butters the Bean’ (YouTube channel link: https://youtube.com/c/ButtersTheBean), a booklet called ‘Animals kidnapped by a UFO would be mentioned in the video, showing just how connected our spirits are.

When the birds were aligning my vision, on speed, by letting my left eye look at and move about a blue light (this all went by itself, just be in contact with the birds and all else will move on its own. Listening to their noises reinforces them). As construction workers entered the backyard of the next-door neighbor with the yellow color, as spirits correspond these construction workers were also of the yellow color (they had an ugly van, whereas the neighbors from the yard with the tree with the birds had a dove sitting there when one construction worker walked out of the house, showing he corresponded to their energy, as well as he was blowing his nose, subconsciously trying to clean his breath from lower entities, and must have been from the blue color, had a very nice new van), the blue light turned into a shovel dismantling the blue dot (which to me didn’t seem very healthy to my eye).

When I proceeded to keep calling them alien, eventually in the top of my left eye, a black droplet shape was being formed. Later, late at night when the birds were healing me, I saw them taking these spirits out of my eye, hearing them say “it won’t happen again. It won’t happen again” (“het zal niet meer gebeuren. Het zal niet meer gebeuren”). Had the birds not been there, this would have most likely been a lifelong disability. The point I’m making is: do you know any live person that would give someone a lifelong disability because they said something they didn’t like, or even offend them (except as per dark spirit, being of service in the attacks of dark spirits, i.e. in the regular physical life we all know).

On speed, when still having a shred of not being absolutely certain dark spirits are unilaterally evil, I tried arguing with them (ironically while in the local buddhist shop). When I was done arguing, I heard one of them mockingly say “now try to get it closed again!” (“krijg hem nou maar weer dicht!”). I didn’t think about it, just stood still and it seared back up in about three seconds.

When, on speed, being in my room for a long time, working on this document, had gotten a really strong breath, breathing away a lot of dark spirits, I went tog the hallway outside of my room in the house, and still foolishly thought (never harmonize with psychopathic forces, it’s infinitely more dangerous than going against them because they’re not in a position where their consciousness allows them to hurt you any less when you do) that maybe I should just breathe normally for one bit. As I did that, in the back of the hallway, there was nothing physical there, heard all kinds of noises as if a person (consisting of all the breaths, so spirits, I had been breathing away, amounting to this presence that has accumulated into a humanoid feeling form) was coming into existence and started to move about.

When I had been encountering dark spirits, I still had one following me. When I visited my parents, my brother was there too, I still saw a black blob sitting by my leg. I saw my brother looking at it, and looking at me wondering like ‘is he all right?’.

When at my upstairs neighbor, a saw a black dot next to his head. As he moved his head into it, he quickly moved his head to the side and turned his head disturbedly, looking at it.

When I was on the other side of town, they have little island with a tower for children there, and I was hanging out on speed. I started channeling light, seeing all this bright, light blue light in my vision, and when I did that I heard youngsters in the distance yelling “fucking junk!” (“kankerjunk!”). When it was over and I started creating the light again, I heard them yell: “again?? Fucking junk!” (“Alweer?? Kankerjunk!”). When, still there later that night, at the exact moment I took a big snort of speed, it rain started pouring out of nowhere (so: as a consequence of there being de-possessed, my aura, given the interrelation of spirits and the position my aura has in that, getting a dramatic boost of power).

When you get back into the ordinary daily world, it may be difficult to reconcile all this. It is dark spirits do not want to even hear about this, let alone for you to learn about this, at all. Therefore they will tune your aura, their presence in your aura, in such a way that you can’t help but feel like, in this case, such a way that it must all be nonsense. But if you just read this enough, breathing with what it describes enough, the reality it describes will come alive to you. Or I would advice one to simply use speed, regarding dark spirits. All people who have experience with using speed know this. I have found out that basically everyone, including my parents, know about this.

A friend of mine had a phase where he would not eat and browse the website 4chan all day. At one point, he got very ill, got slime in his lungs, his weight dropped from about 65 kilograms to 40, and ended up in the hospital on the intensive care, almost dying.

When cycling around, under attack from dark spirits, I heard a person say, out of nowhere, not on the phone, there was not anyone else he could have been talking to, say “fourty kilo” (“veertig kilo”), as a reference to that.

I had decided that I would only eat fruit (right now I’m at that point again, but I also eat fish) (when at Wouter, the same night he asked about what the difference between two packs of shag, he told me “just eat sugar [like a normal person]” (“gewoon suiker eten”)).

When I got to the supermarket, the dark spirits must have thought that they put enough pressure on me for it to be up to debate if I was going to eat unhealthily again. They were trying to lure me with compliments, talking through other people, seemingly talking out loud to themselves: “he always knows a solution to everything” (“hij weet altijd overal een oplossing voor”).

Eventually I downplayed it to buying apple sauce with zero added sugar. When at the last moment, I decided to, after all, buy a bag of regular apples, the whole atmosphere turned very hostile and people started to say “no, I’m only allowed to buy what’s on my shopping list. What am I, a robot? Beep, boop, beep, boop.” (“nee, ik mag alleen kopen wat op het boodschappenlijstje, je bent toch geen robot. Biep, boep, biep, boep.”) (only buying what’s on the shopping list, only healthy things and the occasional salted nuts being on there, neither like sweets except for chocolate with 80% cacao, being something my parents always did in the first place). When I got to the cash register I said back to the woman who had said that “what am I, a robot?” (“ik ben toch geen robot”) and she repeated back to me “yeah, what am I a robot? Beep boop beep boop” (“ja, ik ben toch geen robot, biep boep biep boep”). When I got outside, I got thoughts (dark spirits touching on me) with anxiety, a couple of youngsters had collected themselves on the other side of the square, and every time it reached its peak, they would scream and start to kick shop fronts and saying stuff like “we’ll get him!” (“we pakken hem!”).

When walking outside, at the time not fully understanding what was going on with these dark spirit attacks, an army F16 flew over the town, in my mind I posed them what was going on and I heard a voice say “don’t be too bothered by it.” (“trek het je niet aan.”).

On the route from my parent’s to my home, with sidewalk chalk, very large a penis with two (hairy) balls was drawn saying ‘my balls’ (‘m’n ballen’). An attempt from dark spirits to both create the impulse of me feeling it as well as increasing how pressing I would find this matter (they must have had it out for and all know me, because the animals seem to really really like me. Plus, the purple light and the fact that I am writing this about the workings of spirits in general and dark spirits, would argue that indeed my potency does stand out to where them knowing me like that would be realistic).

In the park where I first started to try to add as much light to my consciousness as possible, I would start to breath more heavily. On speed, I could see black blobs hovering above the park shooting under my nose as they noticed me, at which point I began to, so causing me to, breathe more heavily.

At one point, after the so manyeth time alchemizing myself from dark spirits, they must have decided they would try to get rid of me, because wherever I went, I started to smell these very pungent smells. I decided to go outside of town to the meadows, to flee from these smells, knowing what they were. It was in the middle of the night. It was a cycling path next to a river. A boat came and aimed it’s giant spotlight at me, and the disgusting smell would return. When hanging out with the friend who had seen the face flying towards me, I started to space out looking at him, went kind of cross-eyed and had again this vision in which, for lack of better words, the air (astral ghost) seemed to have disappeared from in between us. Then he got mad and said “if you look at me cross-eyed like that, I’ll punch you. That’s my breath!” (“als je nog één keer zo scheel naar me kijkt sla ik je op je bek! Dat is mijn adem!”). So this looking cross-eyed was taking away his breath.

Reminded of this, I started looking cross-eyed so that the smell would be taken away, and I kept ringing the bell on my bike (so much I had a blister on my finger the next day) and kept dragging my feet so the dark spirit would not be able to anticipate on this and reach me. With all the thoughts that kept entering my mind, I just kept ridiculing them, calling them names and bad words and making bad jokes. When, still ringing my bell and dragging my feet, it was about 7 in the morning X by then, a woman in the street where I live, from her window (so where they know me) asked if I would please stop (of course, this woman that asked this being put on the spot, as it was the same dark spirits in the background of hers were most likely a part, that caused me to do so), I replied with “no, thank you” (“nee, dank je”).

An astral smell that I knew, was a smell from the Chinese restaurant. This smell isn’t always trustworthy though. When, when eating at home (on speed) and my mom passed me the soy sauce, which I put over my rice, I could smell this astral smell, which I recognized from smelling it before. I still ate some rice. When walking around later that night, realizing I had eaten a dark spirit, I decided to throw up by the side of the road (which went surprisingly easy).

When I was done, sure enough, a dark gray circle was hovering next to me. I felt something going to sit on my tear duct. I dragged my finger over it, it was off, and I heard a voice say “almost” (“bijna”). Then, it sat on my tear duct again, and I, foolishly (I don’t even know why, probably cunning dark spirit manipulation), to give it the benefit of the doubt, decided to let it sit there. The next thing I knew, my eye was hurting quite a bit.

An acquaintance of me and my parents also uses or used speed (which my parents didn’t know). When he had been helping my parents with delivering a new bed to my house, I decided to go back with him to his place, where I discovered he used speed and was basically a low-key drugs dealer. Before we went to his place, we went to get speed. When going to my dealer, he, again, wisely, was not home. So we had to go to the next town to get some. Going back to his place, I wasn’t even very conscious of what I was doing but my mind was just doing its thing, and suddenly I heard him say “that isn’t going to fly today” (“die gaat vandaag niet door”). I was unaware of what dark spirits were at the time, except for that they were deceased. I could see a dark humanoid aura standing in the room. He told me “[to be] a little multi-cultural” (“een beetje multi-cultureel [zijn]”), and when my mind tried to do its thing was made to feel like I was usurping, having a big overweight on what would represent dark spirits; him saying “it already was set that way” (“hij stond al zo”). He told me that “that is a scammer” (“dat is een oplichter”) (oplichter, which I realize as I type this meaning up-lighter, or lighter-upper, so in that sense he was not wrong(, haha)). He then turned on the tv, on which there was a show on called ‘Scammers Debunked’ (‘Oplichters Ontmaskerd’). An impression: the narrating voice saying of the show narrating the introduction of the show with saying something like “scammers, con-artists and fraudsters… [and then something about them doing horrible things] (“oplichters, zwendelaars en fraudeurs… [and then something about them doing horrible things]”).

Later that night, he spoke of a phone that kept showing errors, as soon as it boots up, error message after error message after error message, with no room in between them to do anything about them, and if I could fix it. (This is what recently gave me the idea that dark spirits are automatic error generators, and while on a conscious, external mind level, might have asked me to try and fix the phone to get me annoyed (struggle with the dark spirit that had entered the phone, causing the errors), at some (deeper) level, his spirit must have been informing me about what dark spirits truly are). I said yes, and he gave me the phone. Months later, I came to the idea of doing it, knowing I had to do something like resetting it to factory settings by pressing a key combination while booting it up. I did not exactly know how to do it, but I booted it up, and the second time, I don’t know exactly how I did it, pressed a combination of buttons which made the phone boot up in safe-mode (which idea I had not come to yet), and I could reset the phone to factory settings. So this was a dark spirit that had entered the phone, and made it display nothing but error after error after error.

Later, I heard from my mom that he always had inflammations in his nose which always bothered him, which is because he is always snorting up dark spirits, think of it like sniffing up a black dot which takes place into your nose, slowly starting to destroy your nose causing the chronic inflammations in the long therm, into his nose when he is using speed (while I use speed to get rid of them, and reach higher states of consciousness).

When visiting my upstairs neighbor, the tv reception didn’t work, and he had just tried to configure, which didn’t work, so the tv was set to noise. Suddenly, in like two to three seconds, I saw a black dot from this tv-noise, move from the right edge to the center of the tv, and when it reached that center, you could hear all kinds of loud ticking noises coming from the hallway, and a few in his room itself. I knew it came from the house with the neighbors with the color yellow.

When at my upstairs neighbor, I had taken a drag from a joint and of course was connected with human consciousness in the first place, so my aura, began to interact with that of the neighbors of the color yellow. My upstairs neighbor turned his head surprised and kind amused, noticing this. When I took the drag from his joint, the vision became really sharp and I got this sensation of my third eye scraping against what it was looking at, things being too flat, so I decided to manually defocus my eyes (the vagueness from the defocus providing giving the feeling of, which, in the world of the feeling what you experience, see or your body has, is the same as, creating volume). When I did that, the neighbor’s friend who lives above me yelled pityingly “noooo!” (“neeee!”), because I had ruined the zen of the moment. He often yells that, when I have a thought with a peak in anxiety for example.

When, in my own room, on speed, in this human third eye, everything being too flat, and trying to prevent damage to my chakra, I decided to manually defocus (the vagueness from this providing volume). I had done that more, that day. To my surprise, I found that I was not able to do so, and heard a next-door neighbor living in the house with the neighbors of the color yellow mockingly saying: “no no no!” (“nee nee nee!”).

When in this human third eye, I went outside at around 04:30 in the morning. I felt an extreme, absolute sense of quiet. I had been holding my breath to protect me from dark spirit attacks. At first anxious thoughts had wanted to take over, but I kept saying (I had recently been learning about what it was): “fuck the Illuminati” (“fuck de Illuminati”), and things turned calm. When I walked to the nearest tree, in which sat a little bird, and I asked if I should breathe normally, he started whistling. So I did. And they were very nice, very smooth breaths. I saw how, when I would disrupt the smoothness of the breath by for instance suddenly breathing the other way, suddenly obstructing the breath or otherwise caused disturbances in ‘the field’ (like, not the electromagnetic field, a field that is everywhere and permeates everything, but, ‘the air’ or just field in between us all (when I typed that my 4G disappeared in a quick flash – of like half a second. (So it’s significant.)).

When I went on to a tree nearby, also with a little bird in it, next to a house, I heard someone in the house making a really loud bang a couple of times every so many minutes. As, first the first car drove by, you could smell the dirty smell, and feel the disturbances increasing for a short bit, and, after the next car a couple minutes later, and then the next a couple minutes later, an black humanoid shadow forming to the right I felt finding ways to try to upset me, to where I would not be able to shake that feeling.

Although the little bird was there, whistling, I couldn’t focus on it. I kept getting distracted by thoughts. I began to see circles with a triangle in it, being the logo for the illuminati, the definition of which is; everything that is created under the human third eye, that is, as influenced by dark spirits (our human civilization: the dark spirit organization. The color of the human third eye is light blue, that of the humans is purple. I often speak of blue as opposed to yellow, but when the animals agree with me, I see a purple translucent color.

Something that is characteristic of what the illuminati does is they have taken the star, which, like the jewish is meant to represent a crystalline shape, like a show flake, which has to be symmetric. If it is not symmetric, it is no longer conducting for fractal implosion, meaning: being able to collapse back into itself and to reach the source from which it came.

The western star we all know, is a five pointed star. So they have taken, what is meant to be a symmetric crystalline structure, and by changing something, have turned it into a cartoonish nonsense shape that has lost its deeper meaning by what its shape or form would imply. This is analogous for dark spirits not wanting you to reach balance or equilibrium, shed their distortion or disruptions and attain a light, balanced or weigh-less and transparent signal, so you can come to rest or get back to yourself, so that you have to stay trapped and involved in interacting with their stuff, which is how they feed on you (all of us) and so drain your energy.

I had a dream in which I was (I was interacting with the spirits from the next-door neighbor with the color yellow) inside a building, with a spiral staircase, two floors, and upstairs a little office where you would be able to drink coffee and a table to sit by. I was in the ‘alien’ (dark spirit, but in the dream I called it alien) head-quarter, and remember thinking that ‘they have to not find out I’m not an alien’. In the end, they head, and they were holding and swinging me above a table, my head into like bottles or something, something resembling of an hazing with extremely mean and vicious people. I woke up, and when I went back to sleep I remember looking at a crow up in a tree, two dark-spirit women with me who were looking how I connected to animals. I looked at the crow and, trying to get my signal right, tried to connect with him like I normally would and said “de-possess”. The picture was filled with all kinds of black electricity shockwave shapes, so no matter how many times I tried, the picture came out wrong/broken. I heard a voice say “what is he saying?” -“all I’m hearing him say is ‘de-possess. Not even ‘oh, those sweet animals’ or anything” (“wat zegt ‘ie?” -“hij zegt alleen maar ‘de-possess’. Niet eens ‘die lieve dieren’ ofzo”) – I was trying to connect to the animals by actually de-possessing, not get lost in roles (as I typed that a bird made a whistle, at 05:37) that involve the, on which all astral is based, longings, desires, drifts, fears and romances, romances in this case.

In a different dream, I was hanging out, with a group of friends outside on a sunny day. There was this younger hispanic boy. When standing in front of him I tried to gain the right composure (by which I mean: de-possess [be de-possessed myself], but I would not be able to for a couple of time. Then, he asked me “why?” (“waarom?”). I thought “oh, I know [the answer to] this one” (“oh, deze weet ik”), and answered: “for fun” (“voor de lol”). Of course referring to all this dark spirit stuff I was doing, which I do for fun. And when walking around with my mom and telling her about this dream, as I said “for fun” (“voor de lol”) a bird on the building across from us made a noise.

When having gone to sleep early, some girls living next-door in the house of the neighbors of the color yellow making a lot of noise, so spreading their energy, including to my room, after having had a restless and waking when they had gone to sleep, I was still having very busy thought. When I opened the door of my orangery and stepped outside, I saw a black electric shockwave like shape leave my head and fly towards away from me, into the sky. Then, everything was calm.

When, a different night, these same girls were also being loud, watching a live-cam of New York by coincidence really quick, wanting to visualize actually being there, then their noise disturbing it, and then me trying again, I got an extremely busy and straining thought process. My aunt, the one from the phone call, had once told me that she had unstoppable thoughts, and that what you had to do was breathe well (which was of course faulty advice that one way or the other dark spirits had been wanting to spread). I, knowing about dark spirits, knew that you had to do the opposite: try to not breathe at all (or as little as possible). Me being very trained at this, I held my breath, and in not too long the super high anxiety straining though process had completely calmed down.

Something else this neighbor had done, was, on speed, after having had a conversation in the yard, right before a dark spirit would start attacking me (for which the birds had given me, unknown to me at the time, insights, because of which I could deal with the attack relatively quick and easy), tell me: “now he’s going to keep standing somewhere where you won’t be able to reach him” (“nu gaat ‘ie de hele tijd ergens staan waar jij net niet bij kan”).

My upstairs neighbor threw a party where there was speed. At the beginning of the party a guy there told about a story where on drugs he was sleeping in fetal position, by which, as I remarked this to the birds, that these guys did display some intimacy too, a dove flew by. It was this party where my neighbor who told me I was talking to a woman, had talked to me to where my upstairs neighbor remarked the room started to smell like hotchpot. After having taken some, after a short while, I was already starting to get mind games in my head. The question became if I do something as by responding a certain way. I thought to myself “I could do that… But I won’t” (“dat zou ik natuurlijk kunnen doen… Maar dat doe ik niet”), at which point I the gesture with my finger (not very big, just very subtle, not anything anyone could see) of cancelling (in the supercomputer that is nature, as previously described) something (you can also do this to things outside of you, you didn’t do but something or someone else did), as I was looking out the window. At this exact moment, a dove flew right to where I was looking and back, to indicate to me this was the right thing to do. A couple of those instances where I could have responded further, I heard a voice in my head say “is he going to take it?” (“pakt ‘ie hem?”). (In a different instance, I had asked the birds if dark spirits are truly evil, while looking out the window, and as by saying they were, a bird flew to the exact point I was looking, and back). I could, when looking at a spot in his room and kind of beginning to get s funny vision, feel something in my toes, at the exact place, where the shocks had been happening. At one point, he had written something on this piece of paper that he showed to the guests.

Somehow, I suspected he had written something about that they would be going to try to catch me, and when told him ‘let me read it’, he took away the piece of paper and said “there is a guy, who thinks the whole world is his” (“er is een jongen, en die denkt dat de hele wereld van hem is.”). I stayed for a short while longer, so it would not stand out too much I left immediately. He also still said that: “tonight, some guys will come who will keep an eye on things” (“vanavond komen er wel wat jongens die de boel in de gaten houden”). At this point I went back downstairs and went to sleep (which was tough on speed). I scratched up his car as retribution.

I also have a ‘command’ for reversing time, in case something goes wrong, and although does not always work, works better than expected. Once, in a high chakra on speed, seeing hallucinatory shapes, something that wasn’t good for us had happened, and I could see a translucent circle with the pointers of a clock spinning counter-clockwise, turning back what had just happened. I asked, because I was fascinated by it, “can you do it again?”, and it did it again, turning back time in what was happening in the hallucinations just the same.

Before having ever used speed or knowing about dark spirits, sitting in the front yard by my parent’s house, it was saturday night so people were going out, I was listening to music and, I did smoke weed at the time and like I did when smoking weed, started to kind of space out where I saw light in front of my eyes. Suddenly I heard someone, someone about my age, a youngster, bang on the fence behind me yelling at me “I don’t like that!” (“ik vind dat niet leuk!”).

When coming from my parents (it was one of her spirits trying to assist me), I was bothered by an other upstairs neighbor, that lives right above me, always banging his feet on my ceiling, I came home and heard a woman in my head say “I’m going to play crossing-guard” (“ik ga even klaarover spelen”) shortly followed by “now they’re going to ask you if you can be quiet” (“nu gaan ze vragen of je even je mond kunt houden”) and sure enough immediately after that followed a loud bang from my upstairs neighbor kicking his floor, my ceiling.

But I was not interested in compromising, because I knew who/what I was dealing with. When focussedly listening to the birds, I felt my body get filled with this beautiful white energy which brought me to rest (as I described it at the time, ’caused me to not have to react’, a term taught to me by the person who taught me spirituality). I heard him and his friend walking downstairs, his friend mockingly saying “ooooohhhh!..” and (I have the door to the backyard next to my room) clapping as loud as possible to destroy the energy as much as possible.

I intuitively know that the spirit the spirit with the Mario-voice saying bye-bye, that I kept hearing on occasions, and the white dot which turned out to have the drawing of the knife in it, came from him, or at least his room (he seems like an intrinsically light guy, and has a beautiful smile. But his friend, who is over a lot, is darker).

On speed, justifying eating the speed still in your nose, I did that, and heard my upstairs neighbor’s (the one living right above me) friend say “kijk, en nou snoept ‘ie wat”, him knowing I did that.

He would also go to the balcony above my orangery, start sawing and demonstratively say: “zo, nu heb ik een nieuw bankje om op te zitten” (as if having opened me up and a dark spirit being able to ‘take a seat’ in me).

When on speed, in my room, had gotten, as by attack from dark spirits, gotten lots of thoughts with anxiety in my head. They almost certainly came from my neighbors room. I decided to make it stop and deal with it by not reacting. The thoughts, however, continued. When I pounded the three black blobs I saw sitting on the floor with my foot, (in my neighbors room I had seem three black silhouettes, as I described in the section about the workings of spirit when talking about the breathing imaginary breath) immediately, in a matter of three seconds total, my body returned to feeling completely at ease and harmonious, like, or even a somewhat more than, normal.

This does not always work this well, this is an example of it working extremely well, so don’t be counting on being able to do it like this.

After an attack from dark spirits, after I went back home after being outside when I saw the German number plate (a story I told in the section about the workings of spirits), when dark spirits were trying to attach to my aura, when I came back home, I asked if I should deal with this by not reacting. The wind started blowing. The wind started blowing more than when I, the moment before, had asked if I should deal with in a different way (something like: reacting to it). This is how I make all my decisions in a crisis situation. The more de-possessed something is, also when sober, the more the wind will start blowing. So I ask or suggest if I should do this or this thing, and then see what makes the wind blow the most. In a crisis situation, you might not always be able to talk to animals.

You might not want to talk to them for their safety (not giving their address to dark spirits. One time, when under attack from dark spirits, the birds in my (other, not yellow) next-door neighbors backyard tree were all making noises, still trying to help me. At some point, when talking, said, in a sentence, the word “birds” (“vogels”) in my mind, and as soon as I said that, the whole tree went quiet. What might happen on speed as well is that you start hearing birds which are not there, which give you the opposite advice of what you should do.

These are dark spirits imitating birds. I started hearing birds that weren’t there that were putting me in a bad state of consciousness, or when you allow your consciousness to be lead by following (by listening to) those noises let the things go wrong or that say the opposite of what you should do (where it makes the crow barking noise, when a real bird starts whistling beautifully like he loves it). At one point I asked “that was a fake crow, wasn’t it?” (“dat was een nep kraai, of niet?”) and when I said that, a real bird, from the tree in my neighbors backyard, flew over my head. So these are dark spirits imitating birds. This was the reason I went out in the first place. I heard a bird noise from which the smell of cigars and mayonnaise came, so I, foolishly, decided I needed to go out for a little bit, rather than stay and go crazy indoors. This is when I became a target for dark spirits, and they started to attach to me. I jokingly called said ‘I have a Playstation 92 on my head’ (like a virtual reality helmet). As I write this realizing that, 92 numerologically equating to the same number as 911, 1+1 being two (which we all know from 9-11), which means it means disaster or something going (terribly) wrong. But when I came back, I decided I would not react. I did this, and reacted less and less. But after a while, you have to react to not react, and in this instance, without thinking about it, did not do that and let things happen through me. After a while, it became kind of like a video game I was standing outside of. A thought would enter my mind, or do something that would normally upset me, without feeling it or being bothered by it, not being knocked of the detachment and calmness I was feeling, without thinking about it, let something happen through me, like a movement of my arm or something, that would have normally been my reaction, and I heard someone outside yell “hey!” or honk their horn. Like this, everything (especially the whole world dark spirits were trying to create around me) became like a fake video game, I saw how it was a put up job. Then, the birds whistled. Still affected, and, for (spiritual, i.e. not have these forces attach themselves to me, perhaps permanently or for long(er) therm) having to not react, this too felt like they were part of the fake video game, that was all a put up job. It even felt like everything that was not me, that was part of the game we call life, which I had stepped out of because I was not reacting to this extend, and so had gotten detached from (and so incognito to, allowing me to be lost to the dark spirits, being unfindable to them) was on the same side. Although it was definitely the birds supporting me, because of which I was able to reach and stay in this state of mind, and perhaps without that bird-whistle having been broken out of that state of mind.

When walking by my neighbors room, whom or whose spirit my friend had called a pedophile (as can be found in the section about the workings of spirits) – I, on speed had often seen big black blobs sitting by his room – heard his voice say “oh, now you have one too! Oh, but that’s not so bad at all, is it?” (“oh, jij hebt er nu ook ééntje! Maar dat is toch helemaal niet erg.”)

As I noticed things happening through me, when I had been doing it for quite a long time, I started thinking “oh and now I would do this” (“oh, en nu zou ik dat doen”). I realized that now I was with myself, standing outside this fake ‘video game’. But normally, you don’t have a choice but to be in the video game and experience it as real and not be able to not react. So I thought to myself, seeing how the things you do in the game create the game you play: “life is a game. Make sure you end up in a nice video game” (“het leven is een spelletje, zorg dat je in een leuk spelletje terecht komt (for when you have no choice but to see the game as real again)”). When I, later, told this to my mom, a bird would whistle as I said that (so they must agree with it – if they not already had given me that idea in the first place). (Realizing that all this dark spirit stuff is not the funnest video game (or maybe it is. (When writing all this about dark spirits, I, in myself, kind of said to the viewer: and now realize I do this [use speed and everything along with it] for fun (still better than being sober))).

Doing what’s right and what’s good – relentlessly, uncompromisingly, disregarding anything that comes in between it – although at one point I realize, I have to have gotten myself in a position where I can, without danger, become vulnerable, is the funnest game for me and ultimately leads to the best game, especially for when, at one point, you have to get vulnerable (don’t lose yourself along the way).) When, at one point, I had to begin reacting again, I slowly started to give impulses again (let entities, in the human case, dark spirits, come in me again), and visualized it as taking place in a wheel (like a water wheel), in which you take place between the wooden plates in between the sides of the wheel, and get turnt along with the wheel.

Another time, I had seen a black dot flying to the tree, and as it reached the tree, all the birds flew out (I can’t get down with anything or -one that would scare or hurt sweet little birds this way). I, after having been in much communication with the birds, but having accumulated some dark spirits along the way, saw big black blobs or stains sitting next to the tree of the birds.

When I was walking home, the night a car had at the last moment, passed a nasty dark spirit to me, I saw a little bird sitting in a bush, whistling. I saw a dark smudge sweep toward it in front of it across the pavement, and it flew away).

I always knew this 4G had something to do with things. When I would be connected to the wifi in the house, a different atmosphere would emerge. When I was writing this document, the internet having been set to wi-fi, and me asking if I should set it to 4G, the birds all started to make a noise together as I did so, is all being connected. On this 4G connection live different spirits than on wifi-connection.

What happens is that, as an example, when I had first breathed with the squids, and then the porn thing, the squids would end up being bothered by it. When you all breathe together, the entity, or transparent shape, that can make light or black shapes as by interacting, will also emerge around someone breathing with that breath. When this person would take this entity away, the other person would feel as if their aura was being attacked. These shapes, however, are entities, spirits, with astral desires, and as such, come with harmful side-effects such as dependencies or addictions, or not being able to reach higher states of consciousness. In the case of human spirits the case most likely being them trying to prevent it or sabotage it if it were about to happen. If you’re about to reach a higher state of mind, such as opening the third eye, that brings such fresh air around you so as to take that entity away, the neighbor whose entity that is, will make a noise, to try to prevent that from happening. This is what people may experience who have what is called symptoms of psychosis, where they feel like a noise that would seem random to another, was really meant for them.

When, on speed, I went to get a kebab, looking for a place to eat it, I was walking around. I looked at a woman and felt auite distant, and I thought, ‘why?’. When I turned my feeling into just a nice feeling of feeling a harmonious relation to one another, think: a bit of a (ordinary) loving feeling (like you would have when running into your neighbor if you were a normal person living in a nice neighborhood), I heard a voice in my head saying: “corona!”(: meaning crown, referring to the crown chakra)

When, after the first time I had retaliated against dark spirits (still not knowing or understanding much about it or what was going on), I slashed someone’s bicycle tire. It was right by my house, I walked back home and heard a police sirens coming from far away, but I thought ‘I’m not going to run for police’. I was put in cuffs and had to spend a night in jail (after which they had transferred me to the psychic ward, initially for three days, then put me on meds and for two months – which meds the friend who had seen the face flying towards me told me “you’re going to flush your meds right now!” (“je spoelt nu je medicijnen door de wc!”) (of course they’re bad for you but not that they did anything that made a difference I could notice myself, except make me tired and unable to cycle because of being too unmotivated to move, which motivation I had regained by the happiness and enjoyment you can feel and so unbotheredness by physical strain, you can feel on speed, and trying to ‘visualize’, or feel, that feeling when sober)).

When the officers who were coming to pick me up from the holding cell, they said mockingly “I think there’s still something open up there” (“volgens mij staat er daar boven nog iets open”). I told them that “yeah, I would like to have an emergency exit in case something goes wrong down here” (“ja, ik wil wel een nooduitgang hebben voor als er hier iets niet goed gaat”), and they were quiet. When having arrived at the jail – this was when dark spirits would still give other people very bad smells when they came near me – when they talked about taking me out of the little waiting compartment you sit in when you first arrive – I was the third person – they said “and then stank stain number three” (“…en dan stinkvlek nummer drie”). I have always been treated very respectfully by the police (as I said that in my head, I heard a bird make a noise. They like me mentioning this.) Even as they were putting cuffs on me, we were having a nice conversation. I got a grilled cheese sandwich in the holding cell, and the officer there was super nice to me.

Even in the jail, when I had to fill out a form where it asked for my food preferences, and I did not understand what it meant (you’re meant to say like, ‘vegetarian’ or something), the officer standing near me jokingly said “…steak.” (“…biefstuk.”). (In the cell, I slept, and they had a pile of comics in there so I could just read all day, and just when I was about done with the last comic, the time had passed. And, during the half an hour I got to get some fresh air, I met some nice dudes (of moroccan descent). One a hacker, who was in there because he had hacked a government website, and I don’t know what the other one was in there for but I saw him tearing up the cigarette he had gotten and put a little weed in there.). So this is not about me being angry towards the police, but simply testimony of another manifestation of dark spirits in a new context and how it can manifest there. I am very thankful that, even with all this dark spirit stuff going on, the worst thing that happens is them putting on their sirens only when they drive by the intersection near my house and then turn it off again when they’ve passed it (I noticed that they do this when a dark spirit lets them know they’re being brought in distress, which they let people think when I’m writing a document such as this to disturb me), and, even when I smelled an astral smell coming from them I had just blown my nose onto, they always treated me with respect and let me off the hook. And so do not have dark spirits abuse their power through them, in my case at least.

Someone who lives next-door, in the house where they are with the color yellow, had once said to me (sarcastically), when I was inside and he was inside “are you – fucking – Ash Ketchum?” (“ben je fucking Ash Ketchum?”) (because I talk to birds). I knew this was a dark spirit talking because I had heard one speaking through a person outside as well.

Once before, on speed, I had walked into a small forest, making shooting a gun gestures at all dark spirits I saw, listening to rap music. When sitting down on a bench, not too much later, police cars with big searching lights pulled up to the side of the forest, which I was sitting near, and as they were looking for me I saw a transparent thing, as it were ‘noticing me’ and moving. They walked towards me (I told them ‘I’m here’) and they told me they had gotten a melding of someone who was making aggressive hand gestures and shouting, while I had not said a thing (it was referring to the music I had in my earbuds).

When feeling my dick, I heard sirens in the distance come on – I was standing on a cycling path without a road next to it – driving onto the cycling path towards me, stopping next to me and after asking something like ‘what are you doing here asked “do you have problems?” (“heb je problemen?”). I told them no, and they asked “are you on drugs?” (“heb je iets gebruikt?”). I didn’t, so I told them no. After they had driven off, I noticed a little pack of cocaine, which still had some in it, laying next to my left foot (which wasn’t mine).

I worked at Mickey D’s (I don’t want to mention their real name, but: McDonald’s (purely because I don’t want the reader to get an impulse from reading the energy signature that name brings, the product is all right)) for a little bit. It was quite straining for me, so I began to use speed so it would be easier. In there, anxiety would try to take over, and I heard someone say something like ‘this is stuff for the psychic ward’ and someone say something like ‘that is what speed’ll do’, while there was nothing apparent on the outside of me that would indicate this anxiety. This is what first brought to my attention that people were able to pick up on your aura and thoughts after I came out of the psychic ward (something they, the dark spirit brainwashing facility – by means of not just using some speed themselves or even sober actually scientifically investigate phenomena, but instead just saying ‘we can’t understand this’, and finding some physical scapegoat, and use it as a justification to negate all realness of the claims made, because they simply feel like, according to common sense, this is not possible, which that physical phenomenon of a lot of dopamine in the Pituitary gland, does not have to mean. But they assume, and the dark spirits of my neighbors have tried to disturb me a lot while writing this document, so they don’t want you to know or think about this, but hence, they assume that according to what they understand, what they call common sense, it should not be possible, first, and then, they try to find an alternative reason they can point at, which they have found in the physical, wether true or not, I couldn’t know – naturally say is not possible (at least in this way, to this extend).

When, on speed, I had gotten a kebab and was trying to find a nice place to eat it, I went to sit down somewhere. Across the walking section of the shopping street, stood someone. Suddenly, I felt an angry presence, and saw a humanoid figure made of these gray dust particles, standing by me, starting to attack me.

When, on speed, visiting a store with my mom, when I none of the other stories had happened yet, we were at the store. I was having some anxiety thoughts. At one point she said (a dark spirit spoke through her) about me ‘not paying’ (they referred to me trying to get as much light as possible into my consciousness). I told her: “I don’t pay criminal cartels” (“Ik betaal niet aan criminele kartels”), and when I said that, all the anxiety thoughts I did have suddenly turned into calmness.

– The Past

After watching old footage (on speed) from around 1900, breathing spirits from that time, watching the footage, as well as present footage with their eyes.

I was looking a video of a car driving through the center of Paris. I noticed that this looked very busy and nightmarish, and thought, ‘let me switch to a video of walking, because this is not true at all’. I switched to a video of walking through Paris city centre. I saw everything that was old, such as the streets and pavement, with the spirit of, with the eyes of, as the people back then had seen it, of past people. It is literally the shapes in the reality you’re used to, and the ideas you have, that determines how you visually see things.

Their vision, among other things, like how, the feeling with which, you see things like the same old pavement, town or buildings, made shapes kind of have a flower-ish rounding off of the shape, like the architecture and basically everything humans made, was at the time. Our vision has kind of straight shapes, straight lines.

As we are used to scientific, functionalist shapes, nowadays, following the American model. In the video, a young woman walking in goofy colorful clothes with a pogo stick caught my eye, and I thought to myself (these past spirits with which I was looking thus also got the message) ‘this is what the future [our time] is about. Just doing what you want and what you think is fun’ (as in like just following your inner self). When looking at videos of their traffic (with the vision of the past spirit) I remember it standing out that I noticed that it were actual people in the road coming by, whereas today, all you see is the car.

When watching old footage, I did want to keep hearing rap music as kind of protection. I heard them call the rap music in my head ‘a nightmare’ and them sarcastically saying ‘what an improvement’ (“wat een verbetering”). I took a stroll outside to see what my old neighborhood would look like through their eyes. When, as the vision became more and more of the past, it became more yellowish. I learned they’re the spirits that are of the yellowish/brownish color (I estimate that the spirits I had breathed with were from the 1600s to 1700s – if my historic accuracy might be correct.

Those from Paris ranged more from 1850 to 1890). I heard voices say in amazement: “is he coming in?” (“komt ‘ie binnen?’). I also proceeded to watch a video of an NYC subway station with that vision and I heard them say (“oh, now its completely broken” (“oh, nu is die helemaal kapot”). I looked at more videos, repairing the vision, after though. The breath smelled like someone was directly breathing into my mouth, as well as a sort of smell of meat (food).

When looking at old footage from the beginning of the 1900s with this vision of spirits from the past, seeing things as they saw them, in the video there being all kinds of people walking in the street, one person stood out as being a typical present day young chav girl/woman with like wearing a legging and who would wear tons of makeup, which was kind funny to me (thinking “and then there’s one woman like that in there” (“en dan loopt er één zo’n wijf tussen”).

I also looked up a video of a concentration camp, and from the thumbnail emanated very fresh air (probably because their astral ghost was starved), but I decided I did not have the maturity to mess with their breath.

However, as those dark spirits are a lifeless computer, this was clearly an attempt to manipulate me.

– The Future:

After this I said to myself: “there must be something on YouTube about [from] the future?”. The bird whistled, and I thought to myself without even really thinking about it: “in letters that would be ‘ahhohhohhahhe'” (depending on ‘a’ being the sound resonating with the lowest (in this context, really ‘u’), ‘o’ the highest (in this context, really ‘i’ and ‘o’ resonating with the middle) and ‘e’ in between those). I kind of realized I could search for it in YouTube, I typed it in (thinking ‘this must lead to something from the future’, already expecting an actual video from the future but not knowing what to expect), YouTube said: ‘no results found’ ‘did you mean: ohohohoho’ so I clicked on it and the second video was called ‘OHOHOHOHO (final)’ (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/blHBFzEBwB4):

– Positive-, negative and transparent shape

-The difference between basal sound of ‘o’ in ‘ohohoh’ and just saying ‘o’ (from the video about the future in the Animal-, plant-, and light spirit section)

Has contents filled with saying of ‘hhhhhh’ repeatedly like when you’re cold = light, (positive pole, )young signal(, etc.) vs. someone saying ‘hhhhhh’ like when they’re sexually aroused = dark, (negative pole, ) depleted.

-Space (‘inflation’) vs. Activity (‘pressed-ness’ (as in like someone pressing a button, the button not being pressed being inflation. As if someone is touching you: you feel that as opposed to there being air in between you and the finger. For instance, when someone makes a noise and this causes a feeling/inciting of tension in you. Something that is very ethereal and not very definedly there, is an example of less something being pressed.), where impartiality (the airy transparency of space/’inflation’, or ethereal state of consciousness where things are are not very definedly there (“I feel like I was not even really sitting there” this very ethereal awareness and how it allows you to access your real, deeper self) has been exchanged for partiality (think of: what sex is to a child. Or, on a deeper level: and this creation of something that is defined or made apparent that it’s there consisting of content: the ‘all kinds of a role you take, stance, or personality/character you develop in a sub-reality)

– > vs -: ‘>’Tries to capture resonating light (like when shining onto it from the left)/basal sound of ‘o’ in ‘ohohoh’ – ‘resonating’ (as mentioned in the text about reinforcement of alignment) <> ‘-‘ just ‘going and going’ with pure hardness ‘dissipating’ as means of saying ‘moving away from you – and soaking into away from you’.

11111111111————- (: fundamental because these signs have a certain sensation which makes it resonate with, and allow a parallel to be drawn with the other examples: left sides of this and previously mentioned examples correspond and right sides of this and previously mentioned examples correspond).

When acting with dark spirits, the former leads to light accumulation and the latter to a negative shape. With light spirits the former leads to distortion and the latter to a transparent shape.

A positive shape is if you, say, look in a direction and looking has kind of an open shape, in which space, or, what arises when something is not closed, can accumulate. Instead of it being closed. This accumulation causes the form to convex. The closed thing, which is darker, causes it to be concave. Hence: negative.

Another example is, when you look in one direction, you looking very strongly, instead of there being subtlety in the movement, and so, inflation, or lightness, between you what you would touch on the other end of the shape that is that feeling, with the feeling the looking has.

Another example is looking in directions of 45, or 90 degree angles, instead of more subtle angles. When in the human consciousness, when connected with humans and as it influences the psyche, it is vital that you accumulate some positivity, because a too negative shape is very damaging to your chakras.

It causes you to not have, be drained of, energy and so have to look for it elsewhere.

In the animal consciousness, less with the dark spirits, what is in the open part amounts to being distortion, whereas the closed shape thusly creates balance and, when taken to a further extend, a transparent shape.

The sound of the J, that comes after you have pronounce, the ‘d’ in the J sound, being a more positive shape than the ‘h’ as you pronounce it in the world ‘hole’.

The described light or distortion being if you pronounced the letter ‘f’, and the actual capturing of that light being like where the back of your mouth touches in the back of your mouth by your throat, pronouncing the letter ‘g’, as in the word great the pronunciation of the letter ‘f’ being more the resonating with the captured distortion or light. The h being closer to the center of activity as described in the section about ‘Weigh-less, Transparent Signal or Feelingless Feeling’. The ‘n’ would be the transparent shape, resembling the smoothness of water.

A different way you can think about it is when you have the two halves of a circle, and the place the right half to the left, and the left half to the right (a regular circle being a regular shape).

When on speed and looking at myself at a very young age, while also being touched on by dark spirits, I saw a black dot spinning circles in the place of my third eye, which I later realized is, in addition to it happening there, a reflection of what was happening to me at the time I watched, both times being connected in this way. When looking at someone who has since passed away, he looked like a transparent, like you would get from a hallucinatory shape (showing that he had gone to a good place: towards equilibrium).

A transparent shape is a shape so positive, that you ‘can’t see the edges anymore’, aka it becomes transparent. Another example of a visualization that comes to my mind is that it ‘having reached the ‘ceiling’, the shape rising up as it becomes more positive, it touching the ceiling, the edge of the positive shape being beyond the ceiling so you can no longer see it, like it is no longer being rendered like in a computer game, the result being transparency. The transparent shape being having reached the maximum positivity so unilaterally you don’t see it anymore, because it is no longer relative to something. This is how your crown chakra brings you to equilibrium.

When breathing in air from Einstein (I was curious), and then looked at myself, this produced a shape where there was depth. When breathing in air from Steve Jobs, this gave a very balanced energy in which things, for instance the top of your arm you’re looking at as well as the bottom, front of your arm, appear to be at the same depth, as of a hallucinatory shape, giving the impression of things being translucent. More towards equilibrium. The latter occurs in animal spirits, the former occurs in (human) dark spirits and the presence of such astral ghost.

For something good to happen, something bad tends to need to happen afterward. The best things tend to happen right before something bad happens. This is because to create a positive shape, the edge has to be more negative, like a ball under a blanket hovering above the ground. The top of the ball being the positive shape. and the edge of the blanket hanging from the the ball by the floor being the negative shape. When writing this text, I had forgotten something I wanted to write down. I decided to let it go for a second, and trim my toenail by hand. I accidentally pulled it too far, but suddenly, I did remember what I wanted to write down again.

A negative shape is a well breathed out shape, while a positive shape is first, before breathing out, having reached happiness, resulting in an overall positive result, not feeling drained and having to look for (astral) things outside of yourself, like a dark spirit.

A dark-spirit, or a negative shape being concave. A dark spirit who might try to destroy your aura might try to ‘put the right side of your aura on the left, and the left side on the right’ making your aura concave, as if, when you split a circle in two halves, and you place the right half left and the left half right.

The shapes of the illuminati basically want you to sit on the level of, not having reached balance, but there being distortion, a sort of gray area where you’re not able to accumulate enough positiveness (at all to reach true equilibrium (transparent signal) to then have enough negativeness to dig down to the level of true balance through the distortion that would otherwise be covering it, or then accumulate more positive energy with it as per creating waves. The illuminati does not want you to be able to gain enough traction, so you have to keep consuming astrally, within the realm of their distortion. Keep in mind that balance is the maximum amount of positivity having been accumulated.

These purple lights, described in the Purple Light section, are positive shapes being created.

– De-possession

-When dissing someone and you realize that that person is good’

‘When you justly put someone in his place’:

When you manage to expose possession, like when you joke about women taking so long to do their hair;

another example of possession: a married couple that has gotten stuck in a marital routine;

or the watering down of sincere truth/intention: e.g. people rioting they feel they can not truly de-possess (reality does not truly make us happy) vs. becoming more crude/corruption ‘we just like violence’ that comes about in daily life: (we always have got the same centre of vision, it is always the same frame in which our vision exists.

It is the things that act as if they’re something separate/different, including the implication of what you are) admitting to partiality (as in: the opposite of impartiality) = possessing (which is what breathing of astral air is: is allowing certain dirtiness (breath, consisting of ‘hundreds’ of little breaths, is filled with admissions to partiality (that is the definition, the more astral, the more admission to partiality)) (this is what can cause unease after you’ve been very high, because, subconsciously, you don’t want to identify with energy that would result in commonly accepted social behavior, so you don’t know how to act)).

-<>:h vs. (:o

(:o : thought current below bow, open mouth: (considered) ‘harmonious’ (in context of people) breathing.

<>:h : mouth closed, closed breath (by not breathing astral ghost consisting of dark spirits that want to sabotage higher chakras/capabilities) – actual communication with reality (not in separated thought current as provided by dark spirit, but in between light-spirits) using open higher chakras to come to (actual) harmony (and not harmony with something that at its root is based on pure evil).

With dark spirits in your aura, a hard, very dense (filled up with tension) aura, equates to a closed breath, and a soft aura equates to an open breath; because your aura, is the breath you’re breathing. When a breath tries to enter you, you have the choice of sharply cutting it off, (which leads to hard aura), or allowing it to board you and you start breathing with it, it gives you a soft aura (and takes away your ability to be able to generate the tension to sharply cut it off later, turning you into a slave. It is when you have accumulated enough closedness, that you see that this softness is made of distortion, and this closedness, being so unilaterally closed it forms an equilateral plateau, and disappears, being unilateral, so not having anything to distinct itself relative to, it disappears under its own omnipresence – amounting to balance. An unthinkable increase in balance. It is there you see the softness is made of very dirty things, which would be like pornography to a child. It it there, where the weigh-less, transparent signal can be gotten (is within reach – with the right measures, tools, method and strategy, which the birds are experts at).

This is the reason people can try to cut themselves, because they want to regain this sharpness, to clean themselves. Create negativeness with which then being able to create positiveness, as if creating waves.

– The Purple Light

These lights are high chakra, because the color is of higher wavelength, by means of de-possession, arising phenomena.

(All of the photos and videos of the light can be found here: https://ivobarandbirds.netlify.app/338-2/)

First encounter:

(‘🎆’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/MP87aXF_BEQ)

Having just written all this, I quickly went out, arrived back home, walked into my backyard and I see a big purple light emanating from the sky, with a beam of light reaching to the ground. First I elaborately admired it and then I quickly grabbed my phone and took this photo. I started writing this (or rather the original untranslated) paragraph at 09:34 05-02-2021 (Sidney, Australia time) (numerology 7, 9, any day!) – literally right after it happened.

When I walked outside after having saved this, there again was (a more faint) purple light in the air. It changed to white light and suddenly I became extremely light headed (saw some white light), without realizing it sat/lay down, found myself in a very soft feeling where I was awake, but barely aware, suddenly exclaimed: “what the fuck” in bewilderment after several seconds and heard the words “..that he has to act normally.” (“…dat ‘ie normaal moet doen.”) and saw a dark/black stain in the air. These were the spirits from the past I had been breathing with earlier that day (of the yellowish/brownish color). When I, however, acted normal after that they began to act very aggressive again and say things like “I want to beat him to death” (“ik wil hem doodslaan”).

Second, more detailed account:

(‘Second and First Occurrence of the Light of the Night (Respectively)’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/KfshkC1Hgv8)

(‘Second Occurrence of the Night’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/CKx7zmDyrUM)

(‘Impression of the Party I was having’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/3Uy1ohNixMw)

The light just appeared again. I went around town ****** people’s **** as retribution for the conscious participation people had had in the attacking the dark spirits did to me on numerous occasions. As I wrote that the very shy cat of the neighbors sat in front of the little gap I had between the curtains in front of me and looked at me with intent. I started writing this at 09:36 on 05-03-2021 (Sidney, Australia time), the light appeared at 09:32 and disappeared behind the houses across the street I live at 09:34 (Sidney, Australia time).

Right now I’m having a little private party with music from the UK Drill scene, listening to artists from LTH and right now a two-hour livestream in which the host also mentions my name (‘UK Drill – Live 2 Hour Sesh’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/TOnerpHZ24Y):

The light appeared again at 10:04 and disappeared at 10:06, I’m writing this at 10:07 (Sidney, Australia time).

Nature wants you to get your dues and collect debts. You lose your power if you think you have to hold the pain others give you like a martyr (as well as it could seriously damage you). I do recommend that you practice not reacting so that you have a choice, and do not HAVE to react – so you can see the third option, because nature doesn’t want you to get possessed and lose yourself. Stay true to yourself, your inner goodness, always see why what you’re doing is just (because it is not – and can never be – a bad thing) and to what you wanted with your good intentions when you started out, and have it be a service to that.

Something that may happen is, you try to find the exact right word, and there’s two short videos that you would like to edit. You can’t yet find the right word. Then the idea comes to mind that maybe you should edit those videos maybe the breath, doesn’t support you finding the word, because you were meant to first edit those videos first, (as by ‘staying on the channel’)

You’re trying to find the right way to write something, and as you distance yourself and ‘zoom out’ you see that it would be much better to put the information in a different spot that catches your eye, and was meant to go there. Then as you start writing you realize this happening was the exact thing you were writing about and so clarifies it a whole lot.

I use this music as a metaphysical weapon, because I know that on a deeper level the music, or lyrics that you resonate with, what you listen to, is what you’re saying on a spirit level, in this case, to dark spirits. Thus, freeing up auric obstruction and so de-possessing. What I do though, is also realize the deeper, spiritual, meaning behind this ‘Drill’-music. Physically, it is about ‘the trap’, selling drugs (or, the higher state of mind those drugs bring), where you stab or shoot your opposition: the ‘opps’, and try to not get caught by the police. A popular saying in drill music is ‘fuck the opps. And free the opps as well’. One by Sheff G, who is my favorite artist, a rapper from Brooklyn, is ‘free my evil villain’.

The deeper meaning is that ‘the trap’, is trying to shed (stab or shoot) the dark spirits, not get caught by police (those same dark spirits), to try to get to higher states of consciousness, light spirits, and you want ‘the opps’, really victims of these dark spirits, but being victims these dark forces working through them to oppose you, to be freed from them as well. I equate ‘the money’ they’re all chasing, to intimacy, light or de-possession, and equate shooting or stabbing opps, to taking away evil forces, be it by bird whistle or by dragging your foot across dark dots and smudges that are on the floor, or clapping onto hovering dark dots or ‘dust-particles’.

In the following song, you can hear Sheff G rapping about “the opps on the pavement” (01:13) , and “keep up switching locations. We eating, they hating” (01:18) so the dark spirits keep being surprised by the attack, and can’t adjust and anticipate on the attacks, to where attacking the black dots will work less.

‘TipTop HB X Sheff G – Bad habits’ “the opps on the pavement” 01:13, “keep up switching locations. We eating, they hating” (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/FpyspOCEUC4)

As such, lyrics, such as in this mix from LTH can come about where an artist from LTH, C1, says “irrelevant things just can’t be said. Don’t act like you ain’t got sense” (08:05) in this song, meaning that all this needless talking brings about, attracts these, dark spirits. And “I don’t really talk too much but my man’s up in the station writing books (bitch)” (33:08).

‘C1 – Lower Tulse (Mixtape)’ “irrelevant things just can’t be said. Don’t act like you ain’t got sense” 08:05, “I don’t really talk too much but my man’s up in the station writing books (bitch)” 33:08 (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/AXLhlPA-oqk)

The supposed physical meaning being not talking too much in a police interview, but really, on a deeper level, it meaning: giving them information by talking only makes them stronger.

Once, on the other side of town, a high class neighborhood, the newest one, having many voices in my head that I had accumulated in the center of town, I cycled there and a peace fell over me. Still, I could not stop talking, although I did try. Then, I heard a voice in my head saying ‘bitch!’ as to say, too weak to stop talking and now ruining the peace here.

Then, I was able to stop talking, and I left the neighborhood with a very calm and nice signal. All the people who think this music is really about dealing drugs and stabbing others, and act as such, are getting lost in physical diversions, instead of understanding the true essence it has, and why they resonate with it, on a spiritual level.

Once, I saw a picture of a drill rapper, and seeing a higher chakra colors (purpleish and bluish transparent color in his eyes) we connected on a higher chakra level, so our auras connected, and a painful scheut of very black energy (dark spirit), entered my body and hurt me a little bit, showing that indeed, demons get created and the pain of people who have been killed, still chasing the people who killed them (naturally resulting in a dark spirit) with all this killing going on.

Furthermore, they mock their victims in these videos ‘[such and such] got put in a spliff’ ‘[such and such] got splashed’ ‘[such and such] is resting in piss’, and I ‘could remember’ these victim’s (who were and chose to be part of this and try to win at the game, and, if they had made moves in it, most likely weren’t innocent either) frustration being put to shame like that, this now being what their name or title entails, being a loser of the game in this way, without being able to do anything about it. So, they must still chase the perpetrator, their aura still hungry having been left so unfulfilled.

This is not what I listen to the music for. I listen to it, to make me stronger against child-rapists and people who eat children called dark spirits, and be able to save more young girls. As the friend who had seen the face flying towards me had said: “killing two niggas (depicting these anti-social criminal types – of course being analogous for dark spirits, also on his end) is not such a terrible thing. But if you save one little girl, you’re a hero” (“als je twee negers vermoordt (depicting these anti-social criminal types – of course being analogous for dark spirits, also on his end) is het niet zo erg. Maar als je een klein meisje redt, ben je een held.”). Keep in mind that people originally of African descent, have been robbed of their auras, their culture and the feeling or energy it has, their ancestors, and have experienced the most dreadful aging of their signal through slavery while innately having the youngest signal, compared to white, or even asian people, the most recently coming from living in and in happy with nature and animals. So contrary to their social position being very tough, because they have been treated as second class citizens for a long time, and, because of having the toughest position, displaying more bad (either actually criminal or simply having a culture that seems more anti-social, such as rap, towards the society, than say, the image of a white banker in a suit) behavior (while these stereotypes of, say, a white banker in a suit, having, at the time, originally, been developed for, so tailored to, white people, and not them, so them not having these positive stereotypes that speak to them as associatively as white people.

A suit has been developed by the white man, originally for the white man, the whole color scheme having been developed with its skin tone in mind, for instance, so simply it being possible that it does not look as good on a brown-skin person. Whom originally, had colorful clothing, or may look better in white suits), only making them more shunned and looked at with suspicion, and subconsciously (or perhaps consciously in dire cases, the risk being there regardless) by the police. I myself, could not imagine how hard it must be, because I have always had the looks, with blonde hair and blue eyes, of ‘the favorite brother in law’, always being given the benefit of the doubt and much friendlier and home-like treatment, by police, which, me being a very sensitive person, makes all the difference and would have had a huge impact on me and how I see society, had it been any different. But, these people really having the most zen energy, and lightest spirits (despite the aging that our fake matrix has tried to, and does them). So it makes sense, their ancestors having been taken away, that in such big cities as London (which, having been there, I remember the entire city smelling like Indian cooked lamb meat, which I now know is blocked higher chakras), their spirits trying to reach this light state, and light spirit consciousness, again, which manifests into, under such large pressure, into these grimy shapes.

I would advice people of African descent, to reinvent the culture of their original heritage (what do I know about it, but what comes to my mind is) colorful clothes, happy dancing rituals (even at funerals) and living in and in harmony with nature and animals. Rather than dark spirits giving them the grimiest, meanest, least intimate paradigm or culture, to get them as hard as possible because they’re the people with the youngest signal and the lightest spirits (those people still being present in Africa), and, when not having been ruined by the fake-matrix, have mothers with very zen, soft, calm energy, that are very sweet to their child. Because it is the dark spirits, and the culture they had grown, having to find warmth and shade in the cold winters and not being able to live in harmony with nature like them, that came for them, and are now trying degenerate and eradicate the youngness of their signal or consciousness, as much and soon as possible.

Again, I cannot imagine how hard it must be to be of African descent in our fake-matrix and can totally imagine that it would have made me see the world in a much more grimy way, society as less homy and intimate and more as a cold matrix that is only about currency (money) and thus made me behave in a totally – not really having positive stereotypes which primarily have my skin-color on them, and so with which I can genuinely intimately associate myself with and sympathize with, only hip hop culture which innately (not that that’s necessarily a bad thing in the context of our, at a deep level not intimate, fake-matrix) yields more anti-social behavior – anti-social and this lack of intimacy and pain from being treated less intimately and seen as homy, so treated as such, person, always, subconsciously, being experienced as more alien, something not from the home but from away, something that exists out there somewhere else, so, subconsciously treated as such, the energy which is being fed to you feeling as such – really on an auric level being abused – the pain this causes leading to, criminal behavior.

Note that, although I love beautiful music, in (the mood of) this fake-matrix life, I only listen to rap music, and have for years. Only by brown-skin artists. So I feel deeply connected with my sun-skin (because the sun made their skin not being more pale like that) brothers. I don’t think about it, I just resonate with their music more, and this must be because, on a spiritual level, they’re just more intimate to me. As Sheff G says in one of his songs: “my brothers, no friends”. Brothers, who go to any length to have each others back, never betray each other, as opposed to the typical friend, who will look at you weird when you ask to borrow them some money, can end up being frenemies and usually pretty much always end up stabbing each other in the back, as family will even do in most cases in the case of white people. My other favorite artist, who really is a duo with and the dearest ‘brother’ of Sheff G, Sleepy Hallow, saying: “if I got two dollars and bro got no dollars, we splitting them bucks” (02:13). Which to me, is the closest thing I have found in this human, fake matrix paradigm, to the animal everyone being yourself (even if an animal kills to eat, he/she still does it with innocence and because they are hungry, not because they enjoy it).

‘Sheff G – Under Pressure’ “if I got two dollars and bro got no dollars, we splitting them bucks” 02:13 (YouTube link: https://youtu.be/sPpiB24uqTc)

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sPpiB24uqTc&feature=youtu.be

When I hear the lyrics ‘bad from birth’ as can be seen in the video, of course you’re made to think you’re bad if you’re really good in his dark spirit run world, I realize I really am good and always have been, and don’t associate with it. But it does show, that if you maintain your high premise of intimacy (and not lose yourself), nature will perfectly well see your use for, and appreciate, resonate with, and like your vibe and you doing this. Again, nature doesn’t want you to lose yourself, but it really doesn’t want you to not fight back against dark spirits either. That’s why the birds fully supported me *********** up people’s ****. When asking them who was doing my spirit wrong, they would make a sound if I said a persons name who has (me knowing they had, but asking for confirmation).

When I said, ****** stranger’s ****, ‘they’re responsible as a collective’ (these dark spirits being kept in such a prevalent position), a couple of ducks came flying towards me and near over my head. After, when (on speed) having had really good vibes listening to the bird noises early in the morning, and then starting to get attacked and hurt by dark spirits from the neighbors of the yellow colors as they woke up, and said ‘I should break their window’ (which I, much later, did), a little bird flew in front of me so as to say he agreed. After having seen the purple light the first time, this was on speed, I walked by their house by the street side and I heard one of the persons living there saying: “go away! Go away! Go away! Go away!” (“ga weg! Ga weg! Ga weg! Ga weg!”)

Third account:

This all was completely sober.

After I wrote a lot today, I had written the text from hearing animals spirits walking into my room up until the part with ‘Headcrack’ and the guy that smiles so nice, and the part about the electro shocks; and earlier today, from animals being able to dial in up until what will be good to animals feeling your aura, animals wanting to be around you if you have clean breath and you being able to de-possess yourself by burping (and after writing this the part about my former friend and the light spirit clearing the dark spirit from my room in whose room I was in my mind for a second, the part about my family, dark spirits lying, not being conscious, having to do with deceased, the part about being able to clap away dark spirits, and dark spirits saying sorry always being fake), the light appeared for a third time. It appeared between 11:18 and 11:21. As I’m writing this (the top of this paragraph) it’s 11:25 (Sidney, Australia time). Again, numerology means you numbers of which the number consists until they’re below ten, or one digit max., which makes up the numerological number. 2+5=7, which as I said is the magic number, especially when accompanied by a nine, 1+1=2, 2+7=9, so that’s a seven accompanied by a nine. Noticing these numbers will allow you to notice synchronicities, as you see it when you’re somewhere and there are these magical numbers, and they also are with the spirit of the alignment these bring. So you increase your alignment by tuning into these numbers knowing what they envelop.

The light just appeared again twice. It’s 13:48 as I’m writing this (Sidney, Australia time).

The light just appeared again.

And the light just appeared a fourth time.

And the light just appeared again.

And again, and again, and again, and again, and again (of which I was too late snap a picture as it disappeared behind the building too quickly) (five times).

‘Purple Light’ YouTube link: https://youtube.com/shorts/9OZow8hGGUo

‘🎆🎆🎆’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/z5A5dqPEI00

‘🎆🎆🎆’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/7c0KeXscAls

‘🎆🎆🎆’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/5ZQZqfAcLOE

‘🎆🎆🎆’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/4AKoUYO9E_U

‘🎆🎆🎆’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/z5A5dqPEI00

– (Extra: )How the Physical Universe Works

How the physical universe works:

Black Whole – Nassim Haramein (2011)(YouTube link: https://youtu.be/3syWhnLULkc)

The birds in the tree of my neighbors backyard who helped me a lot and kept (and keep) me safe:

(‘💜’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/x_RcoqBTteA)

I also worked with all the other birds. Also the crows a lot, flying over me to keep me in their cloud, as did the little ones from the tree and all the others.

(‘Written by:’ YouTube link: https://youtu.be/x_RcoqBTteA)

Written by: Ivo Bär – 13-11-1995.

(Hendrik van Viandenstraat 19.

I was able to do this because of the animals. Not because of-, but despite the town.)

Completion guide: 11:02 25-03-2021 (Sidney, Australia time).